562 Sangsangs Saying (2/2)

Sangsang suddenly recalled one thing and she whispered, ”There is a small black box under the bed of Old Brush Shop. Don't forget it.”

Ning Que did not know she had a small black box until last year.

There were many things thrown away by him for some reason, but they were all valuable to him, such as the calligraphy he wrote after the death of Darkie.

He nodded and said, ”I knew.”

Sangsang shook her head and said, ”You don't know. You threw away all those letters sent by Miss Calligraphy Addict after reading them. But I collected them and now there is more than ten of them.”

Ning Que was silent for a while and said, ”It is enough to read letters once. Who will want to take them out and read them in the future?”

Sangsang suddenly smiled and said, ”I was thinking that I would take out the box when we got old and lay on the bamboo chairs of Old Brush Pen Shop and waited to die. By that time, in my opinion, if you read them again, you may be happy. Unfortunately, it seems that I may not be able to grow old with you.”

”I don't know from whom you learn all these sentimental things.”

Ning Que put his hands into the bedding and held her little cold hands, and said, ”That is the scene in the imagination of stupid women. You are still young and shouldn't be so sentimental like them. They're so old, they're sour and smell bad.”

”I haven't had a bath for a few days. Am I sour and stinky?.”

Sangsang said, ”Young Master, I am really going to die. Then I won't be able to tell you this when I'm old. I am anxious to tell you all this time so please don't think I'm annoying.”

Ning Que laughed and said, ”I'm not bothered. I just wonder are you done with your last words?”

Sangsang said happily, ”Almost.”

Ning Que said, ”You are still energetic to play chess and speak nonsense. You don't look like you are going to die. Besides, we are meeting Master Qishan today. The Headmaster says he can cure you so he must be able to. There is no need for you to leave your last words at all.”

Sangsang's eyes widened and she insisted, ”What if I don't have time to say them?”

Ning Que said, ”Okay, okay, okay. If you want to say it, you will say it. Say it every year in the future.”

Sangsang was amused by him and then she began to cough. Her thin body trembled slightly and her brows were tightly knitted. Her face was pale and she looked as if she was in terrible pain.

Ning Que used his left index finger to shoot a piece of Fu paper into the Zen room and it silently began to burn and then turned into a warm fire, floating in the air, like a small sun.

Then he hugged Sangsang into his arms and gently patted her back.

Sangsang coughed painfully and it took a while to ease it.

She closed her eyes and said in a weak voice, ”I'm not a good person. I am not good looking, and can't do anything except housework, yet I married you. Many people think that you have suffered a loss.”

Ning Que said, ”It sounds like I do suffer some losses.”

Sangsang smiled and said, ”It doesn't matter now. It's you who picked me up at that time.”

Ning Que smiled as well and he said, ”It's all my good ears' fault.”

Sangsang slowly opened her eyes, looked at him and said, ”Ning Que, you are the first person I saw when I opened my eyes. So I must watch you die when I close my eyes.”

Ning Que tried to confirm what he had heard. He said, ”Are you saying that you want to look at me when you are dying or you want to watch me die? The former is kind of sad. The latter one is cruel. Do you just want me to die before you?”

Sangsang laughed and said, ”You know what I mean. You can marry her after I'm dead. Or marry anyone else if you want.”

Ning Que shook his head and said, ”If you die, I really don't want to live anymore.”

Sangsang said, ”You just said I was too sentimental earlier. Look at yourself now. That's something only women can say.”

Ning Que said, ”Then I am a woman.”

Sangsang said with a smile, ”Then I shall be a man.”

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Sangsang fell asleep.

Ning Que walked out of the Zen room and stood in the courtyard against the autumn tree outside the wall, lost in a daze for a long time.

He recalled many things in his mind, in the past and present. Then he thought of the chess game.

He had known since many years ago that Sangsang had an incredible counting ability. It could be regarded as God's counting and it was not an exaggeration. Sangsang helped him a lot with this ability when he was hunting in Min Mountain and cutting firewood in the City of Wei. But he seemed to forget her talent unless when they were in battles of life and death.

He had gotten used to standing in front of Sangsang, protecting her from any danger. This time, would he be able to her shelter from the storm again?

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