Chapter 28 (2/2)

“But I still have to leave, my king.”

“The moment when I died in Li Tian Jin’s hand, I was sad not because of my diminis.h.i.+ng life. I thought of something - I could no longer hold the light for you, would you be sad?”

“Because there isn’t any light in the dark; I’m worried that you will be liked a kid, being lost in the dark.”

“My king, if there’s next life, I still want to hold the light to wait for you to be home.”

“My king, I have to leave now but can I request you to continue to stay strong because there’s someone waiting to reunite with you. You possess their memories in you.”

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Nightmare.Jian Tong.Invisible Mist

“I’ve finally become a pure blood woman, becoming a mermaid with strong spiritual power.”

“But I’ve lost Ka Suo’s love.”

“During my last life, I didn’t manage to live together with Ka s...o...b..cause I was the lowly half blood sorceress. I didn’t have the strong powers of a mermaid from the deep sea palace so I was unable to produce powerful descendants for him and it was also why I was being buried at the deepest part of the Ice Sea. That cold place that no fish would even appear. I could still remember how bone piercing the coldness was to my skin; my life was flowing away bit by bit and I could feel the fear of my soul leaving my body.”

“I looked at the sky above the water when the weak sunlight sipped through the water, I tried calling out for king but I knew he wouldn’t be able to hear me nor would he know where was I. I thought of Ka Suo’s face when sorrow was always hanging on it and he would continue to live on, following his destiny.”

“And then my life disappeared into the Ice Sea. Just when my life was about to disappear, a large group of deep sea fishes came surrounding me and I could see their glowing scales.”

“My name’s Jian Tong. This is the name of my reincarnated self. When I got discovered by the elders from the deep sea palace, I was being wrapped within thick seaweeds. The moment they started opening the seaweeds, they found me sleeping within it.”

“They didn’t know why and neither did I know why until many years later. The place where they found me was the place that I got buried within.”

“I’ve finally understood the cruelty of the unpredictable life.”

“When I was still a little kid that time, my mind was always on Ka Suo. I’ve always heard a voice telling that I have to become Ka Suo’s wife. I want to marry the greatest king of Ren Xue Cheng.

This voice just kept appearing in my dream and life like an irresistible summon.

But when I reached adulthood that time, I’ve finally realized the meaning of this summon because it wanted me to get closer to Ka Suo. To get closer to the man that possessed my several hundreds years of memories on him and also to get closer to the warmth that I yearned the most in my past life.

I’ve finally gotten closer to him, standing in front of him, tearing. But he called me Lan Sang instead.

I cried.

I guessed he must have forgotten about the Li Luo that stood at the end of the street, kneeling before him. ”My king, I’m here to bring you home.”

After that I became his concubine. My spiritual power was definitely much stronger than my past life and I could easily read the dreams that the officials had brought back. I could interpret the dreams and tell them what to do next and I could lighten Ka Suo’s burden as well.

Actually I felt tired but everytime when I saw Ka Suo’s beautiful smile in my dreams, I felt happy because he was a sorrowful guy. A guy that would worry for the entire world but not him. The palace maids told me that he would always sleep on his desk in the grand hall.

I always wanted to do something for him because I didn’t manage to accompany him in the past life. I needed to make up to him.

Everytime he would smile at me and told me gently. “Jian Tong, don’t overwork yourself.”

I would just smile back at him and I could see my silvery white hair in his eyes. Swinging in his eyes like ripples on the water, it was like the snowing day when I first met him in the past life.

Several years after I married Ka Suo, he married another woman and she became his first wife. She possessed the same look of my past life and I heard Ka Suo calling her, “Li Luo.”

I stood among the crowd, feeling extremely sad. Big drops of tear came falling down onto the red carpet that they walked past hand in hand.

The bells chimed and I heard people giving their blessings to the couple and cheers were roaring above my head. I was like lying underneath a stream, leading the flowing water above my head so quietly.

From then onwards, I have been staying in the grand hall alone, helping Ka Suo to settle those long and miscellaneous dreams, listing to all the officials’ requests and depleting my spiritual power. On the other hand, Ka Suo would go back to his palace because Li Jing would be waiting for him to come home. He said he was afraid that she would be cold while waiting in the wind.

I looked at his diminis.h.i.+ng back and felt so upset because I didn’t know what to say. I could only continue to read the dreams and deplete my spiritual power. I just wanted to become a powerful woman that could lighten Ka Suo’s burden.

But I wasn’t sure if Ka Suo ever thought about me being cold and alone in this big grand hall or not.

I guessed the whole of my life would be given to Ka s...o...b..cause I loved him. Because he deserved all the happiness he should deserve. Everytime if I were to see his sorrowful face, I would think of his smile. It was like suns.h.i.+ne, so clear and bright.

In the end I still died for Ka Suo, dying in the hand of the new Prince of the Fire Tribe. Li Tian Jin’s power was much more powerful than I could expect. I always thought the mermaids were powerful people but now I’ve discovered that no matter how much power I used, I would never be able to win Li Tian Jin. He’s born to be the pet of the heaven.

Right before I died, I saw his smile. It was so blurry and evil like the everlasting red lotus of the Fire Tribe. He just held his hand up towards me and then I felt my body rising into the air like there’s a hand lifting me up from the ground.

I saw the red light flas.h.i.+ng past Li Tian Jin’s eyes as he told me this. “Jian Tong, the clouds are full of souls.”

He closed his fingers and then I felt a tearing pain in my body. At that moment I saw my head flying up into the sky, I saw my mutilated body lying all over the place. Pure white blood was spreading across the black earth like melting snow.

The entire surrounding started to get blurry; I saw Ka Suo’s face in the sky, it was still so sorrowful like before and he was still calling me, “Lan Sang, Lan Sang.”

I wanted to tell him that I was Li Luo. That Li Luo that brought him home several hundreds years ago. Sorrows came gus.h.i.+ng up my chest. “Ka Suo, why didn’t you know who am I even when I’m dying? Don’t you have any feeling?”

Ka Suo’s face disappeared and then I heard the sound of my head dropping to the ground.

I wanted to talk to Ka s...o...b..t I couldn’t talk anymore.

I wanted to tell him, “No matter what happen, please continue to stay strong because there is someone waiting to reunite with you. You possess all the memories of that person in you.”

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