Part 16 (1/2)
”I heard that you ran away with Steve's father.”
”Yes, I did.”
”That your father and mother opposed your marriage very much.”
”Yes, that also is true.”
”That he was a handsome lad, called Matt Pattison, your father's head shepherd.”
”Was that all?”
”That it killed your mother.”
”No, that is untrue. Mother died from an inflammation brought on by taking cold. I was no-ways to blame for her death. I was to blame for running away from my home and duty, and I took in full all the sorrowful wage I earned. Steve's father did not live to see his son; and when I heard of mother's death, I determined to go back to father, and stay with him always if he would let me. I got to Sandal village in the evening, and stayed with Nancy Bell all night. In the morning I went up the fell; it was a wet, cold morning, with gusts of wind driving the showers like a solid sheet eastward. We had a hard fight up the breast of the mountain; and the house looked bleak and desolate, for the men were all in the barn thres.h.i.+ng, and the women in the kitchen at the b.u.t.ter-troughs. I stood in the porch to catch my breath, and take my plaid from around the child; and I heard father in a loud, solemn voice saying the Collect,--father always spoke in that way when he was saying the Confession or the Collect,--and I knew very well that he would be standing at that east window, with his prayer-book open on the sill. So I waited until I heard the 'Amen,' and then I lifted the latch and went in. He turned around and faced me; and his eyes fell at once upon little Steve, who was a bonny lad then, more than three years old. 'I have come back to you, father,' I said, 'I and my little Steve.'--'Where is thy husband?' he asked. I said, 'He is in the grave. I did wrong, and I am sorry, father.”
”'Then I forgive thee.' That was all he said. His eyes were fixed upon Steve, for he never had a son of his own; and he held out his hands, and Steve went straight to him; and he lifted the boy, and kissed him again and again, and from that moment he loved him with all his soul. He never cast up to me the wrong I had done; and by and by I told him all that had happened to me, and we never more had a secret between us, but worked together for one end; and what that end was, some day you may find out. I wish you would write a word or two to Steve. A word would bring him home, dear.”
”But I cannot write it, Ducie. I promised father there should be no love-making between us, and I would not break a word that father trusts in. Besides, Stephen is too proud and too honorable to have any underhand courting. When he can walk in and out Seat-Sandal in days.h.i.+ne and in dark, and as every one's equal, he will come to see me. Until then we can trust each other and wait.”
”What does the squire think of Steve's plans? Maybe, now, they are not very pleasant to him. I remember at the sheep-shearing he did not say very much.”
”He did not say very much because he never thought that Steve was in earnest. Father does not like changes, and you know how land-owners regard traders. And I'm sure you wouldn't even one of our shepherd-lads with a man that minds a loom. The brave fellows, travelling the mountain-tops in the fiercest storms to fold the sheep, or seek some stray or weakly lamb, are very different from the lank, white-faced mannikins all finger-ends for a bit of machinery; aren't they, Ducie?
And I would far rather see Steve counting his flocks on the fells than his spinning-jennys in a mill. Father was troubled about the railway coming to Ambleside, and I do think a factory in Sandal-Side would make him heart-sick.”
”Then Steve shall never build one while Sandal lives. Do you think I would have the squire made heart-sick if I could make him heart-whole?
Not for all the woollen yarn in England. Tell him Ducie said so. The squire and I are old, old friends. Why, we pulled primroses together in the very meadow Steve thought of building in! I'm not the woman to put a mill before a friend, oh, no! And in the long end I think you are right, Charlotte. A man had better work among sheep than among human beings.
They are a deal more peaceable and easy to get on with. It is not so very hard for a shepherd to be a good man.”
”You speak as I like to hear you, Ducie; but I must be going, for a deal falls to my oversight now.” And she rose quickly from the tea-table, and as she tied on her bonnet, began to sing,--
”'G.o.d bless the sheep upon the fells!
Oh, do you hear the tinkling bells Of sheep that wander on the fells?
The tinkling bells the silence fills, Sings cheerily the soul that wills; G.o.d bless the shepherd on the hills!
G.o.d bless the sheep! Their tinkling bells Make music over all the fells; By _force_ and _gill_ and _tarn_ it swells, And this is what their music tells: G.o.d bless the sheep upon the fells.'”
The melody was wild and simple, a little plaintive also; and Charlotte sang it with a low, sweet monotony that recalled, one knew not how or why, the cool fragrance of the hillside, and the scent of wild flowers by running water.
Then she went slowly home, Ducie walking to the pine-wood with her.
There was a vague unrest and fear at her heart, she knew not why; for who can tell whence spring their thoughts, or what mover first starts them from their secret lodging-place? A sadness she could not fight down took possession of her; and it annoyed her the more, because she found every one pleasantly excited over a box of presents that had just arrived from India for Sophia. She knew that her depression would be interpreted by some as envy and jealousy, and she resented the false position it put her in; and yet she found it impossible to affect the enthusiasm which was expected from her over the Cashmere shawl and scarfs, the Indian fans and jewelry, the carved ivory trinkets, the boxes full of Eastern scents,--sandalwood and calamus, nard and attar of roses, and pungent gums that made the old ”Seat” feel like a little bit of Asia.
In a few days Julius followed; he came to see the presents, and to read, with personal ill.u.s.trations and comments, the letters that had accompanied them. Sophia's ideas of her own importance grew constantly more p.r.o.nounced; indeed, there was a certain amount of ”claim” in them, which no one liked very well to submit to. And yet it was difficult to resist demands enforced by such remarks as, ”It is the last time I shall ask for such a thing;” ”One expects their own people to take a little interest in their marriage;” ”I am sure Julius and _his_ family have done all _they_ can;” ”They seem to understand what a girl must feel and like at such an eventful time of her life,” and so on, and so on, in variations suited to the circ.u.mstances or the occasion.
Every one was worn out before July, and every one felt it to be a relief when the wedding-day came. It was ushered in with the chiming of bells, and the singing of bride-songs by the village children. The village itself was turned upside down, and the house inside out. As for the gloomy old church, it looked like a festal place, with flowers and gay clothing and smiling faces. It was the express wish of Sophia that none of the company should wear white. ”That distinction,” she said, ”ought to be reserved for the bride;” and among the maids in pink and blue and primrose, she stood a very lily of womanhood. Her diaphanous, floating robe of Dacca muslin; her Indian veil of silver tissue, filmy as light; her gleaming pearls and feathery fan, made her
”A sight to dream of, not to tell.”
The service was followed by the conventional wedding-breakfast; the congratulations of friends, and the rattling away of the bridal-carriage to the ”hurrahing” of the servants and the villagers; and the _tin-tin-tabula_ of the wedding-peals. Before four o'clock the last guest had departed, and the squire stood with his wife and Charlotte weary and disconsolate amid the remains of the feast and the dying flowers; all of them distinctly sensitive to that mournful air which accomplished pleasures leave behind them.