Chapter 23 (2/2)

“And well, it’s that won’t abandon you, did proht”

Looking at his slightly shy, bashful face I— want— thought that, just ’s effects, they’re already gone Having returned to sanity, I wouldn’t think it, I wouldn’t wish it

It’s okay, it’s okay As Moain I wont hold those twisted desires either

Still, even when I’ in my chest, I instantly look, and also face, away My cheeks are tingling, and I’ht now I just can’t let him see that

“W-well, but I was p-pretty heavy right! Sorry!”

I shout to try and distract hi is ever harder, so I said it

“No, well, I ed”

“B-but It’s not soht”

I feel like crying even though I said it myself Nevertheless, what I said was indeed true

And would Mo me, whose more than twice as heavy as hi spoils from the Goma in another hand? No, no way he could

“Also, Moht?”

“I wasn’t really alright, but it’s true I soth, I used power seeds, and as for the fear and pain the drug I guess”

“Eh M-Momokawa-kun, you don’t mean”

“I used it too, the Goma’s narcotic Of course, I didn’t inhale a whole lot like you did, and I neutralized it a bit with the blue flower antidote So I only got high and forgot the pain[2]”

Which th in a forcefully induced manic state to carry me all the way here

“The moment I found this place and ju out soed to willatleast some fairy walnuts It’s cause I used way too et soain”

Ha ha ha, he bizarrely laughed, as Morand experience

“ Sorry”

I beat the Go that In the end, it wasmore problee of life and death

“Momokawa-kun I’m sorry”

But truthfully, there was soize for

“Why are you apologizing, Futaba-san?”

It’s obvious The pri Mo done that— No, not that It’s not guilt

What I was really afraid of, was if, if he’d abandon me

That’s why only these words of apology well up froy don’t have a sen of sincerity to them

“I, re, I re”

Tears were already falling as I said that No, stop that If I cry here, it’s like I’ for sympathy It couldn’t be helped It’s not your fault It’s like I only want those words

And above all, Momokawa-kun wont blaize like that because I was sure, from our conversation until now, I had made sure of that I made an unbelievably atrocious, calculated move

“Eh, Ah it’s like that I’d have thought with that kind of crazy state, you’d conveniently forget everything but, yeah, I see, so it’s not like that”

Yet Moer nor hatred, it was ht, he didn’t blame me

But, it’s not that he wasn’t scared It’s not that he wasn’t hurt, it’s not that it wasn’t, painful I , painful-looking scab formed

That was unmistakeably, a remnant of the wound I marked on him in my lust

“But I was al, I’d definitely have died there Thanks, for saving me”

“But I I ran away! Leaving you behind Momokawa-kun, I ran away alone!”

“You caht”

“Still! I hurt you! I re down on your neck I, if I stayed like that, I would’ve, would’ve—”

“It was close, but the frenzy stopped Don’t worry about it too much”

“But, but I”

“We both survived, so it’s fine Yeah, I’”

I aiting for those words I am, the worst

Frenzy That’s what Mo, I lost ed Momokawa-kun probably thinks that to be true, and is satisfied with that

And I’ that’s the case, so in the end, I’d adae in Moether with Mo that

It’s the 2nd tiood will The kind Mo

But I know, even this stupid me knows, that as a person, you shouldn’t expect this kind of thing in the first place This time, I must become useful to Momokawa-kun I must, protect him

“Momokawa-kun, you know I, I won’t be scared anyht Because I—”

Courage, I’ve already received From Momokawa-kun, from God, both of them

“—I’ve become a berserker”

“Eh?”

[1]if you didn’t know, please add it to your list of jargon never to forget~

[2] These blue flowers are from chapter 6, the one that looks like lavenders