Volume 6 Chapter 2 Part3 (2/2)
“You’re probably overthinking this Killing people isn’t that hard”
“But it’s not like I want to become a murderer If an Armed Librarian loses their human heart they will become worthless”
“That’s true You should just be yourself”
Saying this, Mattalast drew his gun and pointed it at Volken
“The thing needed to kill people… is sination You don’t need to hate the up, people can kill their brethren”
Volken was probably not the only one whose heart stung hearing those words Rather Noloty was the one to receive a shock by that
“‘I don’t want to kill’ Most people think this Leaving aside exceptions like the Director
So they give up They give up on the desire to not kill anyone It’s not difficult Giving up on so is much easier than the opposite”
“Giving up…”
Volken thought for a while as if holding sorasp
“If possible it’s better to not give up Because it’s better for people not to die than the opposite However, giving up is also necessary”
Noloty who stood on the side also heard Mattalast
Give up not killing anyone Those words fell heavily inside her head
“By the way, is this girl a fan of yours, Volken?”
Mattalast brought up Noloty as a topic She became sullen
“N-no, I’m a student”
“Ah, I see So you’re both a student and his fan Sorry for interrupting”
Saying this, Mattalast started leaving Noloty was troubled If she denied it too badly it would be rude to Volken
“Mattalast-san, don’t make fun of Noloty-san”
“I did make fun of her, but not of you”
“I say, you…!”
“I’ve found an interesting kid in today’s harvest”
Mattalast cackled and Volken sighed Meanwhile, Noloty kept hearing the words “give up” in her mind
Noloty studied techniques and tactics by reading the Books of past Armed Librarians
While seeing the people inside the Books killing other people, she thought of Mattalast’s words again and again
Give up on not killing people… can I even do that? If I don’t, will I even be able to become an Armed Librarian?
As ti
One day, one of her juniors came to talk to her It was Mirepoc who quickly turned from a soldier to a trainee
“Noloty senpai”
“You don’t have to call me that… No, you really don’t have to You’re the one above me in rank, Mirepoc-san”
“Right… yeah, that’s true I understand, Noloty-san”
Mirepoc seemed to be a bit hard to speak with
“I came to complain a little About your attitude”
“What?”
“You seem to not want to kill people People like Mattalast-san and Volken-san have praised you as a kind person because of that, but I don’t think so”
It was a sudden complaint, but Noloty didn’t feel unco to take that thankless role for Noloty’s sake
“I believe that’s only escapism You’re neither brave nor kind
Because even if you don’t kill so unpleasant It just seems like you push this unpleasant job on other people”
“…That’s right”
“So why?”
While answering, Noloty shtly
“Because if I don’t kill, at least one person will stay alive, right? So it’s better that way”
“I can’t believe you”
Mirepoc said
“You really are stubborn I now understand why Ireia-san’s troubled”
But Noloty’s heart tre people… she wondered if she could persist in this ideal
After rades But that path was slow Even when she dove into the Labyrinth for real coot lost and when she was surrounded by Guardian Beasts she had been rescued by Ireia Noloty faced her at the entrance to the Fifth Labyrinth
“I thought you were getting better lately, but this again?”
With a friendly smile, Ireia reprimanded her
“What are we going to do with you?”
“I will get stronger”
“You always say this”
“I have nothing else I will get stronger”
Ireia spoke to the other students
“We will finish here for today You all can go back Noloty-san will stay behind”
It was usual for her to befelt different from usual Ireia had an expression that seemed as if she had made some decision
“I have told you this again, and again, and again, but this is impossible for you Even in the unlikely chance that you become a trainee or an Ar to make any decision?”
“I’ve made it I’ll become an Armed Librarian”
“I see So I have made a decision, too”
At that ; she was standing quietly Yet Noloty couldn’t help but withdraw
“I like you Therefore, I don’t want to see you get killed at the hands of so enemy”
Noloty froze She started running as if she was being whipped
“Please die”
Ireia’s charge wasthan the attack of a tank Noloty avoided her protruding ared some of the meat on her face
Was she serious? Those doubts disappeared immediately with Ireia’s assault
Noloty ran while brushi+ng against Ireia’s side She ith her reflexes and leg speed She was now only escaping
It was lare fros started slowing down Her head got grabbed and she was turned around She was held up with her back against the cold wall
Noloty hit Ireia’s stomach and face with her fists Her lips were cut and she started bleeding from her nose Yet her heavy, hard body did not move
“Great punches How regrettable”
She gathered strength to her fingers holding Noloty’s head Noloty kept hitting her She did so deter
“…guh!”
A short scream that did not form any words leaked from Noloty’s mouth A tremendous explosive sound resounded inside her head Even if someone beat a bass drum next to her ear it would be
“Noloty-san”
Ireia released her hand Noloty’s body collapsed Gently catching her, Ireia carried her on her back
“Even when you were on the brink of death your fists still lacked the drive to kill”
Noloty could not answer in her present condition
“The proble like that It is as if you do not even listen to other people’s advice Even using force does not change you
What are we going to do with you? What can be done with a child like you?”
Just like that, Noloty was brought to the hospital wing
Even when her skull was healed, the ringing in her ears did not stop A stor inside her head It was so loud that she couldn’t even sleep at night
Voiced were mixed in the sounds of the storm They were the voices of theto do with you?’ ‘That’s only escapis’ ‘Noloty senpai’ ‘It means a debt’
“Shut up, please be quiet…”
Noloty
The ringing didn’t stop They kept whispering to her ‘…fight against Rolatza…’ ‘Don’t forget, Noloty’ ‘Great punches How regrettable’ ‘I think that is miserable’ ‘You don’t need hatred’ ‘The world’ ‘Even Ireia-san was shocked’ ‘You still don’t have the resolution to kill’
“I know it, so be quiet!”
Noloty said to the ringing She covered her head with the blanket, but the voiced echoing in her head only grew louder
“You’re too loud, please, really, be quiet…”
At that time, she noticed there was a sound outside theIt wasn’t the ringing or an auditory hallucination It was the barking of a stray dog
Noloty got up She went outside with her body swaying and walked towards the dog
‘It’s simple Don’t think too hard about it’
She heard a voice inside her head The dog at her feet was howling
‘Just give up Give up on not killing people’
She heard a voice inside her head She noticed for the first tientle voice
The dog was loud She couldn’t kill hu Norht now she could
If she could give up with this dog, she could probably also do so with people
So…
“…”
However, so ran away at some point Noloty stood still in place She certainly did think of killing it, but her body didn’t move
“…Ahaha”
Noloty laughed and leaned her body listlessly on the wall Her back slowly slipped down and she sat on the ground
This is iht Noloty I will probably never feel this way again Even at such a ti people is impossible for me
By thinking so she felt better As her doubts cleared, the ringing also grew quieter
“Thinking of it, it really isn’t a big deal”
Nolotypeople It was only ait It really wasn’t a big deal at all
Then let’s give up I will no longer hesitate
Noloty looked up at the starry sky and smiled She noticed for the first tiht
And just like that Noloty gave up on killing people She gave up on giving up
Enlike couldn’t understand it He gave up on not killing people without a moive up
Just saying she was kind wasn’t enough of a reason Did she have an important reason for why she could not kill?
He once asked Noloty that while she was alive Enlike thought back to that time