Part 3 (1/2)

As we reached the high point of our emotion, a tall, bitter-mouthed woman suddenly entered the room without knocking. I knew it was Judy's mother. Her fierce eyes studied me, and then Judy. Without a word she took Judy's hand and led her away. The little girl clutched the magazines to her thin breast, and over her shoulder she blinked a tearful goodbye. She had come and gone as quickly as that, and I never saw her again. It was a mystery to the landlady too, for they had arrived and departed that very day, not even staying overnight.

Chapter Eight.

There was a letter from Hackmuth in my box. I knew it was from Hackmuth. I could tell a Hackmuth letter a mile away. I could feel a Hackmuth letter, and it felt like an icicle sliding down my spine. Mrs Hargraves handed the letter to me. I grabbed it out of her hand.

'Good news?' she said, because I owed her so much rent. 'You never can tell,' I said. 'But it's from a great man. He could send blank pages, and it would be good news to me.'

But I knew it wasn't good news in that sense that Mrs Hargraves meant it, for I hadn't sent mighty Hackmuth a story. This was merely the answer to my long letter of a few days ago. He was very prompt, that Hackmuth. He dazzled you with his speed. You no sooner dropped a letter in the mail box down on the corner, and when you got back to the hotel, there was an answer. Ah me, but his letters were so brief. A forty page letter, and he replied in one small paragraph. But that was fine in its way, because his replies were easier to memorize and know by heart. He had a way, that Hackmuth; he had a style; he had so much to give, even his commas and semi-colons had a way of dancing up and down. I used to tear the stamps off his envelopes, peel them off gently, to see what was under them.

I sat on the bed and opened the letter. It was another brief message, no more than fifty words. It said: 63.Dear Mr Bandini, With your permission I shall remove the salutation and ending of your long letter and print it as a short story for my magazine. It seems to me you have done ' a fine job here. I think 'The Long Lost Hills' would serve as an excellent t.i.tle. My cheque is enclosed.

Sincerely yours, J. C. Hackmuth.

The letter slipped from my fingers and zigzagged to the floor. I stood up and looked in the mirror. My mouth was wide open. I walked to Hackmuth's picture on the opposite wall and put my fingers on the firm face that looked out at me. I picked the letter up and read it again. I opened the window, climbed out, and lay in the bright hillside gra.s.s. My fingers clawed the gra.s.s. I rolled upon my stomach, sank my mouth into the earth, and pulled the gra.s.s roots with my teeth. Then I started to cry. Oh G.o.d, Hackmuth! How can you be such a wonderful man? How is it possible? I climbed back to my room and found the cheque inside the envelope. It was $175.1 was a rich man once more. $175! Arturo Bandini, author of The Little Dog Laughed and The Long Lost Hills.

I stood before the mirror once more, shaking my fist defiantly. Here I am, folks. Take a look at a great writer! Notice my eyes, folks. The eyes of a great writer. Notice my jaw, folks. The jaw of a great writer. Look at those hands, folks. The hands that created The Little Dog Laughed and The Long Lost Hills. I pointed my index finger savagely. And as for you, Camilla Lopez, I want to see you tonight. I want to talk to you, Camilla Lopez. And I warn you, Camilla Lopez, remember that you stand before none other than Arturo Bandini, the writer. Remember that, if you please.

64 Mrs Hargraves cashed the cheque. I paid my back rent and two months' rent in advance. She wrote out a receipt for the full amount. I waved it aside. 'Please,' I said. 'Don't bother, Mrs Hargraves. I trust you completely.' She insisted. I put the receipt in my pocket. Then I laid an extra five dollars on the desk. 'For you, Mrs Hargraves. Because you've been so nice.' She refused it. She pushed it back. 'Ridiculous!' she said. But I wouldn't take it. I walked out and she hurried after me, chased me into the street.

'Mr Bandini, I insist you take this money.' Pooh, a mere five dollars, a trifle. I shook my head. 'Mrs Hargraves, I absolutely refuse to take it.' We haggled, stood in the middle of the sidewalk under the hot sun and argued. She was adamant. She begged me to take it back. I smiled quietly. 'No, Mrs Hargraves, I'm sorry. I never change my mind.'

She walked away, pale with anger, holding the five dollar bill between her fingers as though she were carrying a dead mouse. I shook my head. Five dollars! A pittance as far as Arturo Bandini, author of numerous stories for J. C. Hackmuth, was concerned.

I walked downtown, fought my way through the hot cramped streets to The May Company bas.e.m.e.nt. It was the finest suit of clothes I ever bought, a brown pin-stripe with two pairs of pants. Now I could be well dressed at all times. I bought two-tone brown and white shoes, a lot of s.h.i.+rts and a lot of socks, and a hat. My first hat, dark brown, real felt with a white silk lining. The pants had to be altered. I told them to hurry. It was done in a little while. I changed behind a curtain stall, put on everything new, with the hat to top it off. The clerk wrapped my old clothes in a box. I didn't want them. I told him to call up the Salvation 65.

Army, to give them away, and to deliver the other purchases .] to my hotel. On the way out I bought a pair of sungla.s.ses. I spent the rest of the afternoon buying things, killing time. } I bought cigarettes, candy and candied fruit. I bought two reams of expensive paper, rubber bands, paper clips, note pads, a small filing cabinet, and a gadget for punching holes in paper. I also bought a cheap watch, a bed lamp, a comb, toothbrushes, tooth paste, hair lotion, shaving cream, skin lotion, and a first aid kit. I stopped at a tie shop and bought ! ties, a new belt, a watch chain, handkerchiefs, bathrobe and bedroom slippers. Evening came, and I couldn't carry any more. I called a taxi and rode home.

I was very tired. Sweat soaked through my new suit, and crawled down my leg to my ankles. But this was fun. I took a bath, rubbed the lotion into my skin, and washed my teeth with the new brush and paste. Then I shaved with the new cream and doused my hair with the lotion. For a while I sat around in my bedroom slippers and bathrobe, put away my new paper and gadgets, smoked good, fresh cigarettes and ate candy.

The delivery man from The May Company brought the rest of my purchases in a big box. I opened it and found not only the new stuff but also my old clothes. These I tossed into the wastebasket. Now it was time to dress again. I got into a pair of new shorts, a brand new s.h.i.+rt, socks, and the other pair of pants. Then I put on a tie and my new shoes. Standing at the mirror, I tilted my hat over one eye, and examined myself. The image in the gla.s.s seemed only vaguely familiar. I didn't like my new tie, so I took off my coat and tried another. I didn't like the change either. All at once everything began to irritate me. The stiff collar was strangling me. The shoes pinched my 66.feet. The pants smelled like a clothing store bas.e.m.e.nt and were too tight in the crotch. Sweat broke out at my temples where the hat band squeezed my skull. Suddenly I began to itch, and when I moved everything crackled like a paper sack. My nostrils picked up the powerful stench of lotions, and I grimaced. Mother in Heaven, what had happened to the old Bandini, author of The Little Dog Laughed? Could this hog-tied strangling buffoon be the creator of The Long Lost Hills? I pulled everything off, washed the smells out of my hair, and climbed into my old clothes. They were very glad to have me again; they clung to me with cool delight, and my tormented feet slipped into the old shoes as into the softness of spring gra.s.s.

Chapter Nine.

I rode down to the Columbia Buffet in a taxi. The driver wheeled to the kerb directly in front of the open door. I got out and handed him a twenty dollar bill. He didn't have the change. I was glad because when I finally found a smaller bill and paid him off, there was Camilla standing in the door. Very few taxis stopped before the Columbia Buffet. I nodded casually to Camilla and walked in and sat at the first table. I was reading Hackmuth's letter when she spoke.

'Are you mad at me?' she said.

'Not that I know of,' I said.

She put her hands behind her and looked down at her feet. 'Don't I look different?'

She was wearing new white pumps, with high heels.

'They're very nice,' I said, turning to Hackmuth's letter once more. She watched me with a pout. I glanced up and winked. 'Excuse me,' I said. 'Business.'

'You want to order anything?'

'A cigar,' I said. 'Something expensive from Havana.'

She brought the box. She said, 'A quarter.'

I smiled and gave her a dollar.

'Keep the change.'

She refused the tip.

'Not from you,' she said. 'You're poor.'

'I used to be,' I said. I lit the cigar, let the smoke tumble out of my mouth as 1 leaned far back and stared at the ceiling. 'Not a bad cigar for the money,' I said.

The female musicians in the rear were hacking out Over the Waves. I made a face and pushed the change from the cigar towards Camilla. 'Tell them to play Strauss,' I said. 'Something Viennese.'

She picked up a quarter, but I made her take it all. The musicians were aghast. Camilla pointed at me. They waved and beamed. I nodded with dignity. They plunged into Tales from the Vienna Woods. The new shoes were hurting Camilla's feet. She didn't have her old sparkle. She winced as she walked, gritted her teeth.

'You want a beer?' she asked.

'I want a Scotch highball,' I said. 'St James.'

She discussed it with the bartender, then came back. 'We don't have St James. We have Ballantine's, though. It's expensive. Forty cents.'

I ordered one for myself and one each for the two bartenders. 'You shouldn't spend your money like that,' she said. I acknowledged the toast from the two bartenders, and then I sipped my highball. I screwed up my face.

'Rotgut,' I said.

She stood with her hands stuffed inside her pockets.

'I thought you'd like my new shoes,' she said.

I had resumed the reading of Hackmuth's letter.

'They seem all right,' I said.

She limped away to a table just vacated and began picking up empty beer mugs. She was hurt, her face long and sad. I sipped the highball and went on reading and rereading Hackmuth's letter. In a little while she returned to my table.

'You've changed,' she said. 'You're different. I like you better the other way.'

I smiled and patted her hand. It was warm, sleek, brown, with long fingers. 'Little Mexican princess,' I said. 'You're so charming, so innocent.'

She jerked her hand away and her face lost colour.

'I'm not a Mexican!' she said. 'I'm an American.'

I shook my head.