Part 30 (2/2)
Even with the thought, Michael was back. He held a handgun in one hand; a longer gun she thought was a shotgun in the other.
Gerard said, 'You think I'm just going to let you walk away with those?' But even Sarah knew he was bluffing.
Michael ignored him. He said to Sarah, 'We should go.'
'That's a Purdey. It's a very expens'
'Gerard. I'm sorry.'
'I hope you know what you're doing, Sarah.'
'Rufus tried to kill me. Remember that.' She put her hand on his shoulder, stretched lightly and kissed him on the cheek. 'We're looking for a little girl. And we really mean to find her.'
Because there was nothing more to say, they left then. Gerard didn't say goodbye. He didn't rub his cheek, either.
In the car, Michael said, 'Did you have to do that?'
He'd put the guns in the boot. The street had been empty; n.o.body to see him do so. Not as far as they were aware, anyway.
'Do what?'
'You know.'
She knew. She didn't bother replying. 'We should go. Remember?'
'Go where?'
'The only reason they've got Dinah is because they want you to come looking for her. Right?'
'Right.'
'So it stands to reason she's somewhere you can find her. Somewhere you know.'
'I'm not stupid, Tucker.'
'I think she's '
'On the island. Yes?'
'I think she's on that island. Yes.'
He put the car into gear, and started to drive.
II.
Howard still had the letter on his desk, words like fulsome and sincere dripping from it like honey off toast. When Amos Crane took the p.i.s.s, he didn't muck about. But there it was anyway: a written apology, with a coded reference to an incident definitely not described as violent a.s.sault. Crane might have farted at a departmental meeting for all the detail offered. In a lot of ways, then, an admirable achievement, and for all Howard knew, maybe Crane would have made it behind a desk after all. The letter would go in his file, of course. Just before the red ribbon went round it.
Crane was now, the letter said, taking a few hours off, catching up on some sleep; would be into the office later, to tidy up before leaving for Scotland. Howard already knew the first part of that, because he'd been having Crane's flat watched. A team of three: two in the van with The Fabulous Bakin' Brothers daubed on the side, next to a picture of a large rabbit eating a cookie, and one in the launderette further down the road, the same load of was.h.i.+ng cycling round in circles while he waited for his portable to beep. All three were freelance; this, Howard lied to himself, out of respect for Amos's feelings: he couldn't send colleagues to see him off. Insult to injury. Though his real reason was, n.o.body who'd ever worked with Amos would take him as a target: not for feeling, friends.h.i.+p, loyalty, but fear.
That was how matters had stood three hours ago.
Now, Howard was b.u.t.toning his jacket, unb.u.t.toning, b.u.t.toning, unb.u.t.toning . . . Catching himself at last, he forced his hands to the desktop. Slight tremor. More than slight, actually. Extreme a bit nearer the mark. He picked up the letter once more, put it down. Three hours. That was when the boys in the van called to say the product had just come in, and would be despatched as soon as possible. And since then: Nothing.
There was always the danger that things would go wrong. One day he'd have a sampler made of that, and hang it on the wall behind his desk. When things go wrong, there is always danger. Amos Crane was no longer a spring chicken, of course, and the three hard tickets he'd sent were young, enjoyed their work, and not overburdened with self-doubt: it was always possible that they'd finished the job and popped off for an early supper, forgetting to phone in first . . . Perhaps he should have flying pigs added to the design on his sampler. Amos Crane had never been a chicken of any description. The three hard tickets were young, enjoying both their work and an exaggerated sense of their own abilities. There was a world of difference between, say, arranging an accident for an overweight minister whose carnal appet.i.tes were in danger of becoming a public embarra.s.sment, and preparing an early grave for a pro like Crane. They hadn't forgotten to call, Howard knew that. They were beyond the reach of any mobile, that was all.
Very soon now, he was going to have to go out and see for himself.
In the end, Howard did what he had to do: because it was his job, because it was his duty, and because so long as he was the first to find out what happened, he'd get to choose what spin to put on events. He didn't drive he rarely did, in Central London but took the tube instead just a few stops down the line, and made his way through a still pulsing Soho to the hungry-looking block where Amos Crane had kept a flat these past months, above a dying record shop and an apartment whose occupant offered French lessons. Crane moved several times a year, whether from professional caution or simply an inability to settle down, Howard had never decided. Certainly, he had never asked. He wondered now, somewhat belatedly, if there were anyone who would ask Crane such normal questions; anyone who offered him the basic low-grade human contact most people took for granted. Not now Axel was dead, Howard concluded. Possibly not even before that. The Crane brothers, it was hard to doubt, did not put a value on social contact any higher than the one they put on human life.
. . . He wondered sometimes how he would end, and whether it would be anywhere like this: in the ashtray of the city, surrounded by thieves and no-hopers. It wasn't altogether impossible. While the job paid well, and only went to the highest of flyers, there were obvious disadvantages. Officially, you didn't much exist. To those who asked, you were a middle-ranking civil servant. Such anonymity brought its own pressures, especially when it was enforced, undeserved: actually, Howard wanted to tell people (tell women), I'm James f.u.c.king Bond. As good as. Actually, I'm M. I tell James Bond what to do . . . Had his career path gone a little differently, a little more traditionally, he'd be within striking distance of Attorney General by now, two, three Parliaments down the line. He'd have wielded less power, but been offered much more deference. The evenings he spent brooding on this disparity tended to be those he drank too much. This job had a high burnout rate. You got a quiet knighthood, but your career was comprehensively over. And even dream about your memoirs, and you woke up one morning at the foot of your stairs with a broken neck, and stone cold dead.
None of which was what he should be thinking about now. Crane's flat was up two flights; the street was busy, though anybody watching would a.s.sume he had a French lesson coming. Chance would be a fine thing. The Fabulous Bakin' Brothers were nowhere in sight; the launderette, he'd already pa.s.sed. There were women in there, but no man; and a large pile of very clean, untended laundry in a basket. The more he thought about it, the more the word his mind came up with was b.u.g.g.e.r.
The stairs were dark, and unpleasantly damp. Cheryl's flat first floor had a severely scarred front door, noticeable for the word f.u.c.k ornately designed from cigarette burns. People always find something to do in a queue, supposed Howard. His breathing had become more complicated; he told himself it was the stairs, the damp. Ahead of him was the top floor flat, its own door ajar, and he realized he was unb.u.t.toning his jacket again as he approached it, exactly as if he were preparing for physical exertion, for confrontation, which was not what he had in mind, exactly, but what was he going to do when he found Amos Crane in there, and Crane asked him why he'd sent three amateurs to do a pro's job? . . . Duty seemed a ridiculous word all of a sudden. Rank stupidity was what this was. Crane was no respecter of seniority; Howard's still-sore throat bore witness to that. And here he was, though, pus.h.i.+ng open the door, walking into the spider's parlour. And here was Crane, his hands and teeth still b.l.o.o.d.y, louring at him from an unspeakable corner of his flat, the bodies of his would-be a.s.sa.s.sins draped messily from the fixtures . . .
No.
Howard had to sit. The flat was empty. From an open window, a draught rushed through the rooms, carrying with it the noises of the street below: the thieves, the no-hopers, the honest stiffs and the working girls, all of them busy about their lives, which were still going on right now, just like Howard's.
He went home. First he went back to the office to check on incoming; then he went home, because he felt he'd deserved an early night in the company of a decent Chardonnay and one of his special videos. Amos Crane had gone to ground, and G.o.d Almighty couldn't find him without an effort. Effort, at present, was beyond Howard's reach. He felt uncharged, fried-out; felt, in fact, like the proverbial wet rag. What he'd done would have to be paid for, he knew that. Get in first, the manuals said. Do the other guy while he thinks you're a friendly. But if you do all that and still don't get the drop, you have to be prepared to get b.l.o.o.d.y.
. . . That was what was waiting for him when Amos Crane broke cover. Meantime, he'd go home, have a rest, do some thinking.
Another trip by tube, then, which more and more resembled, these days, a visit to the underworld. Crowds of ill-smelling, nervous pa.s.sengers, all crushed up too close together; many of them, he suspected, secretly enjoying the fact. On hot days, the blasts of air through the tunnels were pure sulphur. There weren't as many rats on the line as there used to be, though. Howard a.s.sumed poison was set for them, and wondered if that too tainted the air; another invisible addition to the perils of capital life.
Disembarked, relieved, back in the world, he stopped at his local deli and treated himself to houmus, ciabatta, olives, then bought an evening paper at the corner. A world-famous rock star had just joined the choir eternal in dubious circ.u.mstances: it was impossible for Howard not to take a professional interest, however much he tried to view it as simple entertainment. Amos Crane, inevitably, came back to mind. Amateurs, he'd told Howard once, a.s.sumed that if you left targets with their pants down, an orange in their mouth and a pair of tights wrapped round their neck, n.o.body asked questions. Forensics, in fact, were a real sod in such cases. You were better off tipping them out a window . . .
Thank you, Amos, he'd said. I'll keep that in mind.
He let himself in the front door; checked the mail out of habit. Nothing. His flat was ground floor, and getting in was a major security operation, calling on three keys. Inside, he dumped his shopping on the floor while he shut the alarm down, then put the shopping in the fridge, opened the Chardonnay, poured a borderline-insensible measure into a very large gla.s.s and drank most of it standing there, fridge door open, staring unfocused out of his flat's back window, and its view of not very much. Sometimes the view through the window was the same as the view in his head, he decided: just a blank, formless s.p.a.ce, as if somebody important forgot to fill in the details. Christ, and this was his first gla.s.s of wine. Much more, and he'd be speaking in French. He refilled the gla.s.s, shut the fridge door, and took his wine into the drawing room: a large, excellent place which always made him feel calm and comfortable, where, sadly, the first thing he saw was the sheet of writing paper on the gla.s.s-topped coffee table, and calm and comfortable left the agenda.
Howard,
I'll take the events of this afternoon as constructive dismissal, shall I? I won't go into how very upset this leaves me. Perhaps it's as well you're not in, or I might have acted in a way you'd regret.
I shall expect emoluments, pay in lieu (notice, holiday, etc.) to be arranged with your customary attention to detail. Meanwhile, I'm off to Scotland. Funny how some jobs you just can't let go, isn't it?
Downey is mine. Remember that. I'll attend to you when I get back.
Sorry about the mess in the bathroom.
Believe me, Amos He finished his wine first, because there was no longer any particular hurry. But having done that, the need to use the bathroom overcame him.
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