Chapter 54 (2/2)

Hua Xi Wan showed a shocked expression and did not even notice when the fish food in her hand dropped into the water. ”Saozi, you…”

”A few days ago, the grand doctor came and said that it will be very difficult for me to get pregnant in the future.” Hou s.h.i.+'s expression became even more sorrowful, the rims of her eyes red as she said, ”Tell me, what do I have to look forward to in this life?”

Hua Xi Wan had never seen Hou s.h.i.+ look like this. In her mind, Hou s.h.i.+ had always been dignified and magnanimous, and would never show such a weak expression in front of other people. She was very surprised at the other's actions today.

Also, her relations.h.i.+p with Hou s.h.i.+ could only be considered average. Even if Hou s.h.i.+ had something on her mind, it was strange that Hou s.h.i.+ was telling her.

”Saozi, you cannot think like this. Maybe it is just that your body is weak now. When your body recovers, you will have a child.” Even though she did not know Hou s.h.i.+'s intentions, but she could not feel any joy at seeing Hou s.h.i.+ unable to have a child. Why would a woman make things more difficult for other women? ”What you need to do now is rest your body, and not think of anything else.”

”Right now, I really do not want to think of anything else.” After Hou s.h.i.+ said this, she suddenly grabbed Hua Xi Wan's wrist. ”w.a.n.g Fei, I will help you step onto the n.o.blest position if you can help me have my revenge!”

Hua Xi Wan's expression changed. Fortunately, the servants in the surroundings were close to her. Otherwise, it would be worth an execution if Hou s.h.i.+'s words spread. For a woman in this world, what was the n.o.blest position other than the phoenix throne?

”Saozi, you have not been in a good mindset recently. Do not think nonsense.” Hua Xi Wan's expression was stern as she said, ”I did not hear what you said. Please, do not say such things in the future.”

Hou s.h.i.+ saw Hua Xi Wan's complexion that was pale from fright and felt puzzled. She had once heard Junw.a.n.g Ye say that Xian w.a.n.g was someone with great ambitions but a nonchalant appearance. Looking at Hua Xi Wan's expression now, she didn't even seem to dare to think about such a thing. Otherwise, she would not be so frightened.

Was it that Junw.a.n.g was wrong, or that… Xian w.a.n.g was not truly in love with Xian w.a.n.g Fei?

Thinking about Hua Xi Wan's paternal and maternal families, Hou s.h.i.+ instantly understood. She felt some sympathy for Hua Xi Wan. So Xian w.a.n.g was also the same?

With Hua s.h.i.+'s beauty, if she married into an average n.o.ble family, she would be someone who would be cared for greatly. Now that she was married to Xian w.a.n.g, regardless of whether she was truly loved or not, she was probably going to be used by Xian w.a.n.g. When she saw Hua Xi Wan acting as though she didn't know how to move from fright, she did not want to make things difficult for the other. She rubbed the corner of her eye and said, ”Dimei, do not pay any attention. My mind is slightly muddled.”

Hua Xi Wan said hesitantly, ”Saozi, I should not be the one saying this, but as women, I really do not bear to see you going on like this.” She sighed and held Hou s.h.i.+'s hand. ”Listen to me—do not waste your mind on other matters. Take care of your body, be better to yourself; this is better than anything else.”

Hou s.h.i.+ knew that Hua Xi Wan's words were sincere, but since she had walked to where she was now, there was no way for her to turn back. Her husband only had respect for her, but no love. She could not even have a child as a comfort. There was nothing in her life to think about, nothing to hope for.

”The time is late; I should return home.” Hou s.h.i.+ stood and smiled at Hua Xi Wan. She said, ”Thank you, but now that it is like this, there is nothing that I can think of. Dimei, you have more luck than I do…” I hope that you will not end up like me—Hou s.h.i.+ could not say the words. She might sympathize with Hua Xi Wan, but Xian w.a.n.g Fu and her Sheng Junw.a.n.g Fu were people on different sides.

When Hou s.h.i.+ sat on the sedan and came out of Xian w.a.n.g Fu, she coincided with Yan Jin Qiu coming back to the fu on the carriage. She observed through the curtain, sighed and moved her gaze away.

Yan Jin Qiu felt slightly surprised when he heard that Sheng Junw.a.n.g Fei had come to the fu. Today, Yan Bo Yi had taken two cefei. Even though it was not a major matter, it really did not seem like Sheng Junw.a.n.g Fei to not be present in the fu for such an event.

Everyone in Jing knew that Sheng Junw.a.n.g Fei was intelligent and virtuous. It really was unbelievable that she would act like this today.

Originally, Hua Xi Wan did not know why Hou s.h.i.+ would come out of the blue and then leave. When she learned from Yan Jin Qiu that Sheng Junw.a.n.g was taking cefei, she finally knew what happened. No wonder Hou s.h.i.+ lost her composure.

It was a fatal blow when Hou s.h.i.+ learned that she was unable to become pregnant after her miscarriage. Yan Bo Yi taking two cefei was cutting off the last of Hou s.h.i.+'s hopes. A woman without any hope would only walk two paths. One was madness, the other was silence.

Hou s.h.i.+ hated the Crown Prince and his side for causing her infertility, and naturally would not become silent. Therefore, her only choice was going mad.

”Don't they say that Sheng Junw.a.n.g is unaffected by beauty? Why is he in such a hurry to take concubines?” Hua Xi Wan asked with a furrowed brow. ”How can Tansao endure this?”

Yan Jin Qiu said sarcastically, ”He wants to have a son before the Crown Prince. Now that Tangsao is unable to have a child, he is naturally in a hurry to take concubines.” Otherwise, why would he take two cefei at once?

Hua Xi Wan thought of Hou s.h.i.+'s red-rimmed eyes and thin appearance as well as the black and glittering eyes. She sighed. ”It really is a pity.”

It was a pity for this woman who dug out her heart for her man.

Yan Bo Yi's heart was too large and held too many things. Even if a woman like Hou s.h.i.+ sacrificed everything for him, in his mind, she was just a woman.

Translator ramblings:Yan Bo Yi is a typical product of his society, he just doesn't know how to make it look good. However, as said in the chapter, this is a terrible act only in our (the reader's) point of view and other people may feel sorry for him for being childless and blame his wife.