Part 31 (1/2)
The building would burn in ten minutes, but Mr. Morrison had not that much time. The moment had come. She saw it with perfect clarity. She had been carrying the piece of paper upon her for weeks, for Mrs. Emmett had said she must. Mrs. Emmett had known this time would come. Lucy's fingers trembled as she reached into her sack. Doing this was against everything she believed, and yet she could not let Mr. Morrison die. Not when she had discovered that she loved him.
She took out the paper, the magic circle she had botched, the one Mrs. Emmett had saved her from using because it contained a flaw, a flaw that would set the demon free and have it a.s.sault the most arrogant living thing in the room. Here and now, that must be Byron. It had to be.
She balanced the sleeping baby in the crook of her arm while taking the circle between her fingers. Using her thumbnail, she dug savagely into her own finger until she succeeded in making a cut. It was small, but it was enough, and she let a drop of blood form upon the circle.
”What are you doing?” asked Byron. ”Your spells won't work here.”
”The spell was cast long ago,” said Lucy. ”I merely awaken it.”
It happened too quickly to see. It was like a wall of wind, dark and terrifying in its shapelessness and void. It was without form, and yet that form had a face and eyes and teeth in its nothingness. It was like the creature she had seen those months ago when she had freed Byron of his curse, but more soa”blacker and more shapeless and more horrifying. It was invisible to the eye, and yet it blotted out all light. It was terror itself, and Lucy's mind reeled at the thought of what place such a being must come from.
She staggered back, remembering to hold the baby, concentrating, for she knew if she did not, she would let go. She would let go of everythinga”the child, her sense of self, her sanity. She had unleashed this thing upon the world, and she had to hope it did not destroy her.
The terrible, empty void lifted Byron and tossed him across the room. He hit a wall and landed upon the floor. His body rocked with spasms, and blood flowed freely from his mouth. Then he was still, his eyes wide and unblinking. Whatever manner of creature had killed him had gone back to whence it had come. It had been in the mill for but a few seconds, but Lucy believed she was lucky to have escaped with her sanity intact. Lord Byron was not so lucky. The poet lay amid the growing flames with his neck twisted into an impossible, grotesque angle. Blood poured from his nose and open mouth. Lord Byron was dead.
There was no time to regret what she had done. The fire was spreading quickly, and smoke was already choking the mill. Mrs. Quince had already fled the building. Sophie ran over to Byron's broken body, weeping silent tears.
”There is no time,” Lucy cried. ”He is dead. Get out before the whole place burns.”
Sophie could not hear her. Had she the power to hear, she still would not have comprehended the words. She was lost in grief.
Holding Emily in one arm, Lucy put her other around Mr. Morrison's chest and began to drag him to the door. He was so heavy, and her exertion strained her every muscle, yet she would not relent. Out of the corner of her eye, she saw Sophie doing the same with Byron. She was making great progress as well. Good for her, Lucy thought. Let us see what she could do with a baby in one arm.
Emily began to cry, perhaps from the movement, perhaps from the growing heat. Lucy could spare nothing even to soothe her. She pulled and pulled, gaining ground by inches, until she managed to get Mr. Morrison out of the building and ten feet away. She dropped him, heaving, panting for breath. Emily was wailing. Lucy saw a crowd of workingmen, of machine breakers, of Luddites. She recognized one from the crowd who had, so long ago, accosted her outside Norah Gilley's party.
”Don't worry, miss,” he said. ”We won't keep the mill from burning, but we'll make sure it don't spread. And we already took care of Lady Harriett's men and her woman Quince too. You do what you've got to, while we put out the fire and then destroy every frame in there.” In the crowd she thought she saw a familiar form, stooped and ragged and visible only out of the corner of her eye. It was Ludd. Only it was not Ludd any longer. He was diminisheda”perhaps by Mary's death. Lucy could not know. Now he was but a man, a strong, healthy, and vibrant man, but no longer magnificent and unknowable Lucy set down the baby, who continued to wail loudly, but out of fear, not pain. For now Mr. Morrison needed her. She took out her bag, and began to reach for her healing herbs. She tore open his s.h.i.+rt to reveal the wound, above the heart and to the right. It bled copiously. It would be fatal, she was sure, without her help, but she would keep him alive. She would save him. He would still need a surgeon to remove the bullet, but she would keep him alive until one was found.
Lucy applied her herbs. She wrote out a healing charm in the dirt around him, and gathered dirt and put it in his pocket. She placed a bloodstone and a piece of quartz in his pockets.
His breathing came more easily. He turned to her. ”Byron?” he asked.
”Dead,” she said.
”And me?”
”Not dead.” She forced herself to smile. ”I mean to keep you that way.”
”If I do not live, you must not use the book on my behalf. I do not want that.”
”I could not if I wished it,” said Lucy. ”Sophie had the book all along. I could not risk Lady Harriett finding it upon me.”
Mr. Morrison tried to rise but fell back again. ”You must get the pages away from her. She has knowledge of the craft.”
”But what could she a?” Lucy began to say, and then she saw what Mr. Morrison meant. She knew what Sophie could do with it. Holding the crying child close to her breast, she darted up to where she had last seen Sophie, but the girl was gone, as was the body of Byron. In the soft earth, two sets of footprints led away, and remaining, pressed to the earth with a stone, were only the pages of the Mutus Liber fluttering gently in the soft breeze as though they were not mere paper, but living things.
35.
SUMMER WAS NOW COME TO THE HOUSE CALLED HARRINGTON IN Kent, and it was thus far a mild summer, pleasant but not cool enough to worry the farmers who longed for a good harvest. The days were bright and green, and Lucy could not remember ever seeing her sister, Martha, so happy. Little Emily showed no ill effects of her abduction in the spring. She was, as before, a cheerful and robust child, p.r.o.ne to inexplicable bouts of irritation and sadness, as were all babies, but easily soothed by her mother's kiss or a happy diversion. She was a precocious thing, not yet ten months, already spewing a babble of noises in imitation of words, crawling quite skillfully and making the occasional, if unsuccessful, attempt to walk upon her plump legs.
Lucy was gone from her Uncle Lowell's house, with no intention ever to return. She was in her old home, and she could not be happier, though her stay there was but temporary. Upon Mr. Buckles's death, Harrington reverted to an even more distant cousin, a naval captain of no small heroic reputation. He had written a long and bl.u.s.tery letter to Martha, proclaiming that he was in no hurry to take possession of the estate, not when there were so many French prizes yet to be had, and left the house in her care until such time as the war ended and he had the leisure to see to mundane affairs such as farming and household management. She and Martha would have to vacate sometime, but Lucy was grateful for this period of gentle transition.
She went to town but seldom, and only when necessary. Rumor of her shame at the hands of the rake poet Byron had spread quite rapidly to Kent, and Lucy could not appear in public without exposing herself to the upturned noses of women or the lecherous stares of men. The world believed Lucy would lift her skirts without hesitation, and while this infamy saddened her, she could not regret it. Her reputation was a small sacrifice to preserve the people she loveda”small indeed in comparison to what Mrs. Emmett and Mary had given.
Mary had given everything to preserve England, to save Lucy and her niece, and to make certain the Mutus Liber did not fall into the wrong hands. Now the book was back with its true owner, and every day Lucy dedicated long hours to decoding the confusing and obscure elements of alchemy. Slowly she came to understand its symbols and how to apply them. Alchemy was change, and change was but an alteration of what was into another shape. Lead into gold, aging into immortalitya”these were but the low-hanging fruit that had tempted generations of alchemists, but the art was so much more than that, so much more subtle, and Lucy regularly sat up long into the night, her eyes straining by the candlelight, to grasp what was, by its nature, almost too slippery to be contained.
More than once she had almost quit the endeavor and thrown the book aside as incomprehensible madness. Or, if not that, at least too complicated for her mind. Perhaps others might make sense of it, but Lucy would entrust it to no one. In those dark moments she told herself that she need not master the book. Perhaps it was best that she not master it, and enough that she keep the book out of other hands. These moments of despair did not last long, and soon enough, feeling ashamed of her weak will, Lucy returned to the task. Mary had allowed herself to be erased from existence so that Lucy might retain control of the book. Lucy would make certain she honored Mary's sacrifice.
Lucy could not think of Mary without being struck by melancholy. She had chosen annihilation and oblivion, had elected to be blasted out of existence, with no hope of continuation or resurrection.
Or, Lucy thought, one morning a month or so after the decisive encounter at Newstead, it was what she believed she had done. Could Mary know, truly know, what she would face after her earthly demise? Was she not as ignorant as men are of their own fate? That something lay beyond this life was now a certainty to Lucy. She had seen far too much evidence to doubt it, but Mary could not know that she was barred from such a continuation. It soothed Lucy to think that somewhere, in some state, her friend continued.
It also comforted her to look upon those who had benefited from Mary's sacrifice. Emily thrived, as did Martha. The loss of her husband had initially been a terrible blow. Lucy had not told her sister the truth, not at first, for there was so much to absorb, but in time Lucy chose to sit Martha down and tell her everything. First she told her about the magic, proved it to her with a dozen demonstrations before Martha could bring herself to anything like belief. Then she unveiled to Martha the truth about Mr. Buckles, and all that had pa.s.sed between them. It had been a difficult evening, full of tears and horror, but it had been necessary. She would not say it, but Lucy knew that Martha had accepted that if ever a creature deserved destruction, it was Mr. Buckles, a man willing to sacrifice his own child at his mistress's whim.
Martha's life was made easier by not wanting for money. Martha immediately gave Lucy the five thousand pounds that should have come to her upon the death of their father. The money itself meant not so much to Lucy, now that she was free of her uncle's tyranny, as well as any threats of unwanted marriage. She also felt certain she could use her talents to meet any needs. What mattered to her was that her father's wishes had, at last, been fulfilled, and that somewhere he knew that. Other than the safe return of her niece, nothing she had done in her life gave her more satisfaction.
Lucy had exchanged several letters with Mr. Blake, who accepted her recounting of the events at Newstead without question, finding nothing strange or improbable in anything. He had sent to Lucy copies of his handcrafted books, which were strange and perplexing things, but Lucy treasured them, and believed they might contain important information if only she could figure out how to make sense of them.
As for Mr. Morrison, little was heard of him in the many weeks subsequent to the incident at Newstead. The ball from Byron's pistol had not done serious harm to his heart or his lungs, but it had shattered a portion of his collarbone, and his recovery had been both long and painful. Lucy had done what she could in those early days when he was too fragile to move and was confined to his room at a Nottingham inn. She showered him with talismans and herbs and poultices. She spent hours each day leafing through her books for formulas and secrets that might speed his recovery. That she did much good was beyond question, for his surgeon, who feared for his life, was amazed at how quickly Mr. Morrison recovered despite the severity of the injury.
Nevertheless, the wound required a long convalescence, and as soon as he was well enough to travel, he took his leave and departed for his family estate in Derbys.h.i.+re. Lucy had received a few letters from him, in which he discussed very little but his health. He thanked her for all she had done on his behalf and that of the country.
In response, Lucy wrote him long and chatty letters, informing him of the circ.u.mstances of her family, whose happiness owed much to his efforts and sacrifices. In one letter she spoke of her opinion about Mary's fate, about how no one could truly know her ultimate destiny. To this note she had received no answer, and Lucy feared she had overstepped her bounds. It seemed to her that she might never hear from him again.
Then, in midsummer, she received notice from Mr. Morrison that he was much recovered and was now traveling. He wished to call upon Lucy and her sister. He did so, without any further warning, some weeks later.
Lucy watched from the window as he exited his carriage, and the delight she felt upon seeing him took her by surprise. She wanted to see him. She knew that. She had been antic.i.p.ating his visit each day, feeling disappointed when there was no word from him. And yet, despite all that, she had not expected to feel as though the breath had been struck from her lungs. She had not expected her heart to thunder so alarmingly or her hands to shake. She had begun to suspect that the feelings for him that had come upon her in those dark days were an illusion brought about by the danger of their adventures, but now, seeing him healthy and recovered, she realized that it was far more than that. She knew that she had been living for this moment.
Martha rushed to the door and ushered Mr. Morrison within. Lucy marveled to see him so strong and healthy. A little thinner and more drawn in the face, but his color was good, and he appeared quite cheerful. He wore a handsome light brown suit, and looked so a so, Lucy did not know what. Remarkable, she supposed. He appeared healthy and confident and comfortable. He appeared every bit the man who had so fascinated her four years ago, and every bit the man she had fallen in love with only months past.
When he set eyes upon Lucy, he colored considerably, and rose from his chair in the sitting room to bow to her. Lucy felt herself break into a great smile, and it was all she could to do keep herself from embracing him.
After much fussing about tea and cakes and fruit, the three of them sat together for well over an hour, and little of moment was discussed beyond Mr. Morrison's health, which he claimed was as good as could be expected. He still experienced some pain and limitations in movementa”a result of the ball remaining lodged in his flesha”but his recovery had far exceeded even the most optimistic hopes of the medical men, and he could complain but little.
After a sufficient time had pa.s.sed, Mr. Morrison cleared his throat and inquired if anyone would care to walk outside on so beautiful a day. Lucy at once expressed her enthusiasm for the notion, but Martha had the good sense to decline. And so it was that the two of them went outside to stroll down the country lane in the general vicinity of town.
”The Luddites continue their insurrection,” said Lucy after a prolonged silence. ”I read that they make inroads into Lancas.h.i.+re and Yorks.h.i.+re.”
”And my own Derbys.h.i.+re as well,” said Mr. Morrison. His voice was easy and neutral. ”Ludd's power is now one of influence and inclination. He can lead men to destroy what he hates, but little more. They make their statement, and perhaps it is even a statement that needs to be made, but I do not think their insurrection will amount to much.”
”So I failed?”
Mr. Morrison laughed. ”They failed to end the world as we know it, certainly, but I do not consider your efforts a failure. Ludd's vision was as flawed and dangerous as Lady Harriett's. Neither side has won, and we will find a balance in the end. The world found its third way and did so because of your actions.”
Lucy blushed, but she also smiled.