Part 25 (1/2)

”Favoritism, that's what it is- it's bad for efficiency and it's entirely improper. When did this happen? Why wasn't my team informed?”

”Last week. They say the Harrow Cross Engine itself carried the stuff in- a half ton of the usual junk and a dozen interviewees.”

”Well, I'm going to complain. Why wasn't my team informed?”

I said, ”What raid?”

They turned to look at me. Two of them blinked blankly and one removed his spectacles to polish them.

”What raid?”

”Hush-hush, Mr. Ransom. Sir.”

”What d.a.m.n raid? What do you mean? Don't look at me like that- you'll tell me, d.a.m.n you- what raid?”

”There's no need for you to know, sir.”

”You'll tell me or I'll never say another word to you. I won't be lied to. I'm in charge here. What raid?”

The one who had removed his spectacles put them back on.

”What did you think, Ransom? This thing you found- you found it in one of the hovels of the Folk. Everyone knows that. Creedmoor and the woman- whatever they found they found it in the same way you did. That's what everyone says. The Line's had men raiding every Folk cave and squat and forest within a thousand miles of East Conlan for the last six months. Seizing the carvings. Interviewing the inhabitants. Extracting the information. Good men have died. Now what are you looking so shocked for, Ransom? Did you think we wouldn't go digging too?”

I do not know what I said in response to this.

”We'll have what we need with or without you, sir. As a matter of fact I don't know why we keep you around.”

The other two looked anxious about this speech. I guess I confused their sense of hierarchy. But they did not protest or apologize, and all three of them turned their backs on me again when the light of the prototype suddenly pulsed.

During this conversation the light of the prototype had steadily increased and at the same time the room's shadows had sharpened, and the number of phantoms had increased. Many but not all of them looked like Folk. I would swear that among them I saw Mr. Carver. The engineers and me were greatly outnumbered by those phantoms.

Later that day I attempted suicide. As it turns out the windows of the tall spikes over Harrow Cross Station are not made of gla.s.s, though they look like gla.s.s, and even in a heavy runaway wheelchair you cannot break them.

CHAPTER 31.

ADELA.

I was going to write a lot more about Harrow Cross and our experiments and how what ever people say about me I did not serve the Line willingly, and I did what I could to defy them. Well I guess you will have to believe me or not as you please. We have had more sightings of Line Vessels overhead. Deserters, perhaps, or scouts. Our camp has surely been discovered. I have no time to waste and I want to write about what happened to Adela.

I got the second letter from Adela about the same way I got the first. One of the engineers pa.s.sed it to me. I did not see who pa.s.sed it to me. He moved quickly away and by the time I had turned my chair he was lost among a crowd of other engineers and secretaries and frozen phantoms in various modes and eras of dress.

A corner stuck out of the edge of a stack of reports and I saw her handwriting. I tucked the corner back into the reports and did not pull it out again until that evening, when the adjutant had returned me to my apartment and locked the door behind me.

Harry- I know by now that my first letter got to you and my messenger has kept his silence, at least so far. I will risk another letter. As a matter of fact I suppose there is nothing to risk.

Since we last spoke I have resided in Harrow Cross. From my window I can see the Spike where they tell me you are being held, at least on days when the smog clears.

They put me to work, just as they did with you. They do not think very well for themselves. It is not pianos or Orange Trees that they want me to make! But I have been here long enough that I know how things work and I believe this messenger can be trusted.

I was not honest with you from the start and so you must think I had no reason for what I did. I do not know if you are angry with me and I do not know if it will make any difference if I explain.

I do not want to know that you are angry, or how badly I have hurt you. I have told the messenger to take no messages back from you.

Much of what I told you about my childhood was a lie. Not all. It is true that my father was the Baron of Iermo. It is a beautiful country for all of its faults, and nothing like this place where we have found ourselves. I told you that I left because my father and my brothers would not tolerate my work; that I struck out for independence of my own accord. That was not true, though you are not the only one to whom I told that lie, and I suppose at times I believed it myself.

My father had debts. Every one of the Barons of the Deltas has debts; his were worse than most. He was ambitious and he wanted Iermo to grow. He loved his children very much. He became indebted to wicked men, and to free himself he called for help from wickeder men. He secured a loan for Iermo from the Baxter Trust. I imagine you know how the rest of the story goes. In the s.p.a.ce of two years everything in Iermo belonged to the Line. Within three years Iermo was at war with its neighbors, and my father was a broken man. Most of my brothers were dead. I shall not say what became of the man I was to marry; it is too humiliating. I fled. All of this happened long before I met you.

I came north to become someone new. I had always been clever, and I had enjoyed building clever and beautiful things. My father used to say that I would make Iermo's fortune one day. I worked in Gibson City and I made the piano but then Gibson City fell to the Line too, and I lost the piano, and I was arrested. I understood that there was no escaping, nowhere in the world. When they let me go I came to Jasper City meaning to shoot Mr. Baxter for my family's honor and my own and so that nothing else would fall into his grasp.

I do not expect you to understand; we are not made the same way. But I could not go until I had explained.

Our time together on Swing Street was an accident- distraction- a diversion- but you must believe me when I say that it was a very happy one. I am sorry; I always knew that it could not last. They would not let it. I lied to you, Harry- I lied for the sake of lying. I lied to be free of the truth. In the end I lied to you to get to Mr. Baxter, and I am sorry that I did any of that. It accomplished nothing. We should have run away together!

I remember how you babbled that morning about Ransom City. It was a good idea, though I would have made you change that name.

Around that same time I got a letter from my sister May. That letter came through official channels, and May's outlook on life was such at that time that only a very few words had to be smothered by the censor's black ink. What I mean is that she wrote to tell me that she had abandoned the wors.h.i.+p of the Silver City. She had seen that in these times of disruption and uncertainty the world had no use for airy promises of heaven, but needed instead the firm hand of Power and Authority, Here and Now. She had therefore pet.i.tioned to enter the service of the Engines at Archway. It was a h.e.l.l of a long letter with a whole lot of words about the Power and Glory of the Engines and how they would prevail through these Difficult Times and how their enemies would learn a Hard Lesson, and none of it is worth recording for posterity. Sorry, May.

I could not go until I had explained, indeed. I did not like Adela's implication. I had no intention of letting her go! I saw that I could do good for someone.

I summoned each of my engineers into my office one-by-one under the pretense that I wished to discuss the Process. Once I had the door closed behind them I said to each of them in turn, ”I know it was you.”

Well, there is hardly a man or woman in Harrow Cross who does not have a guilty conscience about some failure or infraction or sin. I heard a number of groveling confessions that would be of interest only to other men of the Line- half the time I could not even understand what rule or protocol they thought they had violated. I had to go through six such interviews before I identified the fellow who was Adela's messenger. ”The message?” he said. ”Sir, I-”

”You,” I said. ”I knew it was you.”

Truth is I could not tell him apart from any of his colleagues. He looked furtive, ambitious, scrawny.

”Don't tell anyone, sir. I'd get-”

”You take messages. You need the money or you're being blackmailed or who-knows-what-I don't care to know. You'll take a message for me.”

”She told me-”

”I'm telling you. I'm your d.a.m.n boss, what ever your name is. You'll take a message or I'll call down the Engines on you. Me and the Kingstown Engine are the best of friends. Now listen. Tell her- I don't know what to tell her- don't you try to get away d.a.m.n you- tell her there is nothing to forgive. Tell her what's a few lies or a few hundred lies between friends- I lied too. Tell her I was happy too. Tell her we will be happy again. Got all that?”

I was not born yesterday and it crossed my mind that any response I sent might be intercepted- what's more it was possible that the letter had been allowed to reach me precisely so that I might be encouraged to tell my story in return, and let slip secrets. It was even possible that the letter was not from Adela at all. I couldn't know. So when I collared the go-between the next day and made him take a letter, I said nothing in it except some harmless recollections of happy days on Swing Street.

One week later she responded in kind. There was no more talk of going, I was pleased to see.

I found that my hip was not hurt so bad as I'd thought. It was painful to stand but no more than I could bear. I demanded that the adjutant bring me a walking-stick. When she refused I made one myself out of a lever from an abandoned prototype. I sent the chair away.

I sent Adela another letter, written for secrecy's sake in the margins of an encyclopedia. I got a letter from her written on the back of an invoice, in which she said that she was crying from happiness as she thought of my face. I wrote to her about East Conlan and about my father and she wrote to me about Iermo. She wrote to me about her work- she was working with a team of engineers on improvements to the design of the Heavier-Than-Air Vessel- and I wrote to her about mine. We wrote about the future.

Our go-between was called up to the front, on account of the fighting in the Northwest Territory was going badly, as the leaderless armies of the Stations that had lost their Engines were breaking every which way or striking out for independence. I found another go-between quick enough. Now that I was on my own two feet and limping around again I was a holy terror to the engineers of the Project, always threatening to have them sent away to the front if they displeased me, and they did not know if I could do that or if it was an empty threat. Neither did I. It is true that all three of the men who had spoken about the raids on the Folk in front of me had been called to the front, though who knows if that was because of my recommendation or not. Anyhow they all jumped when I told them to jump, and they took messages if that was what I demanded.