Part 6 (1/2)

But at breakfast, Benjamin would tell Mama that he wanted to leave, and everything would blow sky-high, and Benjamin would have already written his parents to come get him, and ...

And they would. And no one would ever find out what he'd told Henri. And he'd go around telling the troisieme cla.s.s how glad he was that that rich Parisian snot was gone, and he'd play soccer and tell them his father was born here, and ...

The s.p.a.ce inside his head was full of darkness, cold and heavy. He shoved his face into his pillow and slept.

The kitchen was empty when he came down, two clean plates still on the table with the bread and jam. Who else had overslept? Mama? Even the milk was still out.

He tore a piece off the baguette and laid his notebook on the table. He had an essay due tomorrow. A question from Les Miserables: Was Javert right about human nature, that people were either good or bad? He chewed his bread, thinking.

Javert seemed to think people couldn't change, and that didn't sound right at all. It was called repenting, it was all over the Bible. But he wasn't supposed to use the Bible in a public school essay, even if the princ.i.p.al was in his church, and none of his own arguments sounded any good. Can people really change? he wondered, scratching out his third sentence. Imagine Benjamin changing, or Henri.

Or Julien.

He felt light-headed. He left the essay on the table and walked out into the dark stairwell, hands in his pockets, and sat on the cold stone stairs. He could hear Monsieur Bouchard, Grandpa's reclusive tenant he'd never seen, singing s.n.a.t.c.hes of something off-key; and from the other apartment, Grandpa's, the soft tap, tap of a hammer. He went on down.

He slipped into the apartment and closed the door softly behind him, and Grandpa smiled at him without looking up from his work. Julien sat and watched his grandfather hammer the nails in with his broad, careful hands, and felt the silence, and the peace in Grandpa's breathing, and listened to the rain.

Finally Grandpa put down his hammer and smiled at him, and Julien opened his mouth and began to speak. And told him everything.

Almost everything.

”And Grandpa-last night he was packing. He says he's leaving. He says if it's gonna be like this he can't stay. All they did was tease him!”

Grandpa studied the shelf he had just nailed, tired lines in his forehead, a web of wrinkles around his eyes. ”What did he think they were doing?”

”He thought they were a pack of wolves about to have him for breakfast,” said Julien bitterly.

”And what do you think they thought?”

”They know he thinks they're stupid hicks and he's too good to talk to them.”

”Do they treat you like they treat him, at all?”

”Sort of. Not that stuff, but ...” He looked away, at the blank white wall. ”We're in the same category.” The rich Parisian snots category.

”Julien, is something bothering you? Do you feel like you should have done something yesterday?” Julien didn't look at him. He didn't dare. ”Maybe you should. But it's hard. It's very hard in a situation like that to stand up to the crowd. Maybe you'll learn. I hope so. But don't beat yourself up.”

Julien nodded, looking at his feet.

”And listen. I didn't know Benjamin said he was leaving, but I know that he and your mother had a talk last night. A good talk, apparently. Till fairly late. So please don't worry.”

He swallowed. ”Well. That's good.”

”Will you do something for me, Julien? It's a simple thing, but I'd appreciate it.”

Julien looked up. ”Bring Benjamin down? Papa asked me.”

”No, although that would be wonderful. But there's something else. I don't know if you pray every day, but there's something I'd like you to pray for me. Just this. Ask G.o.d to show you what he wants you to do. If you'll do that for me-let's make it a deal. You pray that; I pray that the boys at school see the light. How does that sound?”

Julien swallowed again. ”Pretty good,” he said.

His name was Emmanuel, Grandpa said, but he was called Manu. He lived in the sixteenth century. He had no last name because he was a servant born in the service of a n.o.ble family near Le Puy. He was raised with Philippe, the lord's younger son, raised to be his loyal servant for life.

Julien and Magali and Benjamin sat around Grandpa's table, warming their hands around mugs of mint or blackberry tea. Grandpa's eyes had a quiet glow like the flickering light from his fireplace, like the candle in the center of the table.

Manu and Philippe were the same age, he said. They swam in the creek together, tussled with each other, threw cherry pits at the girls. They learned to ride together and raced their horses; they went hunting together, Manu carrying Philippe's spear. They even-though it was supposed to be forbidden-studied together.

Philippe taught Manu to read, Grandpa said, and this, in the end, is why Manu would have died for him. For Philippe, books were interesting; for Manu, they were the world. Philippe learned more from Manu's excited accounts of his textbooks than from reading them. It was only natural that, when Philippe was to be sent away to learn a profession as a younger son should, he asked for Manu to be sent with him. And-hesitating between his different options-asked Manu which he thought was best.

”Medicine,” said Manu, his eyes big with delight.

They went to Montpellier to study medicine.

Montpellier was in ferment in those days, Grandpa said. Boiling with new ideas. Not only the latest theories in natural philosophy and medicine, but the strange new ideas of the Reformation, which had seemed so distant back at their chateau-and here were discussed in the streets. Dangerous, enticing ideas, like reading the Bible for yourself in your own language. They met a man who could get them a copy. Manu couldn't resist.

They read medicine. They read the Bible. Philippe would come home and tell Manu everything he had heard in cla.s.s, and Manu would tell him everything he had read. They stayed up, talking about the Bible all hours of the night; they talked about it with other students, with men at taverns, with anybody. The radical new ideas-that G.o.d forgave simply, by grace, that you could know G.o.d for yourself-were one by one confirmed by what they read. They became Protestant.

Then they got the message from home. Sickness at the chateau. Come quickly.

News traveled slowly in those days, Grandpa said. When that message reached Philippe, his father and brother were already dead. He reached home to find himself lord of all his family's lands.

Philippe was overwhelmed. Grieving, unprepared for the work of ruling, he leaned on Manu in those first days; but one thing gave him joy in his new life, one thing he was sure he wanted. As a lord, he could set up his own Protestant church. He did it right away.

It was his undoing.

Protestantism wasn't illegal, exactly, Grandpa said. Protestants just didn't legally exist. Church and state were the same thing; cardinals and bishops more powerful than lords. It was like renouncing your citizens.h.i.+p. The bishop seated at Le Puy summoned Philippe and told him he had the power to give all his lands to the neighboring duke if Philippe didn't recant.

Philippe went home in turmoil and talked to Manu. To Manu, raised on an ideal of boundless loyalty to his lord-a lord he knew and loved-there was no question. The G.o.d he had once feared was now just such a lord and friend as Philippe had always been, but a thousand times more. He would not have turned his back on Philippe to save his life. How could either of them turn their backs on Jesus?

Philippe was stripped of his t.i.tle and all his lands. He left his family's chateau, and Manu left with him. They did not look back.

They traveled and lived on what they had learned: going from town to town offering their medical skills to lord and commoner for a reasonable fee-or, if need be, for free. And for free, also, they would read their French Bible aloud to anyone who wanted to hear it and share their enthusiasm for knowing their Lord as a friend.

One day, they saved the life of a lord's only son, and in grat.i.tude, he gave them land. Nothing much, a few hills up on a cold plateau by a small river. A river called the Tanne.

Grandpa smiled at their look of enlightenment. They built two things there, he said. First a chapel. Their work of praise to G.o.d, built with their own hands out of the black stones to be found by the river. Then a school. Manu was the teacher; and as the place grew into a settlement, he welcomed the sons of lords and peasants alike to share his pa.s.sion for learning. Soon they could wors.h.i.+p in their chapel without fear; the Edict of Nantes had been signed, and their faith was finally legal. The edict came from a new king who had once been Protestant and had not forgotten: the former Henri of Navarre, now Henri Quatre, king of France.

Henri Quatre. Julien shook his head.

It was the beginning, Grandpa said, and it laid the foundation for what was to come. When one hundred years later the edict was revoked, Tanieux was a town where Protestants and Catholics lived together in mutual respect; where people learned, and thought for themselves, and weren't swayed by every political wind from Paris. And the refugees came, fleeing from the persecution, and they were accepted here. ”And that,” said Grandpa, ”was when we came. The Losiers. We were refugees. Half the families in this town were refugees.”

There was silence. The light from the fire and candle turned the white walls golden, turned the pine table a deeper gold still. Julien was thinking, We. Who were they, these medieval refugees? Benjamin was running a finger around the edge of his cup, slowly. Finally he opened his mouth. ”But,” he said, looking away, ”that was then.”

Grandpa turned his quiet eyes on him. ”Do you think,” he said, ”that they have forgotten?”

”Yes.” Benjamin dropped the word like a stone.

The shadows deepened in Grandpa's face. He spoke slowly. ”I know. It looks like they never knew. But you have to understand what memory is, in these hills. We put our roots down deep here. And the earth sustains us, down deep in the dark. But the earth grows crusted and hard with the years and won't let in the rain.” He fell silent, his hands on the table gnarled and still. The wind beat the rain against the window.

He looked up, a light in his eyes.