Part 43 (1/2)
”We shall never fly so high again, Sir Magnus,” Axel said as he reverently surveyed Pym's offering in the silence of their six-hundred-dollar-a-night suite. ”I think we may retire also.”
Shall I give you Disneyland and another projection room, with a circular screen that showed us the American dream? Can I convince you that Pym and Axel wept sincere tears as they watched the refugees from European persecution set foot on American soil while the commentator spoke of a Nation of Nations and the Land of the Free? We believed it, Tom. And Pym believes it still. Pym never felt more free in his life until the night Rick died. Everything he still contrived to love in himself was here to love in the people round him. A willingness to open themselves to strangers. A guile that was only there to protect their innocence. A fantasy that fired but never owned them. A capacity to be swayed by everything, while still remaining sovereign. And Axel loved them too, but he was not so confident that his affection was reciprocated.
”Wexler is setting up an investigation team, Sir Magnus,” he warned one night in Boston as they dined in the Colonial dignity of the Ritz Hotel. ”Some bad defector has been telling stories. It's time we got out.”
Pym said nothing at all. They walked through the park and watched the swan boats on the pond. They sat in a tense, bare Irish pub that seethed with crimes the English had forgotten. But Pym still refused to speak. A few days later, however, visiting an English don at Yale who occasionally supplied the Firm with tidbits, he found himself in front of the effigy of the American hero Nathan Hale, who was hanged by the British as a spy. His hands were bound behind his back. Below him were inscribed his last words: ”I only regret that I have but one life to lose for my country.” For several weeks after this, Pym went to ground.
Pym was talking. Pym was on the move. Pym was somewhere in the room, arms locked at his sides, palms splayed like someone wis.h.i.+ng to fly or swim. He was sinking into his knees, rolling his shoulders against the wall. He was clutching the green cabinet and shaking it and the cabinet was hobbling in his grasp like an old grandfather clock about to flatten him with its embrace, and the burnbox was bobbing and swaying on top of it saying, ”Take me.” He was swearing, all in his head. He was talking, all in his head. He wanted calm from his surroundings but they wouldn't give it him. He was at his desk again and the sweat was patting on the paper round him. He was writing. He was calm, but the d.a.m.ned room still wouldn't settle, it was interfering with his prose.
Boston again.
Pym has been visiting the golden semicircle that lies along Route 128. Welcome to America's Technological Highway. It is a place like a crematorium without a smokestack. Discreet, low-lying factories and laboratories crouch amid shrubberies and landscaped mounds. He has picked the brains of a British delegation and taken a few forbidden photographs with a concealed camera in his briefcase. He has lunched privately at the home of a great American patriarch of industry named Bob, whom he has befriended for his indiscretion. They have sat on the verandah, they have gazed across a garden of descending lawns which a black man is sedately mowing with a triple cutter. After lunch Pym drives to Needham, where Axel is waiting for him beside a bend in the Charles River, which serves them as their local Aare. A heron skims over the blue-green rushes. Red-tailed hawks eye them from dead trees. Their path climbs deep into the woods, along a raised esker.
”So what's the matter?” says Axel finally.
”Why should anything be the matter?”
”You are tense and you are not speaking. It is reasonable to a.s.sume something is the matter.”
”I'm always tense for a debriefing.”
”Not tense like this.”
”He wouldn't talk to me.”
”Bob wouldn't?”
”I asked him how the Nimitz refitting contract was going. He replied that his corporation was making great strides in Saudi Arabia. I asked him about his discussions with the Admiral of the Pacific Fleet. He asked me when I was going to bring Mary up to Maine for the weekend. His face has changed.”
”How?”
”He's angry. Somebody's warned him about me. I think he's more angry with them than he is with me.”
”What else?” says Axel patiently, knowing that with Pym there is always one more door.
”I was followed to his house. A green Ford, smoked windows. There's nowhere to hang around and American watchers don't walk, so they left again.”
”What else?”
”Stop asking what else!”
”What else?”
Suddenly a great gulf of caution and mistrust separated them.
”Axel,” said Pym finally.
It was unusual for Pym to address him by name; the proprieties of espionage normally restrained him.
”Yes, Sir Magnus.”
”When we were in Bern together. When we were students. You weren't, were you?”
”Not a student?”
”You weren't spying on anyone. On the Ollingers. On the Cosmo. On me. You hadn't got people running you in those days. You were just you.”
”I was not spying. n.o.body was running me. n.o.body owned me.”
”Is that true?”
But Pym knew already that it was. He knew it by the rare glow of anger that shone in Axel's eyes. By the solemnity and distaste in his voice.
”It was your idea that I was a spy, Sir Magnus. It was never mine.”
Pym watched him light a fresh cigar and noticed how the flame of the match trembled.
”It was Jack Brotherhood's idea,” Pym corrected him.
Axel drew on the cigar and his shoulders slowly relaxed. ”It doesn't matter,” he said. ”It is simply unimportant at our age.”
”Bo's authorised a hostile interrogation,” said Pym. ”I'm flying back to London on Sunday to face the music.”
Who should talk to Axel of interrogation? And of a hostile one at that? Who should dare compare the nocturnal posturings of a couple of the Firm's tame barristers in a safe house in Suss.e.x with the beatings and electric shocks and deprivations that for two decades had been Axel's irregular fare? I blush now to think I used the word to him at all. In '52, as I learned later, Axel had denounced Slansky and demanded the death sentence for him--not very loud because he was half dead himself.
”But that's terrible!” Pym had cried. ”How can you serve a country that does that to you?”
”It was not terrible at all, thank you. I should have done it earlier. I secured my survival and Slansky would have died whether I denounced him or not. Give me another vodka.”
In '56 he went down again: ”That time it was less problematic,” he explained, lighting himself a fresh cigar. ”I denounced t.i.to and n.o.body even bothered to go and kill him.”
In the early sixties, while Pym was in Berlin, Axel had rotted for three months in a mediaeval dungeon outside Prague. What he promised that time has always been unclear to me. It was the year when the Stalinists themselves were purged, if only halfheartedly, and Slansky was declared alive again, if only posthumously. (Though he was still ruled to be guilty of his offences, you will remember, if only innocently.) In any case, Axel came back looking ten years older, and for some months had a soft ”r” in his speech that was very like a stammer.
Beside experience like this, the inquisition of Pym was watery stuff indeed. Jack Brotherhood was there to defend him. Personnel fussed over him like an old hen, a.s.suring him it was just a matter of answering a few questions. Some chinless flunkey from Treasury kept warning my persecutors they were in danger of exceeding their brief, and my two gaolers insisted on talking to me about their children. After five days and nights of it, Pym felt as spry as if he had been taking a country holiday, and his interrogators were out on their feet.
”Good trip, darling?” Mary asked, back in Georgetown, after a morning in bed in which Pym had temporarily slaked the tension.
”Great,” said Pym. ”And Jack sends love.”
But on his walk to the Emba.s.sy he saw a new white arrow chalked on the brickwork of the Fayre-deal wine shop, which was Axel's warning to attempt no contact until further notice.
And here, Tom, it is time for me to tell you what Rick was doing, for your grandfather had one last trick to play before the end. It was his best, as you would suppose. Rick shrank. He abandoned monstrosity as a way of life, and came weeping and cringing to me like a whipped animal. And the smaller and more encompa.s.sable he became, the less secure Pym felt. It was as if the Firm and Rick were closing in on him from either side, each with his regretful, hangdog ba.n.a.lity, and Pym, like an acrobat on the high wire between them, suddenly had nothing to support him. Pym implored him in his mind. He screamed at him: Stay bad, stay monstrous, keep your distance, don't give up! But on Rick came, shuffling and smirking like a pauper, knowing his power was greatest now that he was weak. ”I did it all for you, son. It's thanks to me you've taken your place among the Highest in the Land. Got a few coppers for your old man, have you? How about a nice mixed grill, or are you ashamed to take your old pal out?”
He struck first one Christmas Day, not six weeks after Pym had received a formal apology from Head Office. Georgetown had two feet of snow and we had asked the Lederers to lunch. Mary was putting the food on the table as the phone rang. Will Amba.s.sador Pym accept a collect call from New Jersey? He will.
”Hullo, old son. How's the world using you?”
”I'll take this upstairs,” says Pym grimly to Mary, and everybody looks understanding, knowing that the secret world never sleeps.