Volume Iii Part 60 (1/2)
Why I found myself so ”used up” after ”Hard Times” I scarcely know, perhaps because I intended to do nothing in that way for a year, when the idea laid hold of me by the throat in a very violent manner, and because the compression and close condensation necessary for that disjointed form of publication gave me perpetual trouble. But I really was tired, which is a result so very incomprehensible that I can't forget it. I have pa.s.sed an idle autumn in a beautiful situation, and am dreadfully brown and big. For further particulars of Boulogne, see ”Our French Watering Place,” in this present week of ”Household Words,” which contains a faithful portrait of our landlord there.
If you carry out that bright Croydon idea, rely on our glad co-operation, only let me know all about it a few days beforehand; and if you feel equal to the contemplation of the moustache (which has been cut lately) it will give us the heartiest pleasure to come and meet you.
This in spite of the terrific duffery of the Crystal Palace. It is a very remarkable thing in itself; but to have so very large a building continually crammed down one's throat, and to find it a new page in ”The Whole Duty of Man” to go there, is a little more than even I (and you know how amiable I am) can endure.
You always like to know what I am going to do, so I beg to announce that on the 19th of December I am going to read the ”Carol” at Reading, where I undertook the presidency of the Literary Inst.i.tution on the death of poor dear Talfourd. Then I am going on to Sherborne, in Dorsets.h.i.+re, to do the like for another inst.i.tution, which is one of the few remaining pleasures of Macready's life. Then I am coming home for Christmas Day.
Then I believe I must go to Bradford, in Yorks.h.i.+re, to read once more to a little fireside party of four thousand. Then I am coming home again to get up a new little version of ”The Children in the Wood” (yet to be written, by-the-bye), for the children to act on Charley's birthday.
I am full of mixed feeling about the war--admiration of our valiant men, burning desires to cut the Emperor of Russia's throat, and something like despair to see how the old cannon-smoke and blood-mists obscure the wrongs and sufferings of the people at home. When I consider the Patriotic Fund on the one hand, and on the other the poverty and wretchedness engendered by cholera, of which in London alone, an infinitely larger number of English people than are likely to be slain in the whole Russian war have miserably and needlessly died--I feel as if the world had been pushed back five hundred years. If you are reading new books just now, I think you will be interested with a controversy between Whewell and Brewster, on the question of the s.h.i.+ning orbs about us being inhabited or no. Whewell's book is called, ”On the Plurality of Worlds;” Brewster's, ”More Worlds than One.” I shouldn't wonder if you know all about them. They bring together a vast number of points of great interest in natural philosophy, and some very curious reasoning on both sides, and leave the matter pretty much where it was.
We had a fine absurdity in connection with our luggage, when we left Boulogne. The barometer had within a few hours fallen about a foot, in honour of the occasion, and it was a tremendous night, blowing a gale of wind and raining a little deluge. The luggage (pretty heavy, as you may suppose), in a cart drawn by two horses, stuck fast in a rut in our field, and couldn't be moved. Our man, made a lunatic by the extremity of the occasion, ran down to the town to get two more horses to help it out, when he returned with those horses and carter B, the most beaming of men; carter A, who had been soaking all the time by the disabled vehicle, descried in carter B the acknowledged enemy of his existence, took his own two horses out, and walked off with them! After which, the whole set-out remained in the field all night, and we came to town, thirteen individuals, with one comb and a pocket-handkerchief. I was upside-down during the greater part of the pa.s.sage.
Dr. Rae's account of Franklin's unfortunate party is deeply interesting; but I think hasty in its acceptance of the details, particularly in the statement that they had eaten the dead bodies of their companions, which I don't believe. Franklin, on a former occasion, was almost starved to death, had gone through all the pains of that sad end, and lain down to die, and no such thought had presented itself to any of them. In famous cases of s.h.i.+pwreck, it is very rare indeed that any person of any humanising education or refinement resorts to this dreadful means of prolonging life. In open boats, the coa.r.s.est and commonest men of the s.h.i.+pwrecked party have done such things; but I don't remember more than one instance in which an officer had overcome the loathing that the idea had inspired. Dr. Rae talks about their _cooking_ these remains too. I should like to know where the fuel came from.
Kindest love and best regards.
Ever, my dear Mrs. Watson, affectionately yours.
[Sidenote: Mr. Clarkson Stanfield, R.A.]
TAVISTOCK HOUSE, _Friday Night, Nov. 3rd, 1854._
MY DEAR STANNY,
First of all, here is enclosed a letter for Mrs. Stanfield, which, if you don't immediately and faithfully deliver, you will hear of in an unpleasant way from the station-house at the curve of the hill above you.
Secondly, this is not to remind you that we meet at the Athenaeum next Monday at five, because none but a mouldy swab as never broke biscuit or lay out on the for'sel-yard-arm in a gale of wind ever forgot an appointment with a messmate.
But what I want you to think of at your leisure is this: when our dear old Macready was in town last, I saw it would give him so much interest and pleasure if I promised to go down and read my ”Christmas Carol” to the little Sherborne Inst.i.tution, which is now one of the few active objects he has in the life about him, that I came out with that promise in a bold--I may say a swaggering way. Consequently, on Wednesday, the 20th of December, I am going down to see him, with Kate and Georgina, returning to town in good time for Christmas, on Sat.u.r.day, the 23rd. Do you think you could manage to go and return with us? I really believe there is scarcely anything in the world that would give him such extraordinary pleasure as such a visit; and if you would empower me to send him an intimation that he may expect it, he will have a daily joy in looking forward to the time (I am seriously sure) which we--whose light has not gone out, and who are among our old dear pursuits and a.s.sociations--can scarcely estimate.
I don't like to broach the idea in a careless way, and so I propose it thus, and ask you to think of it.
Ever most affectionately yours.
[Sidenote: Miss Procter.]
TAVISTOCK HOUSE, _Sunday, Dec. 17th, 1854._
MY DEAR MISS PROCTER,
You have given me a new sensation. I did suppose that nothing in this singular world could surprise me, but you have done it.
You will believe my congratulations on the delicacy and talent of your writing to be sincere. From the first, I have always had an especial interest in that Miss Berwick, and have over and over again questioned Wills about her. I suppose he has gone on gradually building up an imaginary structure of life and adventure for her, but he has given me the strangest information! Only yesterday week, when we were ”making up”
”The Poor Travellers,” as I sat meditatively poking the office fire, I said to him, ”Wills, have you got that Miss Berwick's proof back, of the little sailor's song?” ”No,” he said. ”Well, but why not?” I asked him.
”Why, you know,” he answered, ”as I have often told you before, she don't live at the place to which her letters are addressed, and so there's always difficulty and delay in communicating with her.” ”Do you know what age she is?” I said. Here he looked unfathomably profound, and returned, ”Rather advanced in life.” ”You said she was a governess, didn't you?” said I; to which he replied in the most emphatic and positive manner, ”A governess.”
He then came and stood in the corner of the hearth, with his back to the fire, and delivered himself like an oracle concerning you. He told me that early in life (conveying to me the impression of about a quarter of a century ago) you had had your feelings desperately wounded by some cause, real or imaginary--”It does not matter which,” said I, with the greatest sagacity--and that you had then taken to writing verses. That you were of an unhappy temperament, but keenly sensitive to encouragement. That you wrote after the educational duties of the day were discharged. That you sometimes thought of never writing any more.