Part 42 (1/2)

”You said I'd win,” I said, and held out my arms.

She hugged me closely for a moment.

”My dear,” I whispered, ”it's nothing--without you--nothing!”

We didn't speak for some seconds. Then she slipped from my hold. ”Look!”

she said, smiling like winter suns.h.i.+ne. ”I've had in all the morning papers--the pile of them, and you--resounding.”

”It's more than I dared hope.”

”Or I.”

She stood for a moment still smiling bravely, and then she was sobbing in my arms. ”The bigger you are--the more you show,” she said--”the more we are parted. I know, I know--”

I held her close to me, making no answer.

Presently she became still. ”Oh, well,” she said, and wiped her eyes and sat down on the little sofa by the fire; and I sat down beside her.

”I didn't know all there was in love,” she said, staring at the coals, ”when we went love-making.”

I put my arm behind her and took a handful of her dear soft hair in my hand and kissed it.

”You've done a great thing this time,” she said. ”Handitch will make you.”

”It opens big chances,” I said. ”But why are you weeping, dear one?”

”Envy,” she said, ”and love.”

”You're not lonely?”

”I've plenty to do--and lots of people.”

”Well?”

”I want you.”

”You've got me.”

She put her arm about me and kissed me. ”I want you,” she said, ”just as if I had nothing of you. You don't understand--how a woman wants a man.

I thought once if I just gave myself to you it would be enough. It was nothing--it was just a step across the threshold. My dear, every moment you are away I ache for you--ache! I want to be about when it isn't love-making or talk. I want to be doing things for you, and watching you when you're not thinking of me. All those safe, careless, intimate things. And something else--” She stopped. ”Dear, I don't want to bother you. I just want you to know I love you....”

She caught my head in her hands and kissed it, then stood up abruptly.

I looked up at her, a little perplexed.

”Dear heart,” said I, ”isn't this enough? You're my councillor, my colleague, my right hand, the secret soul of my life--”

”And I want to darn your socks,” she said, smiling back at me.

”You're insatiable.”

She smiled ”No,” she said. ”I'm not insatiable, Master. But I'm a woman in love. And I'm finding out what I want, and what is necessary to me--and what I can't have. That's all.”