Chapter 29-30 (1/2)

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Chapter 29 – Falling helplessly

As I waited for his answer, I forgot… I forgot to breathe, I forgot to blink , Ithink even otten to beat

I was afraid that he would nod, say yes

”What kind of a man do you think I achen denied vehemently

My heart relaxed a little bit When I was thinking of the relationshi+p between Ye Zhengchen and Yu Yin, I felt as if ripped in a vice

I asked hiain

”Is that true? Not even when you were drunk? Not even one instance where you were unable to control your impulses, or…”

Without any hesitation, he interrupted me, ”No, never!”

If he hadn't betrayed me in mind or body, I could find no reason to blanore the fact that he had concealed the whole thing from me

I had a feeling there was so chen was providing His explanation was too reasonable If this were true, there was actually no reason to hide , no reason to worry and no reason why Yu Yin should threaten him with disclosure

I thought this through carefully If a man did not love a woman, but the woman still wanted tobetween the popped up in my mind

”Are you engaged?”

I carefully looked at his face for a reaction, trying to catch the flicker that would tell

He was silent with his head down, to avoid looking directly in my eyes

I had h me Even my breath was frozen

A ed to a woman he did not love

On the other side, he struggled with his eave into his emotions and betrayed his vow

I still could not find any reason to blame him

After all, a man committed sos he should not have I could understand that What I could not understand hy Yu Yin kept he silence for so long I could not understand why she smiled at me

Anyway, if I were in her shoes, I would have probably chosen to let go

With things standing the way they were, I just pulled the quilt closer to me

My heart was full of sorrow and grief

” Go away”

He looked up

”You can't forgive me even now?”

” I don't blaly, ” You should ask for her forgiveness, not mine”

” Girl”

Seeing him reach out tohim

”But I cannot continue being with you No matter how much I love you, I cannot carry on with a ed I'm sorry”

I have always hated the japanese habit of saying sorry when they didn't mean it , but I had unconsciously picked up the habit

This word, ” sorry” was such a tragic yet ridiculous word

Anxiously, he pleaded with ive me some time and I will sort this matter out”

How long? Three years?

Waiting three years for a ed, was it really worth it?

I looked at thein front of me Ofcourse it wasn't worth it…

Perhaps…

I ran into the bathroo myself to keep calm

My eyes ht side of the basin where his stuff was neatly lined up

Seeing theain and I splashed more water on my face

I could see hi behind s to say, but he was unable to speak

” Just scram!” I picked up his stuff with both of my hands, turned around and threw them at him

” Just take your stuff and leave!”

He stoodit with dull thuds one after another

” I don't want to see you again”, I said

” You never loved chen stated, his voice flat and e distance

He left, gently locking the door behind him

I was back to being lonely My heart beat erratically in my chest

The faucet was still turned on, the water overflowing from the sink to the floor

I leaned against the wall Slowly, I squatted on the ground, and picked up the toothbrush the towels, the broken glass and threw then in the trash

I really hoped that that the water could calm me down and soothe ain

Froain

He seemed to have quietly disappeared from my life, just like he had never appeared

I continued to go to class, study the files and culture my bacteria

I did not even count the holidays any more, did not think about the past or the future, just concentrated onmy bacteria

I concentrated on reading the notes that Ye Zhengchen had written for me Countless times, I read every comment, every word and every phrase Even the exclamation mark that he wrote became my sole point of focus

After a few days, I ements in the laboratory Every three years, I would wear protective clothing to o and observe my bacteria

One , an associate professor caements

I told hi on The associate professor changed his attitude towards me He was much more cordial and even toldrest as well

I answered him with equal hypocrisy, ”Thank you !”

After staying in japan for a long ti more and more hypocritical

I s Ling shopping Everyone else thought I was doing well But in reality, every tichen, of hoould use his shoulder as my pillow

In the dark night, I would sleeplessly stare at the tally er