308 Ellens Moods (2/2)
”Yeah you are. In denial too.” Anne added.
”Why would I be jealous?” Ellen scoffed. ”What is she compare to me?”
”She just taller than me.” Ellen said as described Vina.
”Has a curvier body.”
She looked down.
”A prettier lips.”
She frowned.
”Smells nicer.”
She gripped the hem of her clothes and looked down.
”More seductive.”
She bit her lips.
”B-bustier…”
Tears formed on the corner of her eyes.
”A-and bolder to ask him out like that…”
Ellen looked up and saw both of them looking at her sympathetically while wiping fake tears from their eyes.
”Mmhmm, I get it.” Luna said emotionally, ”I really do.”
”Huhu, you poor girl. You are so unlucky and so inferior. I feel you.” Anne relentlessly said.
A massive club appeared on Ellen's hands as she said: ”Die, you traitors!”
”Oh dear, she has another one.” Anne said while laughing.
”Calm down, girl.” Said Luna while laughing, ”We can talk about this.”
”Hmph!” Ellen snorted as she chucked the club off to somewhere yet again, not really caring if she hit something or someone.
Anne and Luna laughed a bit more before finally calming down. It was then that Anne suddenly became serious and told her.
”Listen here, Sis.” Anne said while looking intently at Ellen, ”Don't you think that none of this would've happened if you didn't deny what you truly feel?”
”…” Ellen had no words for that.
”Paul told you the whole truth about what happened when you were kidnapped back then.” Anne continued. ”It was him who saved you from imprisonment, not Raven. You all just thought that it was him since Paul and Raven looked so much alike when they were kids. And he also told you why he kept that a secret right?”
”…”
”It's because you told him that you hated him so much.” Anne's words stabbed Ellen's heart. ”He also told you that he didn't mind and he would officially chase after you but what did you do?”
”…”
”You told him that he's dumb and you ran away.” Ellen's heart was bleeding, she wanted to stop Anne from talking but she can't since she's just stating facts.
”So?” Anne crossed her arms and continued: ”Truthfully speaking, you have no right to get mad at him. In a sense, you already rejected him. So why would you care if he flirts with other girls?”
Ellen's breath hitched. That…hearing that, specially from her, hurts more than she expected. She wanted to say something back but she couldn't. All she could do is to lower her head and accept this pain.
Anne was right. It was her who's at fault here. She had no right and no reason to be mad. It was her who pushed him away and ran. No matter what reasons she may have for doing that, that doesn't justify the way she treats him whenever she's jealous.
”I just can't be honest…” Ellen said, not particularly towards anyone, more so to herself. Anne and Luna were silent.
”I didn't want to do that.” Ellen was referring to her act of pushing him away. ”I just didn't know how to react. I like him, you guys know that by now.”
”I'm just scared.” Her vision blurred, she wasn't even aware that she's already crying this much. ”I can't help it. What if I can't keep him? I'm not like those girls he fantasizes about, what if he finds another one and leave me behind?”
”I just...” Ellen gripped the hem of her clothes tighter, ”I just don't know what will happen to me if that day even happen. So…I thought that it would be best to keep him at arm's length. Maybe that way, it'll be better.”
”That's stupid.”
Ellen froze. She involuntarily looked up and saw Anne and Luna smiling at her. She bit her lips since she realized that those words didn't come from them.
She didn't even turn around to see who said that since she already knew who it was. Her instincts told her to run, and that she did. But before she could even run far away, she heard him speak once again.
”Running away again? Fine! Do that! I swear to god that if you disappear from my sight, then you will never, ever see me again.”
That proved effective as Ellen immediately stopped from her tracks. She couldn't look back and she was trembling, it didn't take long before a rough and strong hands gripped her hands, dragging her somewhere.
Luna and Anne watched Paul and Ellen disappear. They looked at each other and giggled. The high-fived and went back to enjoy their break time.