Part 23 (1/2)
CHAPTER XIII
She was looking rather tired, he thought, when he examined her more critically; her eyes seemed larger, and her expression had grown restless, and she had lost some of the roundness of her face. But she had gained a good deal in repose of manner; and her voice, when she answered him, was more under control at the moment than his own.
”I shouldn't think you would,” she laughed. ”I shocked them all at breakfast, this morning, by saying I should like to try idle men for a change!”
It struck him that she would not have made such a remark when he left her last autumn; and again he would have liked to possess a chronicle of the last six weeks. But her laugh was the same as ever, and her hand was still grasping his with a rea.s.suring fervour.
”Come back with me,” he said, spontaneously. ”We can't talk here, can we? I dare say I can knock up some sort of a supper for you, if you don't mind a very primitive arrangement.”
”It will be beautiful,” she said; and the throb of pleasure in her voice allayed his last feeling of suspicion.
They found that, after all, they had very little to say to one another; and they were both glad of the occupation of preparing supper, when they arrived at the Temple and found that the housekeeper had gone out for the evening. They made as much fun as they could over the difficulties of procuring a meal, and avoided personal topics with a scrupulous care, and did not once run the risk of looking each other in the face. And afterwards, when they had made themselves comfortable in two chairs near the lamp and conversation became inevitable, an awkward embarra.s.sment seized them both.
”It's very odd,” said Katharine, frowning a little; ”but I have been bottling up things to tell you for weeks, and now they seem to have got congested in my brain and I can't get one of them out. Why is it, I wonder? I can't have grown suddenly shy of you; but we seem to have lost touch, somehow. Oh, it's queer; I don't like it!”
She gave herself a little shake. Paul laughed slightly.
”What an absurd child you are! It is only because we have not been together lately, and so we've lost the trick of it. You are always turning yourself inside out, and then sitting down a little way off to look at it.”
”I believe I do,” owned Katharine. ”I always want to know why certain things affect me in certain ways.”
”Did you want to know why you were glad to see me, this evening?”
She looked up quickly at him for the first time.
”No,” she said, frankly. ”At least, I don't think I thought about it.”
”Good child!” he said. ”Don't think about it.” And she wondered why he looked so pleased.
”Why not?” she asked him. ”Please tell me.”
”Oh, because it isn't good for you to be always turning yourself inside out; certainly not on my account. Besides, it spoils things.
Don't you think so?”
”What things?”
”Oh, please! I'm not here to answer such a lot of puzzling questions.
Who has been getting you into such bad habits, while I have been away?”
”n.o.body who could answer any of my puzzling questions,” she replied, softly; and Paul asked hastily if she would make the coffee. He had fetched her here as an experiment, a kind of test of his own feelings and of hers; and he had a sudden fear lest it should succeed too effectually. She went obediently and did as she was told, and brought him his coffee when it was ready; and he submitted to having sugar in it, since it compelled her to brush his hair with her sleeve as she bent over him with the sugar basin.
”Well?” he asked, in the next pause. She was balancing her spoon on the edge of her cup, with a curious smile on her face.
”Oh, nothing!”
”Nothing must be very interesting, then. But I don't suppose I have any right to know. Have I?”
The spoon dropped on the floor with a clatter.
”Of course you have! I wish you wouldn't say those things! They hurt so. I was only thinking,--it wasn't anything important, but--I'm so awfully happy to-night.”