Part 20 (1/2)

*What?'

*Father White told him. It's true, isn't it?'

*No! Yes! For f.u.c.k's sake, Trish.'

*She's an attractive woman.'

*Tris.h.!.+'

*And I know we're not back to normal in bed yet, but that'll come, I just need time to . . .'

*Trish, will you stop being stupid? For Jesus' sake. Look. I had a few cans of beer while I was interviewing her. She was fascinating. It's a fascinating story. But it's got nothing to do with bed . . . Trish, listen to me. I was walking home. I was fine. I heard something behind me. Then there was a gunshot. Then there were torches, half a dozen of them, then they were chasing me. It was like a rabbit hunt, except I was the rabbit.'

*Are you sure it wasn't a rabbit hunt? You just got in the way.'

*Do I look like a rabbit?'

*Sometimes. Besides, it was dark. Maybe . . .'

*Trish. They tried to kill me. There is no doubt about it. Now. You are here with me. Your baby is here . . .'

*My baby . . .?'

*Our baby . . . I am not exposing you or him to that kind of danger. More importantly, I'm not exposing myself to that kind of danger. We have to get out of here.'

She sighed. *Dan, it's not that I don't believe you . . .'

*It's just that you don't believe me. f.u.c.k it, Trish, you wouldn't believe me if I came in with one arm blown off and an eye missing.'

*Yes, I would. If you'd witnesses.' She smiled. I scowled, but it slipped into a smile too. *Dan, have a bath, let me look at those cuts, have a sleep. We can't go anywhere tonight. If you still feel the same way in the morning then we'll go.'

*I'm not drunk,' I said.

*Okay. I'll run the bath.'

*I'm not drunk,' I said again.

*I know.'

She ran the bath. I looked at Little Stevie, still asleep on the sofa. *I'm not drunk,' I said.

Maybe I was a little. I fell asleep in the bath and drowned.

Or would have if Patricia hadn't prodded me back awake and then carefully cleansed my wounds. I didn't tell her about the birds, though she enquired about the birds.h.i.+t. I should have told her everything, but I had never told her everything. Once you start down that road it's difficult to get off it. Besides, she would find out eventually. She always did.

I went to bed. She stayed up to settle Little Stevie. I was out like a light, and didn't wake until eleven the next morning. The first ferry of the day was long gone. The bedroom door opened and I was halfway through snapping a *Why didn't you . . .' when I saw that Patricia was carrying a tray. There was an Ulster fry, a can of Diet Pepsi and a Twix on board, and you can't shout at someone who does that for you. *What's the occasion?' I asked.

*I love you,' she said.

*I know. What's the occasion?'

*I love you.'

She put the tray on my lap, kissed the top of my head, and left me to think.

I loved her deeply and had betrayed her far too many times. It would have to stop. That and the drinking. I had been drunk. But I had been chased and Bill Oddie or somebody who looked like him was dead. We still had to get off the island.

And yet it was a pleasant autumnal morning. The sun was out. The gra.s.s was dry. The hedgehog was sleeping peacefully in his box. Last night's nightmare seemed just that.

I stood in the gra.s.s, contemplating. Patricia came up behind me and slipped her hands round my waist. *Do you still want to leave the island?' she asked.

I nodded slowly.

*Not so sure,' she said.

I nodded some more.

*It could have been a mistake,' she said. *Or deliberate. But there are bad guys everywhere, Dan. In Belfast. In New York. Everywhere you've gone there've been bad guys. You don't run away from bad guys, it's not you.'

*I didn't have a baby before.'

*That's nice. But it's no reason to run away.'

I loved her. I looked at her. I wanted to tell her about Bill.

*Look,' she said, *let's just drive into town. There's a policeman, why don't we tell him you were attacked? Make it official. It's only a small place, he might have an idea who . . . he'll know who has guns, won't he? If they shot at you, there'll be, y'know, cartridges or something, won't there?'

I sighed. Then tutted. *It all seems pretty lame now, in the cold light of day. Some-big-boys-hit-me kinda stuff.'

*It's up to you.'

It was. Bill was dead. I had to tell someone. But not the police. Not on Wrathlin, at any rate. I would tell the Cardinal. I needed rea.s.surance. I needed to make my report, make sure he could cover me if I got into deeper trouble, that he could send in an emergency rescue squad if I needed it. Or at least say a prayer for me. He could thank me for doing a good job and tell me to leave, or tell me to stay and offer me more money. Or I could demand more money. Danger money.

We got ready and drove into town. We had the windows down. It was really nice. The sun was squinting in off the ocean. Patricia was all excited. We would get the one o'clock ferry, she'd do some shopping for baby clothes and nonmicrowaveable meals in Ballycastle while I called the Cardinal. If he agreed to my terms I'd get a big carry-out and hide it under some rugs in the back of the car for our return to the island. I was never drinking again; it would just be a comfort to know it was there if I really needed it.

We'd half an hour to wait for the ferry. We sat on a wall at the harbour, enjoying the sun. I felt refreshed. My bird pecks were not serious. I'd slept through the hangover, or the adrenaline of the night before had destroyed it. The ferry was just pulling in when we heard a commotion coming from the Main Street.

A tractor with trailer was rolling along the street, the farmer behind the wheel blasting his horn the whole way. People were peering out of shop doorways wondering what his problem was. Patricia smiled at me. *Must have discovered the mother of all carrots or something.'

I smiled back, but there was already a sick feeling in my stomach. The tractor pulled to a halt outside the police station. It was just a terraced house with a small office at the front, not even a sign that said POLICE or anything. The farmer jumped down and hurried inside. A crowd started to form around the trailer. Patricia raised her eyebrows. I nodded. She took my hand and we stepped across in time to see the police officer, Constable Murtagh, come hurrying out of his house, halfway through b.u.t.toning his jacket.

We joined the small crowd at the back of the trailer. They parted for Murtagh and the farmer. There was an old tarpaulin lying on the floor of the trailer, covering something. Murtagh shook his head at it. Patricia squeezed my hand and the crowd held its breath as the farmer caught the edge of the tarp, looked once at Murtagh, who nodded, and then threw it back.

There was a gasp of horror from the crowd, and from Patricia, and from me, even though it wasn't a surprise.

Bill was lying there, blue, bloated and broken.