Part 5 (1/2)
”You don't want to come back, even if you could. You're not thinking of us at all. You're thinking of your brother.”
”You know that isn't true. Sometimes I wonder about Jase, sure. But if I thought there was a chance to return--I'm a selfish cuss, Steffy. If I thought there was a chance, you know I'd want you all for myself.
I'd brand you, and that's the truth.”
”You do love me!”
”I loved you, Steffy. Kit Temple loved you.”
”Loved?”
”Loved. Past tense. When I leave tonight, it's as if I don't exist anymore. As if I never existed. It's got to be that way, Steffy. In thirty years, no one ever returned.”
”Including your brother, Jase. So now you want to find him. What do I count for? What....”
”This going wasn't my idea. I wanted to stay with you. I wanted to marry you. I can't now. None of it. Forget me, Steffy. Forget you ever knew me. Jase said that to our folks before he was taken.” Almost five years before Jason Temple had been selected for the Nowhere Journey.
He'd been young, though older than his brother Kit. Young, unattached, almost cheerful he was. Naturally, they never saw him again.
”Hold me, Kit. I'm sorry ... carrying on like this.”
They had walked some distance from the ground-jet, through scrub oak and bramble bushes. They found a clearing, fragrant-scented, soft-floored still from last autumn, melodic with the chirping of nameless birds. They sat, not talking. Stephanie wore a gay summer dress, full-skirted, cut deep beneath the throat. She swayed toward him from the waist, nestled her head on his shoulder. He could smell the soft, sweet fragrance of her hair, of the skin at the nape of her neck. ”If you want to say goodbye....” she said.
”Stop it,” he told her.
”If you want to say goodbye....”
Her head rolled against his chest. She turned, cradled herself in his arms, smiled up at him, squirmed some more and had her head pillowed on his lap. She smiled tremulously, misty-eyed. Her lips parted.
He bent and kissed her, knowing it was all wrong. This was not goodbye, not the way he wanted it. Quickly, definitely, for once and all. With a tear, perhaps, a lot of tears. But permanent goodbye. This was all wrong. The whole idea was to be business-like, objective. It had to be done that way, or no way at all. Briefly, he regretted leaving the encampment.
This wasn't goodbye the way he wanted it. The way it had to be. This was _auf weidersen_.
And then he forgot everything but Stephanie....
”I am Alaric Arkalion III,” said the extremely young-looking man with the old, wise eyes.
How incongruous, Temple thought. The eyes look almost middle-aged. The rest of him--a boy.
”Something tells me we'll be seeing a lot of each other,” Arkalion went on. The voice was that of an older man, too, belying the youthful complexion, the almost childish features, the soft fuzz of a beard.
”I'm Kit Temple,” said Temple, extending his hand. ”Arkalion, a strange name. I know it from somewhere.... Say! Aren't you--don't you have something to do with carpets or something?”
”Here and now, no. I am a number. A-92-6417. But my father is--perhaps I had better say was--my father is Alaric Arkalion II. Yes, that is right, the carpet king.”
”I'll be darned,” said Temple.
”Why?”