162 MU LINGXIs DILEMMA 2 (1/2)
”Not exactly regretting. But, I just can't help but wonder and ask these 'what if's' that I had in my mind.”
”MEOW”
[Well, if you were thinking about the friendship that you guys were starting to develop. I believe regardless if it was you as Mu Lingxi or Su Yan, if you guys were all fated to be together and become friends, then everything will fall according to its place. Just like chess pieces in a game.]Find authorized novels in Webnovel，faster updates, better experience，Please clickfor visiting.
”Do you think they will hate me, once they learned about my true identity?????”
”MEOW”
[I won't be able to guarantee what they will exactly feel once they learned your true identity. After all, it can be said that you betrayed their trust. But if it a true friendship, they will not hate you for it, but you will definitely hurt them...]
”I don't want to hurt anyone Janus. I just want to live my own life the way I wanted it to be. I just want to be happy...”
”MEOW”
[Are you a happy now???]
” I don't know... Every time I see them, the more I see how good they treated me as a friend, the more scared I feel. I'm scared for the day to come that they will learn my true identity. I'm scared to see them turn cold. I'm scared that they will be different from how they were right now.”
”MEOW”
[You were scared to lose them because you already see them as your friend.]
”MEOW”
[It's up to you. You can always come clean and get rid of that thing that was bothering you. But you must ready yourself for its consequences. Everything you do has a fair share of its boon and bane.]
”The moment that I decided to crossdress and defy my fate, I know that there will be consequences for my action. But now I'm scared of that consequence. Now that I might be losing a friend. I only have you in this life, Janus, and I appreciate it. But is it really greedy of me to want them to stay with me as my friends as well?”
”Humans are greedy in nature. The moment they got something they want, they will start wanting something else. That's how life is. It is not your fault feeling that way, little lass, everyone does that. Now, it was only a matter of how you achieve those goals that you want.”
”I had this dream. In my dream, I became a very bad person. Janus, will you remain by my side even I do many awful things???”