Part 34 (1/2)

”Yes.”

There was a knock, and, to Annele's great surprise, the minister entered.

”Welcome, sir,” said Annele, courtesying; ”did you wish to see me or my husband?”

”I came to see you, knowing your husband was absent. I have not seen you in the village since your parents' misfortune, and thought I might perhaps be of some service to you in your trial.”

Annele breathed more freely. She had feared her visitor might have been sent by Lenz, or had come to speak with her about Lenz.

She spoke with sorrow of the fate of her parents; her mother, she feared, would not long survive the shock.

The minister talked with her kindly and seriously, urging her to be resigned to what had happened, whether merited or unmerited, and not to let distress and anger tempt her to shut herself from the world. He reminded her of the one honor that he had spoken of at her marriage; he spoke pleasantly of her father, whose misfortune was due to a miscalculation on his part, not to any intentional dishonesty.

”I have not forgotten your wedding day,” pursued the minister, giving a slight turn to the conversation, ”and wished to bid you good morning on this fifth anniversary of it.”

Annele smiled and thanked him; but the thought struck to her heart that Lenz had gone away without bidding her good morning. With a return of her old fluency she expressed her pleasure at the honor her minister paid her; spoke of his great goodness, and of the daily prayers the whole village ought to offer up to Heaven for his life and health. She evidently was bent upon keeping the conversation away from her own affairs. She would allow no approach, on the minister's part, to the subject of her domestic difficulties. Under the influence of that determination she drew in her breath and moistened her lips, as the postilion Gregory might when he was about to blow one of his elaborate pieces on the horn.

The minister understood it all. He began by praising Annele for her many good qualities,--for her neatness and careful management in her parents' house, and her keeping her purity unharmed by the temptations which a.s.sailed her there.

”I have long been unaccustomed to praise,” answered Annele. ”I had almost forgotten I was ever of account in the world.”

The minister saw his bait was taking. As a physician wins the confidence of his patient by describing to him all his aches and pains, till the sick man looks up joyfully and says, ”the doctor knows my whole case; he will surely help me,” so the minister described to Annele all her mental sufferings, and wound up with saying: ”You have often seen blood flow from a wound, from a blow or a bruise, and know how the black blood gradually takes on all the seven colors. So it is with the soul's wounds. An injury, an offence, like that black blood gradually takes on all the colors,--hate, contempt, anger, self-pity, pain at the wrong, a desire to return evil for evil, and again to let all go to wreck and ruin.”

It seemed to Annele that she was holding her heart in her hand, and showing how it had been bruised and lacerated and beaten to pieces. The good-for-nothing barrelmaker, he would have his full deserts now! ”O, help me, sir!” she cried.

”I will; but you must help yourself. You do not need to change your nature. Alas for you, if you did! I am old enough to know how easy that is to say, and how hard to do. You only need to shake off something foreign to yourself that has taken possession of you. There is goodness in you, only you have forgotten it, wilfully forgotten and ridiculed it, and prided yourself on your sharpness of tongue. Have done with all pride and ambition. Where is no oneness of heart is a continual wearing upon each other.”

The little man's figure dilated, and his voice gathered strength as he laid bare before Annele her false pride and her hard-heartedness towards Franzl. Annele's eyes flashed at the mention of Franzl.

So the secret was out. It was she, the thievish, hypocritical old woman, who had brought this upon her, and turned all against her. No cat ever mangled a mouse with greater pleasure than Annele now pulled to pieces old Franzl.

”If I could but have her once in my clutches!” she snarled.

The minister waited till her fury had spent itself. ”You make yourself out to be wicked and vindictive,” he said; ”but I still maintain you are not so at heart.”

Then Annele cried to think she should be so sadly changed; it was not like her to be so angry. It was all because she had nothing to do; was not allowed to be earning anything. She was not made to keep house for a petty clockmaker; she was made to be a landlady. If the minister would only help her to be landlady, she promised he should never see another spark of anger or cruelty in her.

The minister admitted that she had all the requisite qualities for a landlady, and promised to do everything in his power to make her one; but implored her, as she kissed his hands in grat.i.tude, not to trust for her improvement to any external circ.u.mstances.

”You are not yet subdued by your grief and humiliation. Your pride is your sin, the cause of unhappiness to you and yours. G.o.d forbid you should need the loss of husband or children to bring you to your better self!”

Annele's seat was opposite the mirror, and as she caught the reflection of her face in the gla.s.s there seemed to be a cobweb floating before it. She pa.s.sed her hand several times across her face.

The minister got up to go, but Annele begged him to sit with her a little longer; she could think better when he was by.

The two sat in silence. No sound was heard except the ticking of the clocks. Annele's lips moved, but no voice came from them. She kissed his hand devoutly when he at last departed, and he said: ”If you feel yourself worthy, if your heart is softened, really softened, come to the communion to-morrow. G.o.d bless you!”

She wished to accompany him part of the way. ”No courtesies now,” he said; ”be first pure and humble in heart. Judge not, that ye be not judged, says the Saviour. Judge yourself; look into your own heart.

Accustom yourself to sit quiet and think.”