1092 Peace Of Mind (2/2)
This time, Ning Que was the one who couldn't answer.
”The Headmaster of Academy wanted to break into my world as he was motivated by his irresponsible desire for freedom. You were so persistently trying to break into my world, just because you wanted to return to that home? In fact, I have been wondering, when did you believe that breaking into my world would let you return to your hometown?” Sangsang asked.
Ning Que gripped her hand tighter and thought for a moment. ”In fact, I had figured it out a long time ago, because there are stars all over this place, and Teacher became the moon in the end,” he explained.
Sangsang raised her eyebrows slightly and asked, ”What can this explain? He became a moon because you told him about it that year, on the sea. He thought the moon was beautiful. That's all.”
”Also, it's snowing.” Ning Que pointed out of the window and said, ”There are also stars in the sky. These are all unnecessary things… If you lived in an isolated and self-contained world, you wouldn't have the need for four seasons. But you have all of them here.”
”Your world is very much like the one I came from.”
He turned his gaze from the window to her. ”There's only one way to explain it. This world is still the same one I used to know, and it can be interlinked with, or can at least be observed from yours. Imitation can only be done through observation, that's why both of them are similar.”
Sangsang still looked unimpressed. ”It can be observed, so I know what your world is like.”
”It's a boundless, unrestrained world,” said Ning Que.
”It is a cold, dead world,” Sangsang rebutted.
The warm sun spreads life, and boundless space is waiting to be explored, so this is a vast and free world. However, most of the space is filled with extreme cold and death and silence, so it is also a cold and dead world. There is nothing wrong with their statements, because they looked at the world from different perspectives.
Ning Que was silent for a long time. ”The fate of human beings is ultimately determined by human beings. You need not continue shouldering this responsibility. It's too tiring.”
”I told you once, I love the people, the ones that reciprocate my love. The ancestors of these people had chosen me, thus I will continue to shoulder this responsibility.”
”There is no point in this discussion.” Ning Que broke off the conversation abruptly and settled his hands gently on her shoulders. ”You are my wife, and you are also pregnant with our child. Please, you have to come home with me.”
After watching him wordlessly for a while, she said, ”You wish so fervently for me to die?”
”The day you boarded that colossal vessel and sailed to the Divine Kingdom on the other shore, I wanted to do something, but I failed. You should know my attitude.”
”Nonetheless, I had warned you that I am a collection of laws in this world. If you want to destroy this world, I cannot continue to exist.” Sangsang refused to make eye contact as she said this.
”Back then, I was really worried, but now I'm not. There is still a Haotian in the Divine Kingdom, and now that you have become a human, you will be fine.”
Sangsang looked at his face, her expression as blank as ever. ”How would you prove it?”
Ning Que glanced at her bulging belly. ”Isn't this proof?”
Sangsang got up and walked over to the window. She looked out into the distance, words rolling off her tongue. ”The New Stream has been spreading their faith worldwide for so long, while Taoism is gradually fading away. I am becoming weaker and weaker. What does this mean?”Find authorized novels in Webnovel，faster updates, better experience，Please clickfor visiting.
This meant that she was still Haotian.
”Or maybe it's because of... the pregnancy?”
Ning Que followed and stood behind her. ”Pregnant women are usually weaker, as they have two lives to sustain. Do you still remember the fat aunty in the City of Wei? When she was pregnant, she couldn't even muster the strength to shout at people.”
”But you still can't prove it.” Sangsang turned to face him. ”Therefore, I might still die.”
There was no emotion on her face as she said this. It was calm, even indifferent, yet Ning Que could perceive the paralyzing fear and grief in the depth of her eyes.
His heart ached for her.
”I am really... afraid of death,” Sangsang said with a blank expression. ”From the moment I woke up in the Divine Kingdom, I was afraid I was going to die. I don't want to die.” She said it calmly, but her face was wet with tears.
Sangsang rarely shed tears. Haotian never shed tears.
Ning Que forgot how long it was since the last time he saw her cry, be it years, or decades, or even millennia.
He again enveloped her in his arms and whispered, ”Don't be afraid. It's ok, I won't let you die.”
As before, Sangsang let him hold her, her own arms limp by her side.
But this time, she leaned her head on his shoulder.
”Everyone wants to kill me… not only them, even you want to kill me too. Now, I am vulnerable and mortal, so I am afraid, I'm afraid that even you are going to kill me.”
Her face was calm, but she was still in tears, an inexplicable sadness constricting her throat. It was hard to talk.
”I won't.” Ning Que held her tightly and said, ”If you are really afraid, then we won't do it. We will return to another home, not the City of Wei, but Chang'an. The courtyard of the Old Brush Pen Shop is still there.”
”What about your home?”
Ning Que shook his head. ”I have forgotten about it long ago.”
Home was where the heart was, where the mind was calm. Where there was peace of mind, there was home. Sangsang was his home.
It was like that time, when she wanted to go to the other shore, but she couldn't return to the Divine Kingdom. Because the other shore, to her, was where he stood.