Chapter 67 - Eleanor Insecurites. (1/2)

Eleanor hugged Cedric as if her life depended on him. Once in a while… a sob would escape from her throat. But Cedric's constant rubbing on her back made her feel at ease if only a little.

”I-i-I am s-s-so so-sorry. I always try to give our relationship a try as much as possible but I feel so insecure with you,” she admitted.

”Why?” He asked.

”You do so much for me. But in return, I didn't do a single thing for you. And again… Whenever I try to take a step forward towards 'us'. Something hits me and makes me back out suddenly from 'us'. Even now… when I brought the topic about my brother out… I felt nothing but when you said nothing but offensive words about my brother, I flared up on you.

”I am not suitable for you. You deserve someone better. I am known for broken shoes. You find… someone… someone better than me,” Eleanor said.

She felt a lump in her throat when she asked him to marry someone else. But she also knew she had to be strong. as he deserves someone better.

Eleanor tried to get down from his grip and but she was pinned on his bed by him.

”Eleanor…” He called out, making her look at him with a frown.

She looked at him with her green eyes which were filled with hesitation, and fear. And precisely fear of losing him and hope.

”If you are not worthy of me, why would I wait for a long time? Hmmm? I don't want you to help me or become my aid. I want you to be with me and stay beside me. And as for the things I did… I did them because I am capable. But… you can do them too when you become capable too. Don't think too much.” He said.

Eleanor found herself nodding her head at him.

”Also… don't cry too much. When we meet your father… he will think I am bullying you. If you wash your face now… we can go down and have breakfast before we leave to your place,” Cedric said to her.

Eleanor nodded her head and went inside.

As she stood in front of the sink… she thought about everything. Could she really be with him? Putting all her insecurities aside with him?

She thought about it very hard… even her heart and brain weren't helping her all that much. She needed someone to help her think.

Myna! Her friend Myna could help her.

Fishing out her phone from her pocket, she dialed Myna's number.

”Hello…” Eleanor said.

”What!? Didn't we agree to meet this evening?! Do you miss me so much!?” Eleanor has to pull her phone away from her ears, to get some distance for the sake of the long life of her ears.

”Myna… slow down. I need your advice. Right now and right in this call,” Eleanor said seriously, pulling Myna into serious mode.

”Do face time,” Myna said to her, before cutting the call.

Eleanor sighed and did a video call to her.