Part 3 (1/2)

I saw there was no way out of it, so I sang it through.

Before I got half-way through the first verse I saw my judge's eye soften. Then I took courage--I felt myself winning the game--I went on boldly, and when I had finished, the Princ.i.p.al said--

”Come, we will go to the piano.”

My triumph was certain. I was sure of all my weapons. I sang my little ballad over again, and at length poor Monsieur Poirson, completely beaten, took my face in his hands, kissed me with tears in his eyes, and said--

”Go on, my boy; you _shall_ be a musician!”

My dear mother had acted prudently. Her opposition had been dictated by her maternal solicitude, but the danger of consenting too precipitately to my desire was outweighed by the heavy responsibility of perhaps impeding my natural vocation. The Princ.i.p.al's encouragement robbed my mother's objections of their chief support, and herself of the aid she had most reckoned upon to make me change my mind. The a.s.sault had been delivered. The siege had begun. It was time to capitulate. But she held out as long as she could, and, in her dread of yielding too soon and too easily to my prayers, she betook herself to the following plan, as her final resource.

There then lived in Paris a German named Antoine Reicha, who had the highest possible reputation as a theoretical musician. Besides being Professor of Composition at the Conservatoire (of which Cherubini was at that time Director), Reicha received private pupils in his own home. My mother thought of placing me under him to study harmony, counterpoint, and fugue--the elements of the art of composition, in fact. She therefore asked the Princ.i.p.al's permission to take me to him on Sundays during the boys' walking hour. As the time spent in going to and from Reicha's house, added to that spent over my lesson, practically covered the same period as the boys' airing, my regular studies were not likely to be interfered with by this special favour.

The Princ.i.p.al gave his consent, and my mother took me to Reicha's house.

But, before she handed me over to him, she thus (as she told me herself long afterwards) addressed him privately--

”My dear Monsieur Reicha, I bring you my son, a mere child, who desires to devote himself to musical composition. I bring him against my own judgment; I dread an artist's life for him, knowing, as I do, the many difficulties which beset it. But I will not ever reproach myself, nor let my son reproach me, with having hindered his career, or spoilt his happiness. I want to make quite sure, before all else, that his talent is real and his vocation true. And so I beg you will put him to the severest test. Place everything that is most difficult before him. If he is destined to be a true artist, no trouble will discourage him; he will triumph over it all. If, on the other hand, he loses heart, I shall know where I am; and shall certainly not allow him to embark on a career, the first obstacles in which he has not energy to overcome.”

Reicha promised my mother I should be treated as she wished; and he kept his word, as far as in him lay.

As samples of my boyish talent, I had brought him a few sheets of ma.n.u.script music--ballads, preludes, sc.r.a.ps of valses, and so forth,--the musical trifles my boyish brain had woven.

After looking them over, Reicha said to my mother, ”This child already knows a good deal of what I shall have to teach him, but he is unconscious of the knowledge he possesses.”

In a year or two I had reached a point in my harmony studies which was rather beyond the elementary stage--counterpoint of all kinds, for instance, fugues, canons, &c. My mother then asked him--

”Well, what do you think of him?”

”I think, my dear lady, that it is no use trying to stop him; nothing disheartens him. He finds pleasure and interest in everything; and what I like best about him is, he always wants to know the 'reason why.'”

”Well,” said my mother, ”I suppose I must give in.”

I knew right well there was no trifling with her. Often she would say to me--

”You know, if you don't get on well, round comes a cab, and off you go to the notary.” The very idea of a notary's office was enough to make me do miracles.

But, anyhow, my college reports were good; and though I was threatened with extra work to make up for lost time, I took good care the masters should have no cause to complain that my music interfered with my other studies.

Once indeed I was punished, and pretty sharply too, for having left some work or other unfinished. The master had given me a heavy imposition, 500 lines or thereabouts to write out. I was writing away (or rather I was scribbling with the careless haste which is usually bestowed on such a task) when the usher on duty came to the table. He watched me silently for some minutes, then laid his hand quietly on my shoulder and said--

”You know you are writing dreadfully badly.”

I looked up and answered, ”You surely don't think I'm doing it for pleasure, do you?”

”It only bores you because you do it badly.” He went on quietly, ”If you took a little more trouble about it, it would bore you less.”

The simple, sensible words, and the gentle and persuasive kindness which marked their quiet utterance, made such an impression on me, that I do not think I ever offended again by negligence or inattention to my work.

They brought me a sudden revelation, as complete as it was precise, of what diligence and attention really mean. I returned to my imposition, and finished it in a very different frame of mind. The irksomeness of the task was lost in the satisfaction and benefit of the good advice I had been given.