Part 27 (1/2)
He took the paper in his hand, and a slight perfume came from it that went to his heart. He devoured the delicately formed letters, and they went to his heart too: he thrilled all over. And the words were as like her as the perfume. She gave the order, and the addresses of her friends, with a pretty little attempt at the businesslike; but, this done, she burst out, ”and we all entreat you to be good to poor Mr.
Little, and protect him against the wicked, cruel, abominable Unions.”
These sweet words made his heart beat violently, and brought the tears of tenderness into his eyes. He kissed the words again and again. He put them into his bosom, and took them out again, and gloated over them till they danced before his manly eyes. Then his love took another turn: he started up, and marched and strutted, like a young stag, about the room, with one hand pressing the paper to his bosom. Why had he said Wednesday? It could all have been got ready on Tuesday. No matter, he would make up for that lost day. He was on the road, once more, the road to fortune, and to her.
Cheetham came in, and found him walking excitedly, with the paper in his hand, and of course took the vulgar view of his emotion.
”Ay, lad,” said he, ”and they are all swells, I promise you. There's Miss Laura Craske. That's the mayor's daughter. Lady Betty Tyrone. She's a visitor. Miss Castleton! Her father is the county member.”
”And who is this Mr. Coventry?” asked Henry.
”Oh, he is a landed gentleman, but spends his tin in Hillsborough; and you can't blame him. Mr. Coventry? Why, that is Miss Carden's intended.”
”Her intended!” gasped Henry.
”I mean her beau. The gentleman she is going to marry, they say.”
Henry Little turned cold, and a tremor ran through him; but he did not speak a word; and, with Spartan fort.i.tude, suppressed all outward sign of emotion. He laid the paper down patiently, and went slowly away.
Loyal to his friend even in this bitter moment, he called at Bayne's place and left word with the landlady that Mr. Bayne was not wanted at the works any more that day.
But he could not bear to talk to Bayne about his plans. They had lost their relish. He walked listlessly away, and thought it all over.
For the first time he saw his infatuation clearly. Was ever folly like his? If she had been a girl in humble life, would he not have asked whether she had a sweetheart? Yet he must go and give his heart to a lady without inquiry. There, where wisdom and prudence were most needed, he had speculated like an idiot. He saw it, and said to himself, ”I have acted like a boy playing at pitch-farthing, not like a man who knew the value of his heart.”
And so he pa.s.sed a miserable time, bemoaning the treasure that was now quite inaccessible instead of nearly, and the treasure of his own heart he had thrown away.
He awoke with a sense of misery and deep depression, and could not eat; and that was a novelty in his young and healthy life. He drank a cup of tea, however, and then went out, to avoid his mother's tender looks of anxious inquiry. He meant to tell her all one day; but to-day he was not strong enough. He must wait till he was cured; for cured he must be, cured he would be.
He now tried to give his mind to the task Amboyne had set him; but it was too hard: he gave it up, with rage and despair.
Then he made a desperate resolve, which will not surprise those who know the human heart. He would harden himself. He would see more of Miss Carden than ever; only it should be in quite a new light. He would look at her, and keep saying to himself all the time, ”You are another man's wife.”
With this determination, he called at ”Woodbine Villa.”
Miss Carden was not at home.
”Are you sure she is not at home?”
”Not at home,” replied the man stiffly.
”But you needn't to keep him at the door,” said a mellow female voice.
”No, miss,” said the man, with a sudden change of manner, for he was a desperate and forlorn admirer of the last speaker. ”Come in, sir.” And he ushered him in to Jael Dence. She was in her bonnet, and just going out. They shook hands, and she told him Miss Carden was out walking.
”Walking with her beau?” said Henry, affecting a jaunty air, but sick within.
”That's more than I can say,” replied Jael.
”You know nothing about it, of course,” said Henry, roughly.