Part 4 (2/2)

I wondered if Tracy was telling me this with the expectation that I wouldn't tell her father. Or was she hoping I would?

”You said you needed to talk,” I told her. ”What about?”

Suddenly Tracy's tears began to flow. ”Why did Rosemary have to try to get custody of Heather?” Tracy wailed. ”Heather didn't want to go. Why would she? Her friends are here. If she'd had to go live in Tacoma, she wouldn't have known anybody. It would have been awful for her. Why did she have to go and spoil everything?”

I was struck as much by Tracy's blaming the victim as I was to hear her referring to her biological mother by her first name, rather than calling her ”Mother” or ”Mom.” I certainly shared Tracy's sentiments about Heather's being plucked out of her comfortable home and settled situation in the Seattle school district in order to be dragged off to the wilds of Tacoma, but since it was now clear that Heather wouldn't be making that move, how could everything be spoiled? Besides, with Rosemary Peters dead, I somehow felt obliged to defend the poor woman.

”I've never been a mother,” I told Tracy, ”so I certainly don't know everything that went on in Rosemary Peters's life. I've been a father, though. I'll be the first to admit that when my kids were little, I wasn't much of a dad. I had a lot of the same difficulties your mother had.”

Tracy looked at me. ”You did drugs?” she asked.

”My drug of choice was alcohol,” I told her. ”I was into booze big-time. For years after Karen and I got divorced and while I was still drinking, Scott and Kelly didn't have much to do with me. I don't blame them. And you shouldn't blame your mother either. Once she ditched the drugs, she probably realized what she had been missing all those years and simply wanted to reestablish a relations.h.i.+p with you two girls. It's understandable that she'd like to get to know her daughters again. She was hoping to make up for lost time.”

My answer didn't have much of a beneficial effect. Tracy turned away from me and stared out the window, saying nothing.

”Look,” I said. ”What's happened to your family is terrible. Your mother was never a responsible parent, and that's too bad-for you and, even more so, for her. But having even a bad parent murdered is an incredible tragedy. It's not something that goes away. It stays with you forever. When something like this happens, it comes completely out of the blue. It's so unexpected that it hits you in all kinds of ways. Many of these reactions won't make sense. Your mother essentially abandoned you to drugs, so maybe you think you shouldn't feel anything right now, but you're hurting anyway. And part of you is mad as h.e.l.l at your mother for dying. That's a standard reaction, too. It's like she's abandoned you all over again. That's how grief works, Tracy. You're alive and she's dead. You're operating in a storm of warring emotions. Anger is only one of them.”

Tracy took a ragged breath. ”I'm scared, too,” she whispered.

”Scared of what?” I asked. ”That the same thing will happen to you? That your mother's killer will come looking for you?”

”No,” Tracy said, shaking her head. ”I'm scared he did it.”

”He who?”

”I'm scared my dad did it, Uncle Beau. I'm afraid he's the one who killed her.”

There it was, out on the table. The admission was shocking enough to take my breath away.

”That's crazy!” I exclaimed. ”Why on earth would you even think such a thing?”

”You don't know what Dad's been like lately,” she said. ”It's been like living with a stranger. And you should have seen what happened the other night when that poor guy served the papers about the hearing.”

”What night?”

”Friday. At dinnertime. It was like Dad went crazy or something. I've never seen him act that way. And then there's whatever's going on with him and Mom,” Tracy added. ”They don't even sleep in the same bedroom anymore. I'm afraid they're going to get a divorce.”

I had been best man at Ron and Amy's wedding. For years, while they rented a unit here in Belltown Terrace, Ron, Amy, and the girls had paraded in and out of my place with easy familiarity. I had known about the little comings and goings in their lives, their tragedies and triumphs. I had heard about soccer games and Girl Scout cookies and bandaged knees and fingers. Once they had moved into Amy's folks' old place up on Queen Anne Hill, a lot of that close, day-to-day interaction had fallen by the wayside. Still, hearing from Tracy that Ron and Amy's marriage might be in trouble gave me another shock. Ron certainly hadn't hinted anything about marital difficulties when he had stopped by earlier.

So I did the first thing people do under those circ.u.mstances-I hit the denial b.u.t.ton.

”It probably just seems that way to you,” I said. ”Maybe things aren't as bad as you think they are.”

”They are, too,” Tracy sobbed. ”Amy's the only real mother I've ever known. What if Dad goes to jail and Amy divorces him? What then? She'll keep Jared, but what about Heather and me? What'll happen to us? Our whole family will be wiped out.”

While I was doing denial, Tracy was busy conjuring up every worst-case scenario in the book. If my s.h.i.+T squad colleagues were going to be asking me questions about Ron Peters tomorrow morning, this was information I would have been far better off not knowing, but I couldn't ask Tracy to stop talking. She needed somebody to listen to her right then, and J. P. Beaumont was the only guy who was handy.

”I had no idea things were this bad,” I said quietly.

”And it's all because of her!” Tracy said forcefully. ”It's been getting worse ever since she came to live with us.”

Teenagers aren't long on using proper p.r.o.noun references, and her statement confused me. ”Who's living with you?” I asked.

”Amy's sister,” Tracy said. ”Aunt Molly.”

I had met Amy's p.r.i.c.kly older sister, Molly Wright, on only one occasion. What little I knew about her came more from published news stories rather than anything Ron and Amy had told me. Molly's now former husband, Aaron, had been a high-flying dot-com millionaire CFO before the dot-coms all became dot-gones. Molly and Aaron had been an integral part of the local society scene, with their pictures prominently featured in the press coverage of various high-profile charitable events. When the dot-coms disappeared, lots of people lost jobs and money. Aaron lost both, and his freedom as well. In the subsequent financial meltdown, someone discovered that he'd been cooking the company books. What ultimately got him locked away in a federal prison cell was tax evasion.

”I had no idea Molly was living with you,” I said.

”Well, she has been,” Tracy said, ”for months now. And she's like, well...she's not a very nice person. She's always picking away at Dad behind his back and causing trouble.”

My one personal interaction with Molly Wright had been at Ron and Amy's wedding. Had it been up to me, I would have upgraded Molly from Tracy's tame ”not nice” to a J. P. Beaumont eighteen-carat b.i.t.c.h. If Molly had installed herself under Ron Peters's roof, I could see how the man might be feeling a little stressed out.

But Tracy hadn't come jogging down Queen Anne Hill in what was now a full-scale blizzard to cry on my shoulder about her evil step-auntie. She had come to talk about her father. In light of the fact that s.h.i.+T was going to be investigating the case, I knew I should stay out of it, but Ron Peters is a friend of mine-my best friend. I couldn't leave it alone.

”Tell me about your dad, Tracy,” I said. ”What was going on between him and...”

I paused, uncertain of how I should refer to the dead woman.

Tracy stepped into the breach. ”Rosemary?”

”Yes.”

Tracy shrugged and put down her empty mug. ”I guess she started talking about the custody thing a few months ago, saying she wanted us to come live with her. I turn eighteen in just a couple of months, so I wasn't worried about it, but Heather was. She turns sixteen in three months. It would mean changing schools just before her junior year, and that sucks. Dad asked Heather what she wanted to do. She said she'd run away from home before she'd go live in Tacoma, or else she'd do something drastic, whatever that means. Dad said fine, that he'd talk to Rosemary and tell her the answer was no. And he did, but then, last Friday, when we were having dinner, there was a knock on the door, which Jared opened. This guy comes in and serves Dad with papers because Rosemary isn't taking no for an answer. She's decided to take him to court.”

”What happened then?” I asked.

Tracy sighed. ”Like I said, Dad went nuts. Friday is pizza night at our house. When the guy left, Dad picked up a pizza box and Frisbeed it at the door. Pieces of pizza went everywhere. I've seen Dad angry sometimes, whenever Heather and I did something bad, but I've never seen him act like that. It scared me, and it scared Mom, too. I know because I heard her talking about it with Molly later, after Dad was gone.

”Anyway, after he threw the box, he turned and wheeled himself out of the room. We all followed Dad out to the carport. Mom asked him where he thought he was going. He said Tacoma. He said he was going to talk to Rosemary and set her straight about a few things. Mom kept trying to talk him out of it, but he wouldn't listen. He just got in the car and drove away like he hadn't heard a word she said. She was crying when he left.”

”How long was he gone?”

Tracy paused before speaking. ”A long time,” she answered finally. ”Mom was upset, so I took Jared into the family room to watch Finding Nemo. I thought I heard Dad come home while we were still watching the movie, but I must have been mistaken. Jared and I both fell asleep on the couch. I woke up around two. I put Jared to bed in his room, and then I went to bed, too. My bedroom is right over the driveway. I had just gotten into bed and turned out the lights when I heard Dad's car.”

I thought about that for a minute. ”Your father said he talked to two Tacoma detectives this afternoon. Did he give you any details about how Rosemary died?”

Tracy shook her head. ”It happened over the weekend. Some guy out walking his dog found her body by the water yesterday afternoon. They can't tell exactly how long she's been dead because of the cold.”

I nodded. Extreme cold weather delays some of the tissue changes medical examiners rely on in approximating time of death.

Exhausted, Tracy closed her eyes. Once again she leaned back against the cold window, as though she no longer had the energy to sit up on her own. She had come to me looking for a place to unload her worst nightmare-her suspicion that her beloved father had murdered her biological mother. I understood the kind of emotional barriers that had stood in the way of her doing that.

When a loved one turns homicide suspect, family members are usually the last to tumble to the idea that their husband or son or daughter or wife could possibly be guilty of such a heinous crime. Some, no matter how convincing the evidence, never do accept a family member's guilt. The fact that Tracy had reached such a d.a.m.ning conclusion so early in the process was something I couldn't ignore. The guys from my office wouldn't ignore it either. No wonder Tracy was worried. So was I. Tracy was focused on her father's angry outburst with the pizza box. I was concerned about how much Ron hadn't mentioned when he stopped by to tell me about Rosemary's death.

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