Part 15 (1/2)

”Horrid!” Helen exclaimed.

”But I should be used to nothing else.”

”And if you came down our high road one day and begged at our door, and saw some one like yourself, some one clean and fresh and innocent--”

”So that's what he thinks of me!”

”Hus.h.!.+ I like this,” Helen said.

”Even if there were a stern stepmother in the background, you'd be envious of that girl. You might obey no laws, but you'd find yourself the slave of something, your own vice, perhaps, or folly, or the will of that gentleman tramp of yours.” He ended with a sharp tap of his emptied pipe, and sank back in a thoughtful silence.

Helen's hands slid down her stockings from knee to ankle and back again: her eyes were on the fire, but they saw the wet high road and the ragged woman with skirt flapping against shapeless boots. The storm's voice rose and fell, and sometimes nothing could be heard but the howling of the wind, and she knew that the poplars were bent under it; but when it rested for a moment the steady falling of the rain had a kind of rea.s.surance. In the room, there were small sounds of s.h.i.+fting coals and breathing people.

Miriam sat on her stool like a bird on a branch. Her head was on one side, the tilted eyebrows gave her face an enquiring look, and she smiled with a light mischief. ”You ought to have been a preacher, John dear,” she said. ”And you took--they always do--rather an unfair case.”

”Take any case you like, you can't get freedom. When you're older you won't want it.”

”You're very young, John, to have found that out,” Helen said.

”But you know it.”

Miriam clapped her hands in warning. ”Don't say,” she begged, ”that it's because you are a woman!”

”Is that the reason?” Helen asked.

”No, it's because you are a Helen, a silly, a slave! And John makes himself believe it because he's in love with a woman who is going to manage him. Clever me!”

Colour was in John's cheeks. ”Clever enough,” he said, ”but an awful little fool. Let's do something.”

”When I have been sitting still for a long time,” Helen said, as though she produced wisdom, ”I'm afraid to move in case something springs on me. I get stiff-necked. I feel--I feel that we're lost children with no one to take care of us.”

”I'm rather glad I'm not that tramp,” Miriam owned, and s.h.i.+vered.

”And I do wish Notya were safe at home.”

”I don't,” said Miriam stubbornly.

The wind whistled with a shrill note like a call, and upstairs a door banged loudly.

”Which room?” Miriam whispered.

”Hers, I think. We left the windows open,” John said in a sensible loud voice. ”I'll go and shut them.”

”Don't go. I won't be left here!” Miriam cried. ”This house--this house is too big.”

”It's because she isn't here,” Helen said.

”John, you're the oldest. Make us happy.”