Part 45 (1/2)

It was after this visit that Mildred Caniper coolly asked Helen if Dr.

Mackenzie were in the habit of using endearments towards her.

”Not often,” Helen said. Slightly flushed and trying not to laugh, she stood at the bed-foot and faced Mildred Caniper fairly.

”You allow it?”

”I--like it.”

Mildred Caniper closed her eyes. ”Please ask him not to do it in my presence.”

”I'll tell him when he comes again,” Helen answered agreeably, and her stepmother realized that the only weapons to which this girl was vulnerable were ones not willingly used: such foolish things as tears or sickness; she seemed impervious to finer tools. Helen's looks at the moment were unabashed: she was trying to remember what Zebedee had said, both for its own sake and to gauge its effect on Notya to whose memory it was clear enough, and its naturalness, the slight and unmistakable change in his voice as he spoke to Helen, hurt her so much with their reminder of what she had missed that pain made her strike once more.

”This is what I might have expected from Miriam.”

”But,” said Helen, all innocence, ”she doesn't care for him.”

”And you do.”

She did not wish to say yes; she could not say no; she kept her half-smiling silence.

”How long has this been going on?” The tones were sharp with impotence.

”Oh--well--since you went to Italy. At least,” she murmured vaguely, ”that was when he came to tea.”

But Mildred did not hear the last homely sentence, and Helen's next words came from a great distance, even from the shuttered room in Italy.

”And why should you mind? Why shouldn't we--like each other?”

Mildred Caniper opened her remarkably blue eyes, and said, almost in triumph, ”You'll be disappointed.”

At that Helen laughed with a security which was pathetic and annoying to the woman in the bed.

”Life--” Mildred Caniper began, and stopped. She had not yet reached the stage, she reflected, when she must utter plat.i.tudes about the common lot. She looked at Helen with unusual candour. ”I have never spoken to you of these things,” she said.

”Oh, I shouldn't like you to!” Helen cried, and her hands were near her ears.

Mildred allowed her lips to curve. ”I am not referring to the facts of generation,” she said drily, and her smile broadened, her eyebrows lifted humorously. ”I am quite aware that the--the advantages of a country life include an early arrival at that kind of knowledge.

Besides, you were fortunate in your brothers. And then there were all the books.”

”The books?”

”The ones Rupert used to bring you.”

”So you knew about them.”

”I have had to remind you before, Helen, that I am not out of my mind.”

”What else do you know?” Helen asked with interest, and sat down on the bed.

This was Miriam's inquiry when the conversation was reported to her.