Part 3 (1/2)

NEW YORK, Sat.u.r.day afternoon, April 22, 1865.

I renewed my covenant with G.o.d in the City Hall Park while standing there, which I some years ago made, and now I again renew it, that I would serve G.o.d better than formerly.

JAMES KNOWLES.

NEW YORK, Thursday, April 19, 1866.

Renewed my engagement with the Lord to serve Him better than I had done before, after having prayed to Him to be justified through faith in the righteousness of Christ; and asked for other blessings which I felt satisfied I would receive, for I feel my great need of these, as I felt very helpless in myself, but that there was abundant fulness in Christ.

I write this and the above on this Sat.u.r.day night, the 22d of April, 1866.

JAMES KNOWLES.

NEW YORK, Wednesday, December 5, 1866.

My birth-day, and a fine day.

I resolved on this day to endeavor to serve the Lord better, and renewed my covenant with the Lord, which I formerly made, and have again and again sought or attempted to renew. May the Lord aid me in the future.

And thus, from these few specimens of his constantly self-convicted weakness and appeals for more spiritual strength, we get a look at the inner life of a practical Christian worker which it is rare to find among us in these days. He could not stand alone; his last self-examination always found him short, though it consisted of but a few questions put by the spirit to the flesh at the end of every devotional service incidental to the life and work of each day, thus:

Did I this morn devoutly pray For G.o.d's a.s.sistance through the day?

And did I read His sacred Word, To make my life therewith accord?

Did I for any purpose try To hide the truth and tell a lie?

Did I my time and thoughts engage As fits my duty, station, age?

Did I with care my temper guide, Checking ill-humor, anger, pride?

Did I my lips from aught refrain That might my fellow-creature pain?

Did I with cheerful patience bear The little ills that all must share?

For all G.o.d's mercies through this day Did I my grateful tribute pay?

And did I, when the day was o'er, G.o.d's watchful aid again implore?

CHAPTER III.

SCRIPTURE TEXTS.

1858.

”I want a meek, a gentle, quiet frame, A heart that glows with love to Jesus' name; I want a living sacrifice to be For Him who died a sacrifice for me.”

The following extracts from his diary reveal to us his carefulness in noting the texts of Scripture and the a.n.a.lysis of sermons he heard preached on the Sabbaths and week days from 1858 up to the time of his death.

_Thursday_ (_fast-day_), _September 16, 1858._--Heard a sermon preached by Dr. Crawford from the 57th chapter of Isaiah and the 15th verse: ”For thus saith the high and lofty One that inhabiteth eternity, whose name is holy; I dwell in the high and holy place, with him also that is of a contrite and humble spirit, to revive the spirit of the humble, and to revive the heart of the contrite ones.”