Part 16 (1/2)

While I half-expected him to dismiss the clue she'd given me, he seemed matter-of-fact about accepting it as the truth.

”She's his sister,” he said with a shrug. ”She probably knew the guy better than anybody. If she says he kept a diary, chances are it's true. Go for it, Jess.”

Feeling encouraged, I left Nick in the bedroom with his law books and headed to Linus's study. I brought my two dogs with me. I figured that if anyone caught me and I needed an explanation for what I was doing in the deceased's private sanctum, my story would be that Max or Lou had run in there and I'd had no choice but to retrieve them.

And if anyone wondered why chasing my dogs involved studying the books lined up on the shelves, I'd explain that I was a pa.s.sionate reader and couldn't resist looking at someone else's books to see if their taste matched mine.

Armed with an excuse that was a tad convoluted but I was pretty sure I could relate convincingly, I boldly went into the room.

”Hidden in plain sight,” Alvira had theorized about where Linus kept his journals. If she was correct that I was likely to find the notebooks in the most obvious spot, then the best place to start was his study, since it was the room that served as his home office whenever he was away from corporate headquarters.

The first thing I did was switch on the overhead light. As I did, thunder that sounded like a bowling alley on a busy Sat.u.r.day afternoon rolled through the house. For a fraction of a second, I thought I'd brought it on by venturing into a place where I wasn't supposed to be.

But I reminded myself that the storm had been raging for days, and I forged ahead.

I headed straight for the floor-to-ceiling bookshelves that lined the wall behind Linus's huge wooden desk. It was still covered with stacks of paper. From the looks of things, Missy and Scarlett had barely made a dent in the tremendous task they'd taken on of going through Linus's files.

As my dogs sniffed around happily, thrilled to find themselves amid a whole collection of new smells, I parked myself in front of the shelves and began studying the spines of the hundreds of books. Fortunately, Linus had been fairly organized. He'd grouped them by subject.

The fact that the books I was looking for wouldn't have t.i.tles stamped on their bindings helped. Still, I wished I'd thought to ask Alvira if he preferred spiral notebooks or bound books. At least that way I'd have had an idea of what I was looking for.

I must have spent ten minutes studying Linus's book collection, and I still didn't see anything that looked like a diary. The few volumes that struck me as possibilities turned out to be dead ends when I pulled them off the shelf to check them.

I finally gave up on the bookshelves. I glanced around the room, looking for other likely spots. Checking the doorway every five seconds, I perched on the swivel chair and opened a few drawers in Linus's desk. Next I tried the wooden file cabinets on the other side of the room. Signs of organization were here, too, mainly in the form of neatly lined-up file folders. But I didn't find a single book.

Where should I try next? I wondered, sighing loudly as I dropped back into the desk chair. By this point, I was convinced that his study was a dead end. That left the second-most obvious possibility: Linus and Charlotte's bedroom.

The idea of prowling around in there made me uncomfortable. There was something sacred about a couple's bedroom, at least as far as outsiders were concerned. Having stumbled upon Charlotte combing through old photographs and other keepsakes all by herself in that room made me even more reluctant to pry.

But the fact remained that I was lucky enough to have the entire house to myself, other than Nick, who of course would have understood, and Alvira, who didn't seem to make a habit of strolling the halls during the day. That made this the best time--and possibly the only time--for me to search for Linus's notebooks in his bedroom.

I still felt like an intruder as I crept up the stairs and into the master bedroom. I couldn't help wondering if the walls had eyes. At least the wallpaper in this room didn't appear to, the way it did in mine.

The first thing I did was close the door behind me to keep Max and Lou out. I wanted to get in and out as quickly as possible, and the last thing I needed was to be slowed down by the two kings of sniffing-every-single-item-within-reach.

Once that was done, I took a moment to survey the room. I noticed for the first time that this room was fairly pleasant. The wallpaper was powder blue, splashed with oversize off-white flowers complemented by tremendous green leaves. They looked like lilies of some sort. The furniture was the dark, heavy wooden stuff that filled the rest of the house, but somehow the dressers and bed in here didn't seem as clunky. The drapes were drawn tightly against the windows so they shut out the gray, stormy day.

But I wasn't here to critique the decor. I immediately set about my task. I began by checking the usual places: under the bed, inside the night table, in the top drawer of the dresser. When none of the usual hiding places turned up anything, I stood in the middle of the room with my arms folded across my chest.

Where on earth ...? I thought impatiently as my eyes darted around the room.

And then I noticed the curio cabinet. In fact, I practically kicked myself for not spotting it right off the bat. The tall, slender display unit stood proudly in the back corner, its curved gla.s.s doors crystal clear and its rich wooden surfaces gleaming. It was one of the few items in this house that looked as if someone had taken care of it.

It struck me as a very good place to stash important things.

I made a beeline for it, already feeling the adrenaline rus.h.i.+ng through my veins. Even in the dim light, I could see that it contained only a few items. But given their diversity, I concluded that they had been hand chosen for this special spot.

On the top shelf was a polar bear that looked as if it had been carved out of ice. Steuben gla.s.s, I surmised, which meant it was of the highest quality. The polar bear stood side by side with a colorful ball that reminded me of a kaleidoscope. That, I knew, was Venetian gla.s.s.

I glanced at the other items only long enough to ascertain that the soapstone carvings of an Inuit fisherman and the graceful clear gla.s.s vase weren't what I was looking for.

But what I found on the bottom shelf made me feel as if I'd just been hooked up to an espresso IV.

Neatly lined up were more than a dozen of those black-and-white marble notebooks that schoolchildren have used for decades.

So they do exist! I thought, certain I'd just found Linus's journals.

My hands were trembling as I carefully unlatched the gla.s.s door and opened it. I reached for the first notebook and pulled it off the shelf.

Handwritten on the front in bold black letters was 1992. I hesitated, listening to my heart thump against my rib cage as I contemplated the momentousness of what I was about to do.

I'd been yearning to find Linus's diaries ever since Alvira had mentioned them. Yet now that I actually held one in my hands, part of me felt that intruding into someone's private thoughts was wrong.

I had to remind myself that doing so could turn out to be the best way of finding his killer.

I opened the book, aware that blood was pounding through my temples with alarming speed. Inside, I found page after page of handwritten notes, along with the date of each day's entry.

Met with Bill Everett, I read. Looks as if merger will go through. Lunch with Tad and Edwin. Tad's marriage is falling apart--really sad. Makes me appreciate my Charlotte even more. I should remember to bring her flowers more often.

I cringed. I didn't know what I'd expected, but peeking inside the head of a man in this manner--even someone I'd never met--was making me feel like a cat burglar.

Even so, I read on. I found more of the same: short, choppy sentences that summarized each day of Linus's life. While his writing style made for difficult reading, the journal was explicit about what was going on in his life. He had named names, for one thing. For another, he had recorded his feelings, however briefly, about whatever had happened in his business dealings, his marriage, and his friends.h.i.+ps.

Which meant that Alvira's theory that his journals might contain a clue about what had been going on close to the end sounded more solid than ever.

But the day-to-day details of Linus's life in 1992 seemed too remote to be related to his alleged murder. I needed more-recent information.

So I slipped his journal from 1992 back onto the shelf and reached for the notebook that was the farthest to the right.

As soon as I pulled it out, I saw that the date written on the cover was 2007.

That can't be, I thought, staring at it. This is much too old. What about the most recent years? Didn't Linus keep a diary throughout his life?

I checked the shelf again, wondering if perhaps he'd run out of storage s.p.a.ce. But the notebooks weren't tucked in that tightly. There was still a good inch left--certainly enough room to store his journals from 2008 and beyond.

Which meant he'd stored his most recent diaries somewhere else.

Either that or someone had removed them.

Yet instead of feeling defeated, I felt energized. The fact that someone had gone out of their way to conceal Linus's final diaries increased my certainty that they contained clues about his murderer's ident.i.ty.

Which, in turn, increased my determination to find those missing journals.

Even though I had a feeling the notebook thief had found a really good hiding place, that didn't stop me from examining every nook, cranny, shelf, cabinet, and corner I pa.s.sed. I searched the bedrooms, wondering if whoever had killed Linus had also stolen his notebooks and hidden them in their room. But I found nothing. Next I went back downstairs, figuring I'd use the rest of the time I had to prowl around, looking for any secret doors or hidden staircases I'd missed.

I was standing in the front hallway, trying to plan my strategy, when I heard the sound of voices outside.

They're back! I thought, a wave of disappointment was.h.i.+ng over me.