Part 36 (1/2)

Yet, when they had disappeared, it was with the saddest drop to anxious, to gnawing uncertainty, that Jack turned back into the house. An echo of the fear that he had felt in Valerie seemed to float back to him. It was as if, in some strange way, he had handed her over to pain rather than to joy, to sacrifice rather than to attainment.

XXVII

Jack's morning was not a happy one. It was bad enough to have told so many fibs, or, at all events, to have invented so many opportune truths, and it was worse to have to go on inventing more of them to Mary, now that his dexterities had linked him to her.

Mary looked, as was only too natural, much surprised, when he told her that his letters required her help. She looked still more so when she found how inadequate were their contents to account for such a claim.

Indeed there was, apparently, but one letter upon which her advice could be of the least significance, and after she had given him all the information she had to give in regard to the charity for which it appealed, there was really nothing more for them to do.

”But--the letters that required the immediate answers?” she asked.

Jack's excited, plausible manner had dropped from him. Mary felt it difficult to be severe when his look of dejection was piercing her heart; still, she felt that she owed it to him as well as to herself, she must see a little more clearly into how he had ”had things so.”

He replied, his eye neither braving nor evading hers, that he had already answered them; and Mary, after a little pause, in which she studied her friend's face, said:--”I don't understand you this morning, Jack.”

”I'm afraid you'll understand me less when I make you a confession. I didn't give your message this morning, Mary.”

”Didn't give Mrs. Upton's message, to Miss Boc.o.c.k, to Sir Basil?”

”No,” said Jack, but with more mildness and sadness than compunction;--”I want to be straight with you, at all events. So I'd rather tell you. All I did was to say to Sir Basil that I found I couldn't take Mrs. Upton for the drive I'd promised, so that if he wanted to take my place, he was welcome to the buggy. He wanted to, of course. That went without saying.”

”Why, Jack Pennington!”

”Miss Boc.o.c.k, luckily, was on the other side of the veranda, so that I had only to go round to her afterward and tell her that Mrs. Upton had suggested their gardening, but that since she was going to drive with Sir Basil she could go off to the club, at once, too, with Imogen.”

”But, Jack!--what did you mean by it?”--Mary, quite aghast, stared at her Machiavellian friend.

”Why, that Sir Basil should take her. That's all I meant from the beginning, when I proposed going myself. Do forgive me, you dear old brick.

You see, I'm so awfully set on her not being done out of things.”

”Done out of things?”

”Oh, little things, if you like, young things. She's young, and she ought to have them. Say you forgive me.”

”Of course, Jack dear, I forgive you, though I don't understand you. But that's not the point. Everything seems so queer, so twisted; every one seems different. And to find _you_ not straight is worst of all.”

”I promise you, it's my last sin,” said Jack.

Mary, though shaking her bewildered head, had to smile a little, and, the smile encouraging him to lightness, he remarked on her changed aspect.

”So do forgive and forget. I had to confess, when I'd not been true to you.

Really, my nature isn't warped. What an extremely becoming dress that is Mary;--and what have you done to your hair?”

”It's _she_,” said Mary, flus.h.i.+ng with pleasure.

”Mrs. Upton?”

”Yes, she did my hair and gave me the dress. She was so sweet and dear.”