Part 19 (1/2)

The faces were back, the faces that he had seen in the observatory. Corll, Hitler, Fish-they were all there, bathed in such a pure whiteness that he felt dizzy looking at them. He struggled to close his eyes against the light, but was powerless to. There were more now, savage faces, fiendish and brutal, that seemed to go on forever, like in hotels where there was a mirror on the door and a mirror on the wall and he could see himself, a million naked Moncktons going into the mirror forever and ever, and they would never stop coming, never stop looking at him and wanting him to be with them, to be one of them, and the faces looked and knew him, and two faces came out of the ma.s.s and four eyes looked into his, and through the pain and the blood and the tears of fear he knew them for who they were, knew them even though neither one looked like a real face at all.

David Neville and Seth c.u.mmings.

Monckton screamed. It was a scream so intense, so piercing, that it brought him the peace of unconsciousness while it filled his throat with blood. It was a scream so great that it carried down Pine Mountain, unchallenged by sound of bird or insect, so powerful that inside the caretaker's cabin a mile away, Sterne heard its dim echo through the window he had cracked open to relieve the stuffiness the wood stove had caused. He heard, and stiffened, and rose, looking fearfully toward the door and more fearfully toward the black telephone that sat by the overstuffed couch. He sighed and cursed and left the cabin, pausing only long enough to grab a thick down-filled parka from the coat tree by the door.

Then he started running, running through the bristling brown and gold leaves and dead needles that layered the dirt road up Pine Mountain.

Chapter Thirteen.

The marmalade was good. Fresh fruit was long gone, but the marmalade was sugared lightly enough that McNeely could taste the tartness of the oranges on his tongue. He popped the last morsel into his mouth and put another slice of wheat bread into the toaster, pressing the lever down with a sharp click. He smiled slightly and dipped a finger into the jar, then transferred the sweet orange stickiness to his mouth. His mother would have killed him if he'd ever done that at the dining room table in Larchmont. In fact, he would never have done it had there been another person in the room. But Gabrielle was still sleeping upstairs, and so probably was Wickstrom. And no one else was there.

No one else was there.

He was beginning to believe that. For what must have been days, none of them had experienced anything abnormal. It was like what he had thought it would be at the beginning of the month. Waiting. Playing games, reading, and waiting for the month to end and the steel plates to shoot up, letting five people leave, three of them a million dollars richer.

Those five people were only three now, but those three would leave. He had told Gabrielle that after they had made love, just before this past sleep.

”I think we're free of them now,” he'd said. ”We'll walk out of here together.”

”I keep wondering,” she had said, snuggling closer against him, ”what if we couldn't get out. What if they forgot us or left us here on purpose or the plates didn't open when they were supposed to?”

”That won't happen.”

”What if it does? What if it did, George? We don't know. What if we've already been here a month? What if it's November now? We could never tell.”

”I could tell.”

”You couldn't.”

”I've got a great internal timer. Actually it's now 9:37, the evening of October twenty-fourth.”

”Oh, bulls.h.i.+t.” She'd laughed. ”Be serious.”

”All right. We will get out of here. The plates will open when they're supposed to, and if they don't, Monckton and Sterne will have the Marines up here to cut their way in with lasers. We'll get out.” He had kissed her then on both eyes, and reached across her to turn out the light.

He'd been on the edge of sleep when he'd heard her speak. ”I love you, George.” It had been the first time she'd said it. She let her hand trail down his body. ”I love you, my poor George. So many scars.”

He'd smiled in the darkness. ”Do you love my scars too?”

”I love you all. All of you.”

”Do you know that I love you too?”

”I'd hoped so.”

”If you had to give up your whole fortune to be with me, would you?”

”Why? Do I have to?”

”You answer first.”

”I don't have to give it up. That's the wonderful thing, isn't it? We can live happily ever after after all.”

He'd thought of Jeff then. ”Did you know,” he'd said, ”that I had . . . have a roommate?”

She'd been silent for a moment, and he'd noticed an almost imperceptible stiffening. ”David mentioned that.”

Just say it. Get it out and it can never hurt you again. ”Did he add that my roommate and I were lovers?”

”No. Not in so many words. But I a.s.sumed as much. Most men over thirty as well off as you don't take roommates out of financial necessity.”

”That's true.”

”Are you bis.e.xual?”

”No. I . . . was gay.”

”Then why-”

”I don't know,” he'd interrupted, and turned to face her in the blackness. ”I don't know. All I know is that I love you. Anything I felt before, did before . . . it's like some faraway dream.”

At fast a chill had gone through him when he'd felt her body shake. He'd thought that it might be laughter. But another second and her arms were around him, her face pressed closely to his so that he felt her tears against his cheek, and he was crying, too, and when the tears were gone and the promises made, they had slept.

The snap of the toaster startled him, and he brought his thoughts back to the present long enough to spread b.u.t.ter and marmalade on the toast. As he sat nibbling at it, he wondered what had happened to him that had made him feel this way about Gabrielle. Then he smiled. Maybe Gabrielle had happened to him. Maybe it was that simple.

No.

The word echoed in his mind with perfect clarity, as though his brainpan were an open pool and someone had dropped a diamond into it. It was not his word, not his thought. It was alien, and it had entered his consciousness not through his ears, but through his mind alone.

I was a fool to come down here alone, he thought.

No.

It came again, with a distinctness that made his heart leap. Then, in a tone of unsurpa.s.sed calmness, he heard-Do not be afraid. Whatever you see or hear, do not be afraid.

Light began to glow in front of him, near the refrigerator. It was a white light of the purity of a nun's surplice, and a strange peace came upon him at the sight of it. There was a moment in which he began to tense as the face started to form, and he thought it might be one of the faces he had seen on awakening from sleep.

But as it took form and he could glimpse the lineaments of it as through a mesh, he could see that there was nothing of the b.e.s.t.i.a.l in it. It was as pure as the whiteness that surrounded it. The skin was fair and unmarked, the brow high and crowned by what seemed a skullcap of white silk. The mouth was straight, the lips thin, the nose long and well-shaped. But it was the eyes that held him. They were the young-old eyes of the very wise. A G.o.d would have eyes like that.

Do not be afraid.

”No,” McNeely whispered. ”No, I won't.”

He heard no more for a moment. The face merely watched his own. It was as if it were reading his thoughts, probing into his brain with a million tiny waves of power. He could swear that the inside of his head was buzzing.