Chapter 48 (2/2)
When I said that in a flustered manner, he chuckled
”I wonder why……usually I can't help but feel pressed for time”
”……time? What do you mean?”
”Well, simple, it just means I have that much work to do The s I've always been chasing after my father's back……for the time when I will one day succeed my father, no, precisely because I want to succeed him……however, the more I chase after him, the more I feel the difference between my father and myself”
He said that in an absent- afar, in a hushed voice
”I ainative ability……and in talent above all else That is exactly why, in order to bury that which I lack in, I just have to think and learn”
The tiht that I wanted to beat my father in a spar ca that I lacked in In order to fill that gap, I felt that I had to find so in talent, then all I need to do to fight against that is to learn and refine ht? ……time is limited In order to succeedthat I can……when I think about that, I unconsciously begin to feel chased by the thought that I do not have enough ti this because you said that……but I understand that feeling Because when I was learning the sword, I also felt that I was lacking in everything, and thought that I had to fill that gap with so the sith a girl's body”
At my words, Rui smiled a bit
”But, what I don't understand is……why must you feel that cornered? It may be true that time is limited, but there is still quite soh those aren't really words foranything”
”No I' impatient is because I also feel that tis in ht end up following that flow and end up doing things in a half-hearted manner If that happens, then nohidden in father's enormous shadow If that happens……then even if I obtain a position enablingthis country's support, I will end up thinking, ”If it were father, then he'd probably be able to do things better”, and become unable to advance forward I a I do not want If at that tis rets”
I cannot forget the moet the moment he hts had also taken root inside of et to this point?
A wall that stands in his way between him and what he wants to accomplish
To hie shadow
……even if that was not his father's intention
”……that is your first battle, isn't it?”
”Indeed”
”……even so, no, that is all the o to sleep sooner If you destroy your body, then you'll be putting the cart before the horse, right?”
”That ain looked off into the distance
”People have scenes that they want to return to”
I tilted my head at his abstract words
”Those are my mother's words……for example, a point in ti with a friend And after finishi+ng playing, the sunset you sahen returning home Those sorts of daily, casual times, feel even more beautiful and precious when you become an adult”
Rui's soft voice dissolved into the air of the town's twilight and disappeared
……so and beautiful, is what I absentht as I listened to him talk
”The er you will be able to be when you become an adult No matter how filthy the world appears when you becoic memories will shi+ne, and you will feel that……even so, the world is beautiful - is what she said……well, in short she's just saying that while you're a child, it is i around like a child, is how I interpreted it”
”……she said quite a lovely thing”
”That she did”
”……but, while Isuch things, then it'll be pointless”
”I do understand that”
He said that andstarts to feel wasteful I don't plan on placing the fault on mother's words, but……for some reason, when I beco about it, I remember those words And when I do so, I start to really want to come here This is probably the scene that the me of noants to return to”
”Fufufu……so”
”……and if I cohthot face had gone red That's not fair……
As I thought that, I felt embarrassed and prayed that he would think the redness of my cheeks was due to the sunset
”That is……an honour”
As I said that, I avertedout at the view outside
”Do you remember our proo out to the toith you And then, I want to do a lot of things that we can only do now together with you”
Around the time when the heat in my cheeks had cooled somewhat, I called out to hiain as he replied thus