48 Self Identity Pt. 2 (2/2)

Oh, how weak she had been.

”Kyo, I am a person. I am sorry to disappoint, but I have a past. This was overdue and should have been out of the way ever since we set foot in our home. But you must realize that even with all that baggage, I still love you.”

Kyo looked at me with her soft eyes, still struggling for a resolution. I could tell how hard it was for her to carve her own identity after her 'Pure' and 'Honest' partner was not as such.

I extended my hand and grabbed her arm, rubbing it softly. Kyo took notice of the gesture; she seemed pleased. And yet, confused as ever.

”Kyo, we have a lot of time. we'd spend all of it on you. You would become your own person. You would become the person who'd love our child more than me. You'd become a person worthy of your own name.”

Kyo gave out a tired smile and stood up from the couch. She zoomed in and brought her face next to mine. The tips of our noses touched. My heartbeat skipped for a second. She closed her eyes and planted her lips on mine.

What!?

For all the pain and suffering we had been through, I never thought a kiss would taste so rich with love. Everything she said on the plane, she had all the right to call out to me. But this was not the same person. She was not the usual self either. She was moving forward. Towards something. Something I had no right to pry about. All I could do… all I wanted was to support her enough so that she becomes her own person.it was so strange getting kissed. I had never thought I would be able to do this till the end. But I was proven wrong. She was equally in jeopardy and needed me.

Isn't that right Kyo? You realize how important we are to each other, right? Does that also mean you have realized me as another human being?

A moment of fear came across my mind. You could even call it an era. An era of realization. An era, where I was confused at my own humanity. The timing could not be worse.

Kyo separated her lips from mine, but she did not move away. She looked in my eyes and whispered,” I am lost right now, so please bear with me as I look for something. Something substantial.”

I nodded softly.

She retracted and headed towards the shower. She turned at the doorway and curved her lips into another smile. I replied in kind.

I saw her closing the door and heard the shower running seconds later. Her last words rang in my ears for what seemed like an eternity. Something Substantial.

I slid under the covers and asked,” What do you think about it? I know you are jittering to give yout two cents in.”

Priscilla threw the covers away and turned to face me. She was trying to hold back her laughter. So typical.

”How did you know I was awake?”

”You may not remember, but we spent four years together. I know more than you think. So, what do

you think?”

”I think she is on a path of self destruction. Quite literally in this case. You were the one who defined her, and now she knows you are not the glorious 'Madonna' she thought you were. And she is, once again, lost in this world. You could even compare her to a child.”

I didn't like how Priscilla was so bold to spit something so truthfully.

”Everyone goes through those phases. You did. You helped me through it. You even helped Blessing to some extent. Amaan was too much for you, but she did hide her true self so that she could take her time with you. But nothing of that sense has happened with Kiyomi. I'd be lying if I said I understood her completely. But the way she diminished your existence was amusing nonetheless.”

I sighed. Ofcourse she'd focus on it.

I turned to face away from her. she continued to lay with me. The sound of water dropping on the porcelain floor was the only thing breaking the silence.

”So, where are we going? You said you'd tell me about this Gian person,” She asked.

”I called her last night. I still don't have all the details.”

”Hmm.”

It was silence once again.

”Priscilla, can I ask for a favour?”

”You can ask, but its all up to me if I'd comply.”

”Can you please not come with us?”

There was a little movement on the other side of the bed. I realized she had stood up. I saw her heading towards the bar and taking out a bag of gummy bears and a bottle of beer.

”Those things are costly, you know.”

”If you haven't noticed, I can afford it.”

That made me smile.

”Okay.”

”Sorry?”

”Okay. I won't come with you. Take the blue SUV and go to wherever you want. Let me know when we would be going back. I'd get the jet ready by then.”

I didn't think she'd agree so easily. She really had changed.

”Thank you.”

”Whatever. I'm going for breakfast. I'll see you in the evening. I'd like to check out the casino in this town,” saying that, she left the room.

All I could hear was the tricking sounds of the water from the shower.

It felt serene.