Part 8 (1/2)
They'd decided on what to say back at the coffee shop. ”We are investigating a website-DyingFriends. We understand you are a member on it,” Ken said.
”Yes.” Mr. Woo dug in the pocket of his robe, pulled out a pair of startlingly thick plastic-framed gla.s.ses, and put them on. ”What are you investigating?”
”Well, that's confidential. All we can say is that DyingFriends may be involved in some unethical practices. Can you tell us what the site has been like for you?” Ken asked.
Mr. Woo took a while to think this over, and Lei found herself squirming a bit under his magnified gaze as it switched between herself and her partner.
”Well, as you may have guessed, I'm dying,” he said. ”I have a caregiver, but she's out. I have no family that I am speaking to, and DyingFriends is a place where I can be dying and not be shame.” He gave a phlegmy cough. ”I don't get out much anymore.”
”We understand,” Lei said. ”It seems like it's a place where people who are in the same situation can get support. Has anyone ever talked with you about suicide on the site?”
”There are always people talking about it. We're dying. Suicide is a way to take control of that.”
Lei was struck by the power of that simple sentence. She'd thought she was definitely against suicide, but she was finding the issue much more complex and heartrending than she'd ever known.
”Do you feel like suicide is being promoted at all on the site?” Ken asked.
”It's a chat site. There are all kinds of people there-and lots of religious people who think suicide is a sin. So no.”
”Have you ever been approached by an administrator of DyingFriends?”
”No.” Even the small effort of talking seemed to be wiping Mr. Woo out, and he hunched in a storm of coughing. Lei stood up. ”Can I get you a gla.s.s of water?”
He nodded, still coughing, and she went into the vast kitchen and filled a gla.s.s, brought it back. His liver-spotted hand trembled as he drank, but he calmed his breathing.
”Thanks so much for helping us,” Ken said. ”And sorry to disturb you.”
”High point of my day, having FBI agents come to my house,” Mr. Woo said. ”I'm sure I won't see you again, but good luck with what you're looking for.”
They let themselves out, and Lei took a deep breath of fresh, suns.h.i.+ny air. ”G.o.d. What a way to end. You can tell by all this he was a successful man at one time.” She gestured toward the house as they crossed the bridge.
”I know. Depressing.” Ken unlocked the SUV and they got in. ”This is brutal. I think I understand why some people want to *get out early,' though he didn't seem to be one of them.”
”That's a kind of courage. To live to the end, looking death in the eye.” Lei sighed. ”But I'm beginning to understand the reasons better, and why people might even want help ending their own life.”
”It's a slippery slope,” Ken said. Silence fell as they got on the road, each occupied with their thoughts. Lei spent the drive researching Clyde Woo. A businessman worth millions, he owned a chain of convenience stores. According to the most recent news article she could find, he was ”graciously retired and enjoying his days golfing.”
It looked like it had been a long time since Clyde Woo had golfed, but the article was dated only a year ago.
She looked up their next listing, a woman named Betsy Brown. There was no information in the system but the driver's license basics and nothing on her personally. She was a thirty-two-year-old Caucasian female who shared a residence with her mother.
The house they pulled up to was modest, and Betsy Brown was in bed with a laptop on her lap when the caregiver let them in. She was puffy, with the indoor look of someone who hadn't seen the sun in months. The smile she gave them was strictly for form's sake.
After they'd stated their purpose, she made a little gesture to the keyboard. ”I can still type, and I can still eat and breathe on my own-but I don't know how long that will last. I have ALS. Lou Gehrig's disease.”
Lei must have looked blank because Betsy continued. ”It's a neurological disease that causes progressive paralysis until finally all the body's systems shut down. However, I'll have all my marbles up until the very end.”
”We're very sorry to hear that,” Ken said. Lei felt any words she could think of clogging her throat, ”oh s.h.i.+t” being the first thing that had come to mind.
”So yeah, DyingFriends is a place I can rant and rave; I can network with other people in my situation. I've found a whole ALS subgroup, since ALS is its own special h.e.l.l and is virtually always fatal within five years. So frankly, if I decide to get a little help getting out early, I figure I'm doing myself and the world a service.”
Lei and Ken left without anything specific, but Lei knew she'd never forget the woman's hopeless but defiant eyes. She was only a few years older than Lei and had been living an athletic life up until she began stumbling and falling on her daily runs.
Back in the Acura, Lei did some relaxation breathing and restrained herself from rubbing the pendant around her neck. ”Didn't think it could get worse than the old guy, but that was worse.”
”I know. I think we need a break.” Ken drove them to a nearby Zippy's. Lei ordered a bowl of chili and a salad and made herself eat. Being sad for these people and their horrible situations wasn't going to solve the case-though she'd begun to wonder if there was going to be any real criminal that could be brought to justice.
Ken held a mug of coffee and looked at her over the rim. ”Awfully quiet, Texeira.”
”I know. I'm really . . . I don't know. Betsy Brown. She was a runner before the ALS.”
”I know a little about it. It actually occurs a little more frequently in athletes. Terrible disease.” He set the mug down.
”So do you think it's criminal for her to have someone kill her before she eventually smothers to death, trapped in her own body?”
”Not for us to judge.” Ken shook his head. ”Just for us to figure out who's setting this up and catch them.”
”That's true, and I get that. Thank G.o.d our position is clear. But shouldn't people have some choice, some control, as Mr. Woo said, in how and when they go when they know they're going?”
”I guess. And probably, functionally, there is a degree of that through families receiving end-of-life care.” Ken blew on his coffee. ”I'm sure there's a bigger dose of morphine than normal here and there that no one's looking into. But legislating that? It just opens a door with potential for too much abuse.”
”I'm just sick, thinking about Betsy.” Lei stirred the remains of her chili. ”Corby too. Why did he want to die? It's so weird.”
”That's what we're here to find out. Glad we got involved with these cases-I think they're going to get way too complicated for HPD to track.”
Lei was still thinking about a young athletic runner struck down with progressive paralysis. ”I wish I'd never heard of ALS. I was better off not knowing about it.” Her hand trembled, and she reached up and held the pendant at her neck, rubbing it. ”Think I need a cup of coffee too.”
”I'll go call Waxman and check in.” Ken set a couple of bills on the table and stepped outside.
Lei waved the waitress over and ordered a coffee to go. She opened her wallet and spotted the fortune from her grandmother's lap desk. Shape your destiny.
She turned it over, looked at the phone number written on the back in her grandmother's precise handwriting.
Life was short. Maybe this was someone who had known her grandmother, someone special who could help Lei know Yumi a little more. On impulse, she took her phone out and punched the number in.
It rang. And rang. And rang. No voice mail came on the line, and she punched off, feeling deflated.
She took her coffee in the to-go cup and left cash on the table, pus.h.i.+ng out through the gla.s.s doors to get on the road to the next DyingFriends member's house.
Robert Castellejos had once been a tall man, but age and pain had bent him over. He was bowed with a tension that was evident in deep grooves beside his mouth and tightness around lashless, browless eyes. He served them tea, hot and sweet with honey from his own hives in the avocado orchard out back.
”Lost all my hair a month ago. Chemo.” He rubbed his s.h.i.+ny pate. There was a tremor in his hands that never quite went away. ”DyingFriends is a G.o.dsend. I can just be real on there. No one knows how to talk to a dead man walking.” He gave a little bark of a laugh.
Ken began his spiel on what they were looking for when Lei's phone toned. She looked down and saw it was the mysterious number from the back of the fortune. She held up a finger.
”Gotta take this.” She strode rapidly through the modest house and out onto the front porch. ”h.e.l.lo?”