Part 24 (1/2)

”Like 'em? You know perfectly well that you never can offend me by making me compliments like that. I not only like them; I actually believe them!”

”That's because I mean them, Emma. Now, out with that reason!”

Emma stood up then and put her hands on his shoulders. But she was not looking at him. She was gazing past him, her eyes dreamy, contemplative.

”I don't know whether I'll be able to explain to you just how I feel about it. I'll probably make a mess of it. But I'll try. You see, dear, it's just this way: Two years ago--a year ago, even--I might have felt just that sensation of personal resentment and loss. But somehow, lately, I've been looking at life through--how shall I put it?--through seven-league gla.s.ses. I used to see life in its relation to me and mine. Now I see it in terms of my relation to it. Do you get me? I was the soloist, and the world my orchestral accompaniment.

Lately, I've been content just to step back with the other instruments and let my little share go to make up a more perfect whole. In those years, long before I met you, when Jock was all I had in the world, I worked and fought and saved that he might have the proper start, the proper training, and environment. And I did succeed in giving him those things. Well, as I looked at him there to-day I saw him, not as my son, my property that was going out of my control into the hands of another woman, but as a link in the great chain that I had helped to forge--a link as strong and sound and perfect as I could make it. I saw him, not as my boy, Jock McChesney, but as a unit. When I am gone I shall still live in him, and he in turn will live in his children.

There! I've muddled it--haven't I?--as I said I would. But I think”-- And she looked into her husband's glowing eyes.--”No; I'm sure you understand. And when I die, T. A.----”

”You, Emma!” And he held her close, and then held her off to look at her through quizzical, appreciative eyes. ”Why, girl, I can't imagine you doing anything so pa.s.sive.”

In the busy year that followed, anyone watching Emma McChesney Buck as she worked and played and constructed, and helped others to work and play and construct, would have agreed with T. A. Buck. She did not seem a woman who was looking at life objectively. As she went about her home in the evening, or the office, the workroom, or the showrooms during the day, adjusting this, arranging that, smoothing out snarls, solving problems of business or household, she was very much alive, very vital, very personal, very electric. In that year there came to her many letters from Jock and Grace--happy letters, all of them, some with an undertone of great seriousness, as is fitting when two people are readjusting their lives. Then, in spring, came the news of the baby. The telegram came to Emma as she sat in her office near the close of a busy day. As she read it and reread it, the slip of paper became a misty yellow with vague lines of blue dancing about on it; then it became a blur of nothing in particular, as Emma's tears fell on it in a little shower of joy and pride and wonder at the eternal miracle.

Then she dried her eyes, mopped the telegram and her lace jabot impartially, went across the hall and opened the door marked ”T. A.

BUCK.”

T. A. looked up from his desk, smiled, held out a hand.

”Girl or boy?”

”Girl, of course,” said Emma tremulously, ”and her name is Emma McChesney.”

T. A. stood up and put an arm about his wife's shoulders.

”Lean on me, grandma,” he said.

”Fiend!” retorted Emma, and reread the telegram happily. She folded it then, with a pensive sigh, ”I hope she'll look like Grace. But with Jock's eyes. They were wasted in a man. At any rate, she ought to be a raving, tearing beauty with that father and mother.”

”What about her grandmother, when it comes to looks! Yes, and think of the brain she'll have,” Buck reminded her excitedly. ”Great Scott!

With a grandmother who has made the T. A. Buck Featherloom Petticoat a household word, and a mother who was the cleverest woman advertising copy-writer in New York, this young lady ought to be a composite Hetty Green, Madame de Stael, Hypatia, and Emma McChesney Buck. She'll be a lady wizard of finance or a----”

”She'll be nothing of the kind,” Emma disputed calmly. ”That child will be a throwback. The third generation generally is. With a militant mother and a grandmother such as that child has, she'll just naturally be a clinging vine. She'll be a reversion to type. She'll be the kind who'll make eyes and wear pale blue and be crazy about new embroidery-st.i.tches. Just mark my words, T. A.”

Buck had a brilliant idea.

”Why don't you pack a bag and run over to Chicago for a few days and see this marvel of the age?”

But Emma shook her head.

”Not now, T. A. Later. Let the delicate machinery of that new household adjust itself and begin to run smoothly and sweetly again.

Anyone who might come in now--even Jock's mother--would be only an outsider.”

So she waited very patiently and considerately. There was much to occupy her mind that spring. Business was unexpectedly and gratifyingly good. Then, too, one of their pet dreams was being realized; they were to have their own house in the country, at Westchester. Together they had pored over the plans. It was to be a house of wide, s.p.a.cious verandas, of fireplaces, of bookshelves, of great, bright windows, and white enamel and cheerful chintz. By the end of May it was finished, furnished, and complete. At which a surprising thing happened; and yet, not so surprising. A demon of restlessness seized Emma McChesney Buck. It had been a busy, happy winter, filled with work. Now that it was finished, there came upon Emma and Buck that unconscious and quite natural irritation which follows a long winter spent together by two people, no matter how much in harmony. Emma pulled herself up now and then, horrified to find a rasping note of impatience in her voice. Buck found himself, once or twice, fairly caught in a little whirlpool of ill temper of his own making. These conditions they discovered almost simultaneously. And like the comrades they were, they talked it over and came to a sensible understanding.

”We're a bit ragged and saw-edged,” said Emma. ”We're getting on each other's nerves. What we need is a vacation from each other. This morning I found myself on the verge of snapping at you. At you!

Imagine, T. A.!”

Whereupon Buck came forward with his confession.

”It's a couple of late cases of spring fever. You've been tied to this office all winter. So've I. We need a change. You've had too much petticoats, too much husband, too much cutting room and sales-room and rush orders and business generally. Too much Featherloom and not enough foolishness.” He came over and put a gentle hand on his wife's shoulder, a thing strictly against the rules during business hours.