Part 10 (1/2)

I pressed my lips together and looked away. My head was throbbing. I wanted wanted to tell her-that was the awful part. Something inside me wanted to blurt out everything. But I couldn't. Not after years of Jeb telling me I couldn't trust anybody, ever. to tell her-that was the awful part. Something inside me wanted to blurt out everything. But I couldn't. Not after years of Jeb telling me I couldn't trust anybody, ever.

”Do you need help?”

My eyes flicked back to her face.

”Max-with your wings-can you actually fly?”

”Well, yeah, yeah,” I was startled into saying. That's me: mouth-like-a-steel-trap Maximum. Yep, you have to use all your tricks to get me me to talk. Jeez. That's what I get for sleeping on a soft bed and eating homey food. to talk. Jeez. That's what I get for sleeping on a soft bed and eating homey food.

”Really? You can really fly?” She looked fascinated, alarmed, and a little envious.

I nodded. ”My bones are . . . thin,” I began, hating myself. Shut up, Max! Shut up, Max! ”Thin and light. I have extra muscles. My lungs are bigger. And my heart. More efficient. But I need to eat a lot. It's hard.” Abruptly, I clammed up, a furious blush heating my cheeks. That, folks, was the most I had ever said to a non-flock member. But when I spill the beans, I spill big! I might as well have hired a skywriting plane to scrawl, ”I'm a mutant freak!” in huge letters across the sky. ”Thin and light. I have extra muscles. My lungs are bigger. And my heart. More efficient. But I need to eat a lot. It's hard.” Abruptly, I clammed up, a furious blush heating my cheeks. That, folks, was the most I had ever said to a non-flock member. But when I spill the beans, I spill big! I might as well have hired a skywriting plane to scrawl, ”I'm a mutant freak!” in huge letters across the sky.

”How did this happen?” Ella's mom asked softly.

My eyes shut of their own volition. If I'd been alone I would have put my hands over my ears and hunkered down into a little ball on the floor. Fractured images, memories, fear, pain, all came cras.h.i.+ng together inside my brain. You think being a regular teenager with growing pains is hard? Try doing it with DNA that's not your own, not even from a mammal. mammal.

”I don't remember,” I told her. It was a lie.

41.

Dr. Martinez looked distressed. ”Max, are you sure I can't help in some way?”

I shook my head, irritated at myself, irritated at her for bringing all this up. ”Nah. It's all over, anyway. Done. But-I have to get out of here. Some friends are waiting for me. It's really important.”

”How will you get to them? Can I give you a ride?”

”No,” I said, frowning and rubbing my hurt shoulder. ”I need to, um, fly there. But I don't think I can fly yet.”

Dr. Martinez creased her forehead, thinking. ”It would be dangerous for you to strain your injury before it's healed. I couldn't tell the extent of it. But I could give you a better idea if we had an X-ray.”

I looked at her solemnly. ”Do you have X-ray vision?”

She laughed, startled, and I couldn't help grinning too. G.o.d, Ella had this all the time. all the time. A real mom. A real mom.

”No. Not all of us have superhuman powers,” she said teasingly. ”But some of us have access to X-ray machines.”

Dr. Martinez shared a vet practice with another doctor. Today was her day off, but she was sure no one would think it was weird for us to show up at the office. She gave me a windbreaker to wear, but I was still pretty freaked about seeing other people up close.

”Hi, guys,” Dr. Martinez said as we walked into the office. ”This is a friend of Ella's. She's doing a report on being a vet, and I told her I'd give her a quick tour.”

The three people behind the counter smiled and nodded as if this was totally believable. Maybe it was. How would I know?

Two seconds after I walked in, I froze in the doorway, feeling the blood rush out of my face and a wash of terror sweep over me.

There was a man there.

In a white coat.

Dr. Martinez glanced back. ”Max?”

I stared at her mutely. She gently took my arm and led me off into an exam room. ”Yes, in here is where we see our patients,” she said cheerfully as she shut the door behind us. Then she turned and lowered her voice. ”Max, what's wrong? What's the matter?”

I forced myself to take several slow, deep breaths, to uncoil the fists at my sides. ”It's the smell,” I whispered, embarra.s.sed. ”The chemical smell, like a lab. The guy in the white coat. I have to get out of here, okay? Can we just go now, really fast?” I looked for an exit, a window.

Her hand rubbed my back. ”I can promise that you're safe here. Can you stay just long enough for me to get a quick X-ray, and then we'll leave right away?”

I tried to swallow, but my mouth was dry. My heart was pounding so hard it made a rus.h.i.+ng sound in my ears.

”Please, Max.”

I forced myself to nod. Dr. Martinez checked to make sure I wasn't wearing jewelry-as if-then carefully positioned me on a table. A machine hovered over me. I felt like my nerves were about to snap.

She stepped out of the room, I heard a tiny buzz, buzz, and it was all over. and it was all over.

Two minutes later she showed me a large dark sheet with my shoulder bones, arm, and part of my wing showing in shades of white. She stuck it up on a gla.s.s box on the wall and turned on its light. The picture jumped out brightly.

”Look,” she said, tracing my shoulder blade with her finger. ”This bone is fine. It's all muscle damage-you can see the torn tissue here and here.”

I nodded.

”And your wing bones,” she said, unconsciously lowering her voice, ”all seem fine. Which is good. Unfortunately, muscle damage usually takes longer to heal than bones do. Though your rate of regeneration seems weirdly fast, I must say.”

She frowned at the X-ray, tapping it with her finger. ”Your bones are so fine and light,” she murmured, as if talking to herself. ”They're beautiful. And then . . . huh. What's this thing?”

She was pointing to a bright white square, maybe half an inch wide, that sat smack-dab in the middle of my forearm. ”That's not jewelry, is it?” She glanced down at me. ”Is it the zipper of the windbreaker?”

”No-I took it off.”

Dr. Martinez leaned closer to the picture, squinting her eyes. ”It's a-it looks like a . . .” Her voice trailed off.

”What?” I said, unnerved by the expression on her face.

”It's a microchip,” she said hesitantly. ”We put something similar into animals. To identify them in case they're lost. Yours looks like a, like ones we use on really expensive pets, show dogs and such. They have a tracer in them in case they're stolen. They can be tracked, wherever they are.”

42.

The look of comprehending horror that rose in my face alarmed Dr. Martinez.

”I'm not saying that's what it is,” she said quickly. ”It's just what it looks like.”