Part 35 (1/2)

”For heaven's sake, don't be so theatrical!” said his uncle, and then, seeing that George was leaving the room: ”Come back here. You mustn't speak to your mother of this!”

”Don't 'tend to,” George said indistinctly; and he plunged out into the big dimly lit hall. He pa.s.sed his grandfather's room on the way to the stairs; and the Major was visible within, his white head brightly illumined by a lamp, as he bent low over a ledger upon his roll-top desk. He did not look up, and his grandson strode by the door, not really conscious of the old figure stooping at its tremulous work with long additions and subtractions that refused to balance as they used to.

George went home and got a hat and overcoat without seeing either his mother or f.a.n.n.y. Then he left word that he would be out for dinner, and hurried away from the house.

He walked the dark streets of Amberson Addition for an hour, then went downtown and got coffee at a restaurant. After that he walked through the lighted parts of the town until ten o'clock, when he turned north and came back to the purlieus of the Addition. He strode through the length and breadth of it again, his hat pulled down over his forehead, his overcoat collar turned up behind. He walked fiercely, though his feet ached, but by and by he turned homeward, and, when he reached the Major's, went in and sat upon the steps of the huge stone veranda in front--an obscure figure in that lonely and repellent place. All lights were out at the Major's, and finally, after twelve, he saw his mother's window darken at home.

He waited half an hour longer, then crossed the front yards of the new houses and let himself noiselessly in the front door. The light in the hall had been left burning, and another in his own room, as he discovered when he got there. He locked the door quickly and without noise, but his fingers were still upon the key when there was a quick footfall in the hall outside.

”Georgie, dear?”

He went to the other end of the room before replying.

”Yes?”

”I'd been wondering where you were, dear.”

”Had you?”

There was a pause; then she said timidly: ”Wherever it was, I hope you had a pleasant evening.”

After a silence, ”Thank you,” he said, without expression.

Another silence followed before she spoke again.

”You wouldn't care to be kissed good-night, I suppose?” And with a little flurry of placative laughter, she added: ”At your age, of course!”

”I'm going to bed, now,” he said. ”Goodnight.”

Another silence seemed blanker than those which had preceded it, and finally her voice came--it was blank, too.

”Good-night.”

After he was in bed his thoughts became more tumultuous than ever; while among all the inchoate and fragmentary sketches of this dreadful day, now rising before him, the clearest was of his uncle collapsed in a big chair with a white tie dangling from his hand; and one conviction, following upon that picture, became definite in George's mind: that his Uncle George Amberson was a hopeless dreamer from whom no help need be expected, an amiable imbecile lacking in normal impulses, and wholly useless in a struggle which required honour to be defended by a man of action.

Then would return a vision of Mrs. Johnson's furious round head, set behind her great bosom like the sun far sunk on the horizon of a mountain plateau--and her crackling, asthmatic voice... ”Without sharing in other people's disposition to put an evil interpretation on what may be nothing more than unfortunate appearances.”... ”Other people may be less considerate in not confirming their discussion of it, as I have, to charitable views.”... ”you'll know something pretty quick! You'll know you're out in the street.”... And then George would get up again--and again--and pace the floor in his bare feet.

That was what the tormented young man was doing when daylight came gauntly in at his window--pacing the floor, rubbing his head in his hands, and muttering:

”It can't be true: this can't be happening to me!”

Chapter XXIV

Breakfast was brought to him in his room, as usual; but he did not make his normal healthy raid upon the dainty tray: the food remained untouched, and he sustained himself upon coffee--four cups of it, which left nothing of value inside the glistening little percolator. During this process he heard his mother being summoned to the telephone in the hall, not far from his door, and then her voice responding: ”Yes? Oh, it's you! Indeed I should!... Of course.. .. Then I'll expect you about three... Yes. Good-bye till then.” A few minutes later he heard her speaking to someone beneath his window and, looking out, saw her directing the removal of plants from a small garden bed to the Major's conservatory for the winter. There was an air of briskness about her; as she turned away to go into the house, she laughed gaily with the Major's gardener over something he said, and this unconcerned cheerfulness of her was terrible to her son.

He went to his desk, and, searching the jumbled contents of a drawer, brought forth a large, unframed photograph of his father, upon which he gazed long and piteously, till at last hot tears stood in his eyes. It was strange how the inconsequent face of Wilbur seemed to increase in high significance during this belated interview between father and son; and how it seemed to take on a reproachful n.o.bility--and yet, under the circ.u.mstances, nothing could have been more natural than that George, having paid but the slightest attention to his father in life, should begin to deify him, now that he was dead. ”Poor, poor father!” the son whispered brokenly. ”Poor man, I'm glad you didn't know!”

He wrapped the picture in a sheet of newspaper, put it under his arm, and, leaving the house hurriedly and stealthily, went downtown to the shop of a silversmith, where he spent sixty dollars on a resplendently festooned silver frame for the picture. Having lunched upon more coffee, he returned to the house at two o'clock, carrying the framed photograph with him, and placed it upon the centre-table in the library, the room most used by Isabel and f.a.n.n.y and himself. Then he went to a front window of the long ”reception room,” and sat looking out through the lace curtains.

The house was quiet, though once or twice he heard his mother and f.a.n.n.y moving about upstairs, and a ripple of song in the voice of Isabel--a fragment from the romantic ballad of Lord Bateman.