Part 14 (1/2)

In his great, lonely bedroom, full of tall mahogany furniture, Owen lay down; and he asked himself how it was that he had left America without seeing her. His journey to America was one of the uncanniest things that had ever happened in his life. Something seemed to have kept him from her, and it was impossible for him to determine what that thing was, whether some sudden weakening of the will in himself or some spiritual agency. But to believe in the transference of human thought, and that the nuns could influence his action at three thousand miles distance, seemed as if he were dropping into some base superst.i.tion. Between sleeping and waking a thought emerged which kept him awake till morning: ”Why had Evelyn returned to the stage?” When he saw her last at Thornton Grange her retirement seemed to be definitely fixed. Nothing he could say had been able to move her. She was going to retire from the stage.... But she had not done so. Now, who had persuaded her? Was it Ulick Dean? Were these two in America together? The thought of Evelyn in New York with Ulick Dean, going to the theatre with her, Ulick sitting in the stalls, listening, just as he, Owen, had listened to her, became unendurable; he must have news of her; only from her father could he get reliable news. So he went to Dulwich, uncertain if he should send in his card begging for an interview, or if he should just push past the servant into the music-room, always supposing Innes were at home.

”Mr. Innes is at home,” the servant-girl answered.

”Is he in the music-room?”

”Yes, sir. What name?”

”No name is necessary. I will announce myself,” and he pushed past the girl.... ”Excuse me, Mr. Innes, for coming into your house so abruptly, but I was afraid you mightn't see me if I sent in my name, and it would be impossible for me to go back to London without seeing you. You don't know me.”

”I do. You are Sir Owen Asher.”

”Yes, and have come because I can't live any longer without having some news of Evelyn. You know my story--how she sent me away. There is nothing to tell you; she has been here, I know, and has told you everything. But perhaps you don't know I have just come from the desert, having gone there hoping to forget her, and have come out of the desert uncured. You will tell me where she is, won't you?”

Innes did not answer for some while.

”My daughter went to America.”

”Yes, I know that. I have just come from there, but I could not see her. The last time we met was at Thornton Grange, and she told me she had decided definitely to leave the stage. Now, why should she have gone back to the stage? That is what I have come to ask you.”

This tall, thin, elderly man, impulsive as a child, wearing his heart on his sleeve, crying before him like a little child, moved Innes's contempt as much as it did his pity. ”All the same he is suffering, and it is clear that he loves her very deeply.” So perforce he had to answer that Evelyn had gone to America against the advice of her confessor because the Wimbledon nuns wanted money.

”Gone to sing for those nuns!” Owen shrieked. And for three minutes he blasphemed in the silence of the old music-room, Innes watching him, amazed that any man should so completely forget himself. How could she have loved him?

”She is returning next week; that is all I know of her movements...

Sir Owen Asher.”

”Returning next week! But what does it matter to me whether she returns or not? She won't see me. Do you think she will, Mr. Innes?”

”I cannot discuss these matters with you, Sir Owen,” and Innes took up his pen as if anxious for Sir Owen to leave the room so that he might go on copying. Owen noticed this, but it was impossible for him to leave the room. For the last twelve years he had been thinking about Innes, and wanted to tell him how Evelyn had been loved, and he wanted to air his hatred of religious orders and religion in general.

”I am afraid I am disturbing you, but I can't help; it,” and he dropped into a chair. ”You have no idea, Mr. Innes, how I loved your daughter.”

”She always speaks of you very well, never laying any blame upon you--I will say that.”

”She is a truthful woman. That is the one thing that can be said.”

Innes nodded a sort of acquiescence to this appreciation of his daughter's character; and Owen could not resist the temptation to try to take Evelyn's father into his confidence, he had been so long anxious for this talk.

”We have all been in love, you see; your love story is a little farther back than mine. We all know the bitterness of it--don't we?”

Innes admitted that to know the bitterness of love and its sweetness is the common lot of all men. The conversation dropped again, and Owen felt there was to be no unbosoming of himself that afternoon.

”The room has not changed. Twelve years ago I saw those old instruments for the first time. Not one, I think, has disappeared.

It was here that I first heard Ferrabosco's pavane.”

Innes remembered the pavane quite well, but refused to allow the conversation to digress into a description of Evelyn's playing of the _viola da gamba_. But if they were not to talk about Evelyn there was no use tarrying any longer in Dulwich; he had learned all the old man knew about his daughter. He got up.... At that moment the door opened and the servant announced Mr. Ulick Dean.

”How do you do, Mr. Innes?” Ulick said, glancing at Owen; and a suspicion crossed his mind that the tall man with small, inquisitive eyes who stood watching him must be Owen Asher, hoping that it was not so, and, at the same time, curious to make his predecessor's acquaintance; he admitted his curiosity as soon as Innes introduced him.