Part 13 (1/2)

Price and Helene met briefly and amiably and she did not again broach the subject of the loan for her friend, nor did she ask for her jewels. It was apparent that she was proudly determined to conceal whatever terrors or even worries that might haunt her, but the effort deprived her of all her native vivacity; she was almost formal in manner and her white face grew more like a cla.s.sic mask daily.

On the evening before the Thornton fete, however, Price was able to dine at home. They met at table and he saw at once that she either had recovered her spirits or was making a deliberate attempt to create the impression of a carefree young woman happy in a tete-a-tete dinner with a busy husband.

Her talk for the most part was of the great entertainment at San Mateo.

The weather promised to be simply magnificent. Wasn't that exactly like Flora Thornton's luck? The immense grounds were simply swarming with workmen; wagon-loads of all sorts of things went through the gates after every train--simply one procession after another; but no one else could so much as get her nose through those gates.

Helene, with all her old childish glee, related how she and Aileen, Polly (who apparently had forgotten her impending doom), and two or three other girls, had called up Mrs. Thornton on the telephone every ten minutes for an hour--pretending it was long distance to make sure of a personal response--and begged to be allowed to go over and see the preparations, until finally, in a towering rage, her ladys.h.i.+p had replied that if they called her again she would withdraw her invitations.

”How we did long for an airs.h.i.+p. It would have been such fun, for she does so disapprove of all of us; thinks us a little flock of silly geese.

Well, we are, I guess, but wasn't she one herself once? She has a pretty hard time even now making life interesting for herself--out here, anyhow.

”Yesterday we motored down to Menlo and dropped in at the Maynards. There were a lot of the props of San Francisco society, all as rich as croesus, sitting on the veranda crocheting socks or sacks for a crop of new babies that are due. One or two were hemst.i.tching lawn, or embroidering a monogram, or something else equally useless or virtuous. They were talking mild gossip, and didn't even have powder on. It was ghastly--”

”Helene,” said Ruyler abruptly, ”what do you think is the secret of happiness--I mean, of course, the enduring sort--perhaps content would be the better word. Happiness is too dependent upon love, and love was never meant for daily food. You are not by nature frivolous, and you are capable of thought. Have you ever given any to the secret of content?”

”Yes, work,” she answered promptly. ”Everybody should have his daily job, prescribed either by the state or by necessity; but something he must do if both he and society would continue to exist.”

Ruyler elevated his eyebrows and looked at her curiously. ”Socialism. I didn't know you had ever heard of it.”

”Aileen and I are not such fools as we look--as you were good enough to intimate just now. We went to a series of lectures early last winter over at the University, on Socialism--a lot of us formed a cla.s.s, but all except Aileen and I dropped out.

”We continued to read for a time after the lectures were over, but of course that didn't last. One drops everything for want of stimulus, and when one begins to flutter again one is lost.

”But I heard and read and thought enough to deduce that the only vital interest in life after one's secret happiness--which one would not dare spread out too thin if one could in this American life--is necessary work well done. And that is quite different from those fussy interests and fads we create or take up for the sake of thinking we are busy and interested.

”Polly's mother once told me she never was so happy in her life as during those weeks after the earthquake and fire when all the servants had run away and she had to cook for the family out in the street on a stove they bought down in a little shop in Polk Street and set up and surrounded on three sides by 'inside blinds.' She happened to have a talent for cooking, and without her the family would have starved. Polly tied a towel round her head and did the housework, or stood in a line and got the daily rations from the Government. She never thought once of--”

”Of what?”

”Oh, of doing anything rather than expire of boredom. She and Rex had been married a year and were living at home. Rex and Mr. Carter helped excavate down in the business district, as the working cla.s.s wouldn't lift a finger as long as the Government was feeding them.”

”There you are! Their ideal is complete leisure, and that of our delicate products of the highest civilization--compulsory jobs! What does progress mean but the leisure to enjoy the arts and all the finer fruits of progress? What else do we men really work for?”

”Progress has gone too far and defeated its own ends. Every healthy human being should be forced to work six hours a day.

”That would leave eight for sleep and ten for enjoyment of the arts and luxuries. Then we really should enjoy them, and if we couldn't have them unless we did our six hours' stint, ennui and the dissipations that it breeds would be unknown.

”I can tell you it is demoralizing, disintegrating, to wake up morning after morning--about ten o'clock!--and know that you have nothing worth while to do for another day--for all the days!--that you have no place in the world except as an ornament! Women of limited incomes and a family of growing children have enough, to do, of course--too much--they never can feel superfluous and demoralized--except by envy--but as for us! Why, I can tell you, it is a marvel we don't all go straight to the devil.”

They were alone with the coffee, and she was pounding the table with her little fist. Her cheeks were deeply flushed and her black somber eyes were opening and closing rapidly, as if alternately magnetized by some ugly vision and sweeping it aside.

Price watched her with deep interest and deeper anxiety. ”A good many women go to the devil,” he said. ”But you are not that sort.”

”Oh, I don't know. I never could get up enough interest in another man to solve the problem in the usual way--but there are other resources--I--well--”

”What?” Price sat up very straight.

”Oh, dance ourselves into tuberculosis,” she said lightly, and dropping her eyelashes. ”And tuberculosis of the mind, certainly. On the whole, I think I prefer physical to spiritual death....