Part 19 (1/2)

”What do you mean?”

”I mean we haven't found a way to stop the visions.”

Javier froze. ”But... you said final report.”

”That's right. We're quitting.”

He started to speak, but no sound came out of his suddenly dry mouth. He tried again. ”You can't do that. I mean-look, we've been living with this for fifteen years, some of us. We've had friends die and other friends go permanently psychotic. We can't stop until we find a cure.”

”What do you mean, we?” Melynn snapped, green eyes blazing. ”I'm the one who's been living in Rayburn's h.e.l.lhole, not you.” She glared at him for a moment as he sat there, speechless. Then, lowering her gaze, she pa.s.sed her hand across her forehead; and when she again raised her eyes the anger was gone. ”Alban,” she said quietly, ”I know what you're going through. Just because I was working with Dr. Rayburn doesn't mean I didn't get my share of the fear and misunderstanding everyone dumps on us. I did. And the job... it was ten times worse than Aurora.

The staff spent half their time trying to learn what triggers the trances, and the other half looking for a way to suppress them.” She shook her head. ”Nothing worked, but they tried everything. I had to live through changes in diet, environment, biorhythm-I don't remember all of them. Some of them-a lot of them-made either the vision or side effects worse. I've lost ten kilograms since we started, and been on the brink of a nervous breakdown twice. Others of us weren't that lucky-two of our original eighteen are dead, and another four might as well be. I've been Dr. Rayburn's only test subject for three months now; everyone else had to drop out. Alban, I want to find out how to stop the trances; I want it so badly I dream about it. But I can't do any more. I've paid my pound of flesh. It's up to someone else now.”

”I'm sorry,” he said. Dimly, he was aware of how inadequate the words were, but at the moment another, more urgent thought was uppermost in his mind. ”Tell me,” he asked carefully, ”did they ever figure out what triggers the visions?”

It was as if a thin glaze of ice had dropped over the emerald of her eyes; and in that moment Javier knew that she, too, knew the truth. ”No,” she said in a low voice. ”And I doubt they ever will.”

He nodded, trying to dislodge the lump that had formed in his throat. ”You could have made it easier on yourself, you know, if you'd just told them.”

Her smile was bitter. ”You don't find enough hatred directed toward you, Alban? You want to try living among people who know how your visions come to you?”

”No.” Javier glanced at the people sitting nearby, but if they were listening they gave no sign of it. ”I'm sorry; it was a stupid comment.”

”That's all right.” She touched his arm. ”I'm sorry, too-I didn't need to be sarcastic. I'm just very burned out right now.”

”Any way I can help?”

She shook her head. ”Thanks, but no. I'm just pa.s.sing through, actually-I'm heading up to the most desolate part of northern Newfoundland I can afford to get to.” She smiled faintly. ”My first choice was central Australia, but Dr. Rayburn's budget couldn't stretch that far.”

Javier nodded. ”I guess I'd better get back,” he said. ”Thanks for talking to me.”

She caught his wrist as he started to get up. ”Look, Alban, I'm sorry I-well, I know how much you and everyone else has been counting on us. And we did turn up one bright spot: the virus that linked into our parents' chromosomes apparently requires a naked protein from the Auroran biosphere to make its linkage properly, and the pseudogene it forms is highly recessive besides. That means that unless you marry another Ca.s.sandra your children won't have it; and even if you do the pseudogene will probably break off and disappear before your grandchildren can inherit it.”

He swallowed, unsaid, the first words that came to mind. If she wanted to see that as a bright spot it wasn't his place to burst her bubble. ”Well, that's something,” he said instead. ”I-good luck with your trip, Melynn; I hope it helps you.”

”Thanks. Good-bye, and good luck to you, too.”

He made his way back to the kitchen through the sea of covertly staring eyes and returned to work, feeling a familiar numbness settling over his brain.

Somewhere deep inside him, he knew, part of the drive that kept him going had died. He had never honestly admitted to himself just how much hope he had been putting in Dr. Rayburn's work; the true quant.i.ty was now painfully clear. Rayburn was the last major researcher still working on the Ca.s.sandra trances. If he was giving up, then that was it. The visions would be with Javier now until his death, ending forever any chance he might have had to live a normal life. A wife and children... he almost wished Melynn would be able to keep such a naive hope. But outside Rayburn's lab it was unlikely to last. The real world was a sobering experience for social outcasts.

Somehow Javier managed to make it through the day, and by evening his bitterness and frustration had abated somewhat. Many people throughout history, he told himself as he walked home, had survived without hope; he could, if necessary, do likewise. Besides, he seemed to be lucky these days. Maybe luck would serve him where hope had failed.

Two days later, his luck ran out.

He was sweeping the kitchen floor when the two-second warning came, and he had just time to step close to a wall before his muscles locked in place and the world faded away....

Lying on its side is the tangled wreckage of a tube train, squeezed between the tracks and the tunnel wall. Smoke and fire are everywhere, the crackling of flames mingling with the screams of the injured and the shouts of rescue workers.

From outside the tunnel comes a barely audible roll of thunder, the sound strangely incongruous in the midst of the carnage. An eddy in the air currents momentarily clears the smoke from one car's number plate: 1404. From somewhere inside a scream goes on and on....

”Hey, Javier! Hey!”

The voice came from far away, scared and insistent. Gradually, the train wreck faded from sight. The usual wave of nausea rose into Javier's throat, and he screwed his eyes shut as he fought it down. His muscles trembled with tension and adrenaline shock, and his head ached fiercely. Opening his eyes carefully, he found himself looking into Wonky's anxious face. ”I'm okay, Wonky,” he croaked through dry lips. ”Don't worry.”

The weasel face relaxed only fractionally. ”What happened, kid? You looked like you were seeing a ghost.”

”I saw a train wreck,” Javier said. The headache and nausea were beginning to recede now. A violent s.h.i.+ver swept through his body, scooping up tension and leaving weakness in its wake. ”It's okay, though,” he added as Wonky's eyes widened, ”it happens to me a lot. The trance only lasts a few seconds.”

”Gardam! You one of them whatchyasay-fortunetellers? What'd you see?”

Javier's hands ached, and he suddenly realized he was still squeezing the broom handle. ”I'm not a fortune-teller. I just see these things sometimes. Look, I'm not supposed to talk about it.”

”What'd you see?” Wonky persisted.

Javier sighed, but he lacked the emotional energy to argue. Haltingly, he described the vision in as much detail as he could stand. ”Now please don't tell anyone else about me, okay?” he said when he had finished. ”Mr. Schultz told me not to-”

He was cut off by a sudden grip on his arm. ”Hey! The fourteen-hundred cars are always on the Paterson train-that's the one Mr. Schultz goes home in!”

Wonky flicked a glance at the wall clock. ”Gardam, he's gone already. C'mon, we got to stop him!”

”Wait a sec,” Javier protested, but it was too late. Wonky's wiry body was a lot stronger than it looked, and before Javier could break loose he found himself outside in the hot, muggy air.

”Hold it,” he tried again. ”Mr. Schultz told me not to tell him about any visions I saw.”

”You just gonna let him die?” Wonky snorted. He took off through the late- afternoon crowd of pedestrians, moving like a combination jackrabbit and bulldozer. Javier ran after him, and managed to catch up again two blocks later.

”Wait, Wonky, hold on,” he said, trying not to pant. ”Look, it may not come true. Probably won't, actually. Hey, remember it thundered in the vision? Look, no thunder!”

It was no use. Wonky had gotten it into his head that his boss/friend was in danger and no one was going to stop him from delivering a warning. Groaning inwardly, Javier followed, wondering what he was going to do.

They reached the tube station minutes later and Wonky, who obviously was familiar with the layout, headed off to the left. s.h.i.+vering as sweaty skin met the air-conditioning, Javier plunged through the crowd after him. A low rumble made him glance back at the entrance before he'd gone very far. He s.h.i.+vered again, this time not from the cool air, and hurried on. Outside, it was starting to rain.

Hugo Schultz was easy to spot, his huge girth making him stand out among the other commuters. Javier hesitated, but Wonky showed no signs of uncertainty.

He caught up to Schultz just as the latter was about to step into a waiting train.

Pulling him out of line-no mean feat-Wonky launched into an animated monologue. From his position Javier couldn't hear what was being said, but Schultz's face quickly clouded over with anger. Twice he tried to pull from Wonky's grip, but the little man hung on grimly, letting go only when the train began to move down the tunnel. As it pa.s.sed, Javier noted the number on one of its cars: 1404.

He looked back to see Schultz bearing down on him, face livid with rage, with a relieved but puzzled-looking Wonky in his wake. ”Javier!” the fat man bellowed. ”I thought I told you to keep your d.a.m.ned tricks to yourself. Now you've made me miss my train, and you've got Wonky all in a lather-”

”Boss, he saved your life,” Wonky said.

”Mr. Schultz, believe me, I tried to tell him-” Javier began.

”Shut up! You're fired. Both of you-got that, Wonky?”

Wonky's jaw dropped, and he started to protest.

The words never came. From down the tunnel came a hideous crash.