Part 9 (1/2)
said the general. ”All I can say is, I've had no regrets.”
”I should say not,” cried Mrs. Presbury.
With an affectation of modest hesitation--to show that he was a gentleman with a gentleman's fine appreciation of the due of maiden modesty--Siddall paused at the outer door of his own apartments. But at one sentence of urging from Mrs. Presbury he opened the door and ushered them in. And soon he was showing them everything--his Carrara marble bathroom and bathing-pool, his bed that had been used by several French kings, his dressing-room with its appliances of gold and platinum and precious stones, his clothing. They had to inspect a room full of suits, huge chiffoniers crowded with s.h.i.+rts and ties and underclothes. He exhibited silk dressing-robes and pajamas, pointed out the marks of the fas.h.i.+onable London and Paris makers, the monograms, the linings of ermine and sable. ”I'm very particular about everything that touches me,” explained he. ”It seems to me a gentleman can't be too particular.” With a meaning glance at Mildred, ”And I'd feel the same way about my wife.”
”You hear that, Mildred?” said Presbury, with a nasty little laugh. He had been relieving the tedium of this sight-seeing tour by observing--and from time to time aggravating--Mildred's sufferings.
The general released his mirth-strangling goat laugh; Mrs. Presbury echoed it with a gale of rather wild hysterics. So well pleased was the general with the excursion and so far did he feel advanced toward intimacy that on the way down the majestic marble stairway he ventured to give Mildred's arm a gentle, playful squeeze. And at the parting he kissed her hand. Presbury had changed his mind about returning to the country. On the way to the hotel he girded at Mildred, reviewing all that the little general had said and done, and sneering, jeering at it.
Mildred made not a single retort until they were upstairs in the hotel.
At the door to her room she said to Presbury--said it in a quiet, cold, terrible way:
”If you really want me to go through with this thing, you will stop insulting him and me. If you do it again, I'll give up--and go on the streets before I'll marry him.”
Presbury shrugged his shoulders and went on to the other room. But he did not begin again the next day, and from that time forth avoided reference to the general. In fact, there was an astonis.h.i.+ng change in his whole demeanor. He ceased to bait his wife, became polite, even affable. If he had conducted himself thus from the outset, he would have got far less credit, would have made far less progress toward winning the liking of his wife, and of her daughter, than he did in a brief two weeks of change from petty and malignant tyrant to good-natured, interestingly talkative old gentleman. After the manner of human nature, Mildred and her mother, in their relief, in their pleasure through this amazing sudden and wholly unexpected geniality, not merely forgave but forgot all they had suffered at his hands.
Mildred was not without a suspicion of the truth that this change, inaugurated in his own good time, was fresh evidence of his contempt for both of them--of his feeling that he could easily make reparation with a little kindness and decency and put himself in the way of getting any possible benefits from the rich alliance. But though she practically knew what was going on in his mind, she could not prevent herself from softening toward him.
Now followed a succession of dinners, of theater- and opera-goings, of week-ends at the general's new country palace in the fas.h.i.+onable region of Long Island. All these festivities were of the same formal and tedious character. At all the general was the central sun with the others dim and draggled satellites, hardly more important than the outer rim of satellite servants. He did most of the talking; he was the sole topic of conversation; for when he was not talking about himself he wished to be hearing about himself. If Mildred had not been seeing more and more plainly that other and real personality of his, her contempt for him and for herself would have grown beyond control.
But, with him or away from him, at every instant there was the sense of that other real William Siddall--a shadowy menace full of terror. She dreamed of it--was startled from sleep by visions of a monstrous and mighty distortion of the little general's grotesque exterior. ”I shall marry him if I can,” she said to her self. ”But--can I?” And she feared and hoped that she could not, that courage would fail her, or would come to her rescue, whichever it was, and that she would refuse him. Aside from the sense of her body that cannot but be with any woman who is beautiful, she had never theretofore been especially physical in thought. That side of life had remained vague, as she had never indulged in or even been strongly tempted with the things that rouse it from its virginal sleep. But now she thought only of her body, because that it was, and that alone, that had drawn this prospective purchaser, and his eyes never let her forget it. She fell into the habit of looking at herself in the gla.s.s--at her face, at her shoulders, at her whole person, not in vanity but in a kind of wonder or aversion. And in the visions, both the waking and the sleeping, she reached the climax of horror when the monster touched her--with clammy, creepy fingers, with munching lips, with the sharp ends of the mustache or imperial.
Said Mrs. Presbury to her husband, ”I'm afraid the general will be irritated by Mildred's unresponsiveness.”
”Don't worry,” replied Presbury. ”He's so crazy about himself that he imagines the whole world is in the same state.”
”Isn't it strange that he doesn't give her presents? Never anything but candy and flowers.”
”And he never will,” said Presbury.
”Not until they're married, I suppose.”
Presbury was silent.
”I can't help thinking that if Milly were to rouse herself and show some--some liking--or at least interest, it'd be wiser.”
”She's taking the best possible course,” said Presbury. ”Unconsciously to both of them, she's leading him on. He thinks that's the way a lady should act--restrained, refined.”
Mildred's att.i.tude was simple inertia. The most positive effort she made was avoiding saying or doing anything to displease him--no difficult matter, as she was silent and almost lifeless when he was near. Without any encouragement from her he gradually got a deep respect for her--which meant that he became convinced of her coldness and exclusiveness, of her absolute trustworthiness. Presbury was more profoundly right than he knew. The girl pursued the only course that made possible the success she longed for, yet dreaded and loathed. For at the outset Siddall had not been nearly so strongly in earnest in his matrimonial project as he had professed and had believed himself. He wished to marry, wished to add to his possessions the admirable show-piece and exhibition opportunity afforded by the right sort of wife; but in the bottom of his heart he felt that such a woman as he dreamed of did not exist in all the foolish, fickle, and shallow female s.e.x. This girl--so cold, so proud, beautiful yet not eager to display her charms or to have them praised--she was the rare bird he sought.
In a month he asked her to marry him; that is, he said: ”My dear, I find that I am ready to go the limit--if you are.” And she a.s.sented.
He put his arm around her and kissed her cheek--and was delighted to discover that the alluring embrace made no impression upon the ice of her ”purity and ladylike dignity.” Up to the very last moment of the formal courts.h.i.+p he held himself ready to withdraw should she reveal to his watchfulness the slightest sign of having any ”unladylike”
tendencies or feelings. She revealed no such sign, but remained ”ladylike”; and certainly, so the general reasoned, a woman who could thus resist him, even in the license of the formal engagement, would resist anybody.
As soon as the engagement was formally concluded, the general hurried on the preparations for the wedding. He opened accounts at half a dozen shops in New York--dressmakers, milliners, dealers in fine and fas.h.i.+onable clothing of every kind--and gave them orders to execute whatever commands Miss Gower or her mother--for HER--might give them.
When he told her of this munificence and magnificence and paused for the outburst of grat.i.tude, he listened in vain. Mildred colored to the roots of her hair and was silent, was seeking the courage to refuse.
”I know that you and your people can't afford to do the thing as things related to me must be done,” he went on to say. ”So I decided to just start in a little early at what I've got to do anyhow. Not that I blame you for your not having money, my dear. On the contrary, that's one of your merits with me. I wouldn't marry a woman with money. It puts the family life on a wrong basis.”
”I had planned a quiet wedding,” said Mildred. ”I'd much prefer it.”
”Now you can be frank with me, my dear,” said the general. ”I know you ladies--how cheated you feel if you aren't married with all the frills and fixings. So that's the way it shall be done.”