Part 30 (1/2)

He had always had friends, but even when they had failed him there had been behind them the House--its traditions, its records, its history--his aunt and uncle, and, most rea.s.suring of all, himself.

But now all these had failed him. His friends were vaguely unattractive; Randal was terribly superficial, he was betraying the House; his aunt and uncle were unsatisfactory, and for himself--well, he wasn't quite so splendid as he had once thought. He was wretchedly dissatisfied with it all and felt that he would give all the polish and culture in the world for a simple, unaffected friends.h.i.+p in which he could trust.

”Some one,” he said angrily, ”that would do something”--and his thoughts were of his father.

It was dark now, and he went down to the sea, because he liked the white flash of the waves as they broke on the beach--this sudden appearing and disappearing and the rustle of the pebbles as they turned slowly back and vanished into the night again.

He liked, too, the myriad lights of the town: the rows of lamps, rising tier on tier into the night sky, like people in some great amphitheatre waiting in silence for the rising of a mighty curtain. He always thought on these nights of Germany--Germany, Worms, the little bookseller, the distant gleam of candles in the Cathedrals, the flash of the sun through the trees over the Rhine, the crooked, cobbled streets at night with the moon like a lamp and the gabled roofs flinging wild shadows over the stones ... the night-sea brought it very close and carried Randal and Cambridge and Dahlia Feverel very far away, although he did not know why.

He watched the light of the town and the waves and the great flas.h.i.+ng eye of the lighthouse and then turned back. As he climbed the steps up the cliff he heard some one behind him, and, turning, saw that it was Mary Bethel. She said ”Good-night” quickly and was going to pa.s.s him, but he stopped her.

”I haven't seen you for ages, Mary,” he said. He resolved to speak to her. She knew his father and had always been a good sort--perhaps she would help him.

”Are you coming back, Robin?” she said, stopping and smiling. There was a lamp at the top of the cliff where the road ran past the steps, and by the light of it he saw that she had been crying. But he was too much occupied with his own affairs to consider the matter very deeply, and then girls cried so easily.

”Yes,” he said, ”let us go round by the road and the Chapel--it's a splendid night; besides, we don't seem to have met recently. We've both been busy, I suppose, and I've a good deal to talk about.”

”If you like,” she said, rather listlessly. It would, at least, save her from her own thoughts and protect her perhaps from the ceaseless repet.i.tion of that scene of three days ago when she had turned the man that she loved more than all the world away and had lied to him because she was proud.

And so at first she scarcely listened to him. They walked down the road that ran along the top of the cliff and the great eye of the lighthouse wheeled upon them, flashed and vanished; she saw the room with its dingy carpet and wide-open window, and she heard his voice again and saw his hands clenched--oh! she had been a fine fool! So it was little wonder that she did not hear his son.

But Robin had at last an audience and he knew no mercy. All the agitation of the last week came pouring forth--he lost all sense of time and place; he was at the end of the world addressing infinity on the subject of his woes, and it says a good deal for his vanity and not much for his sense of humour that he did not feel the lack of proportion in such a position.

”It was a girl, you know--perhaps you've met her--a Miss Feverel--Dahlia Feverel. I met her at Cambridge and we got rather thick, and then I wrote to her--rot, you know, like one does--and when I wanted to get back the letters she wouldn't let me have them, and she's going to use them, I'm afraid, for--well--Breach of Promise!”

He paused and waited for the effect of the announcement, but it never came; she was walking quickly, with her head lifted to catch the wind that blew from the sea--he could not be certain that she had heard.

”Breach of Promise!” he repeated impressively. ”It would be rather an awful thing for people in our position if it really came to that--it would be beastly for me. Of course, I meant nothing by it--the letters, I mean--a chap never does. Everybody at Cambridge talks to girls--the girls like it--but she took it seriously, and now she may bring it down on our heads at any time, and you can't think how beastly it is waiting for it to come. We've done all we could--all of us--and now I can tell you it's been worrying me like anything wondering what she's done. My uncle and aunt both tried and failed; I was rather disappointed, because after all one would have thought that they would be able to deal with a thing like that, wouldn't one?”

He paused again, but she only said ”Yes” and hurried on.

”So now I'm at my wits' end and I thought that you might help me.”

”Why not your father?” she said suddenly.

”Ah! that's just it,” he answered eagerly. ”That's where I wanted you to give me your advice. You see--well, it's a little hard to explain--we weren't very nice to the governor when he came back first--the first day or two, I mean. He was--well, different--didn't look at things as we did; liked different things and had strong views about knocking down the Cove. So we went on our way and didn't pay much attention to him--I daresay he's told you all about it--and I'm sorry enough now, although it really was largely his own fault! I don't think he seemed to want us to have much to do with him, and then one day Clare spoke to him about things and asked him to consider us a little and he flared up.

”Well, I've a sort of idea that he could help us now--at any rate, there's no one else. Aunt Clare said that she would ask him, but you know him better than any of us, and, of course, it is a little difficult for us, after the way that we've spoken to him; you might help us, I thought.”

He couldn't be sure, even now, that Mary had been listening--she looked so strange this evening that he was afraid of her, and half wished that he had kept his affairs to himself. She was silent for a moment, because she was wondering what it was that Harry had really done about the letters. It was amusing, because they obviously didn't know that she had told him--but what had he done?

”Do you want me to help you, Robin?” she asked.

”Yes, of course,” he answered eagerly. ”You know him so well and could get him to do things that he would never do for us. I'm afraid of him, or rather have been just lately. I don't know what there is about him exactly.”

”You want me to help you?” she asked again. ”Well then, you've got to put up with a bit of my mind--you've caught me in a bad mood, and I don't care whether it hurts you or not--you're in for a bit of plain speaking.”

He looked up at her with surprise, but said nothing.

”Oh, I know I'm no very great person myself,” she went on quickly--almost fiercely. ”I've only known in the last few weeks how rotten one can really be, but at least I have known--I do know--and that's just what you don't. We've been friends for some time, you and I--but if you don't look out, we shan't be friends much longer.”