Part 17 (1/2)
”Don't,” I whispered. ”Robert, please don't say it.” I rose to my feet. ”Have a safe trip. G.o.dspeed. And please hurry back.” I kissed the top of his head and quickly went up the stairs to my room. I just couldn't bear to see the look in his eyes.
I thought the first few days after Robert left would be the hardest, but I was mistaken. Each day grew longer, and rather than feel as if it brought his return closer, it only seemed to extend it further.
Throughout each day, I would think of something I wanted to talk to him about, or share a sentence from a wonderful book I was reading, or have William show off his newest words, only to remember that he was gone and it would be weeks before he returned.
To add to that, I worried about the way we left things between us. I knew I had to stop him that night before he said another word. I hoped that by stopping him, things wouldn't change between us. Our friends.h.i.+p could remain just as it was.
Miss Gordon, William, and I went to church on Sunday. In Robert's pulpit stood a minister called a 'supply pastor.' Retired ministers filled in for the active ministers while they were away or on vacation. Reverend Hubbell, an elderly minister recruited from nearby Douglas, a border town to Mexico, agreed to deliver the Sunday sermons for Robert until he returned.
He looked shockingly frail, his skin papery thin, and he had a raspy, feeble voice, not unlike how I imagined Noah's voice would have sounded after climbing a set of stairs in the Ark. Yet when he stood up at that pulpit, out thundered a booming voice.
The text he chose was Ecclesiastes 5:1-7. ”When we come to wors.h.i.+p before the Lord,” he bellowed, ”come quietly! Be prepared to listen more than you talk. G.o.d is communicating. G.o.d is speaking! Listen to the wisdom of King Solomon: 'Keep thy foot when thou goest to the house of G.o.d, and be more ready to hear, than to give the sacrifice of fools: for they consider not that they do evil. Be not rash with thy mouth, and let not thine heart be hasty to utter any thing before G.o.d: for G.o.d is in heaven, and thou upon earth: therefore let thy words be few. For a dream cometh through the mult.i.tude of business; and a fool's voice is known by mult.i.tude of words. For in the mult.i.tude of dreams and many words there are also divers vanities: but fear thou G.o.d'.”
A nagging thought kept popping up but I squelched it. Was I listening to G.o.d about my future? Of course I was! I a.s.sured myself. I was convinced G.o.d would want me to return to Germany as soon as the war was over.
Reverend Hubbell came over after the service for a light supper of soup and sandwiches before driving back to Douglas. After the blessing, we pa.s.sed around dishes, and I waited for an opportunity to ask him something that had been needling me.
”Reverend Hubbell,” I asked, ”do you know a minister in Douglas named Sid Carter?”
”Sid Carter?” he wheezed. ”No, can't say that I do.”
”Are there many ministers in Douglas?”
”Oh, goodness, no. Just a handful. I know just about everyone in that town. Never heard of a Sid Carter.”
I knew it. I just knew it.
After he left, William and I spent the afternoon at loose ends. Finally Miss Gordon spoke up. ”What is the matter with the two of you? You'd think someone had died. For the love of heaven, he'll be back before you know it.”
I laughed and turned to say to William, ”Do you miss your Dad? You look sad.” I made a greatly exaggerated sad face.
”Dad home?” he asked.
”He will come home in three weeks. Twenty-one days,” I answered, pointing to the calendar on the wall and counting off the days to underscore what I was saying.
William sighed.
Miss Gordon was right. We needed to get our minds on other things. When she went upstairs to take a nap, I took William out for a bicycle ride. I ran alongside him, up and down the street, Dog galloping along beside us. William didn't really need me trailing him, so I sat down on the gra.s.s with Dog and watched him ride. ”Not far,” I said, using my hands to gesture that he should stay close.
”Okay,” he yelled as he pedaled madly down the street toward town.
Rosita came outside and sat down with me. ”Louisa, did William just say 'okay'?”
”Yes! That is one word that he can say clearly. Isn't it amazing?”
She smiled, eyes locked on William. ”Father Gordon must be so happy.”
”He is.” I had stopped correcting her t.i.tle for Robert long ago.
”Seems empty here with him gone.”
”He'll be back soon enough,” I said, trying to keep my voice light.
”Louisa?” she asked with a shy grin. ”I have some happy news. You are the first to know. Ramon and I, we are expecting a baby!”
I hugged her. ”Oh, Rosita! That is wonderful news! That is the best news I have heard in a long while.”
She chattered away about the baby as I watched her, soaking up her happiness.
Suddenly, I remembered William. I hadn't seen him bicycle back toward me in the last few minutes. Any time he had a little taste of freedom, it meant we ended up with a visit from Herr Mueller. An irate and apoplectic Herr Mueller.
I excused myself from Rosita and went down the street to look for his red bicycle. I found it leaning against the Muellers' fence. Herr Mueller's car was parked on the street. I looked around for William but couldn't find him. Then I saw him scurry around to one of Herr Mueller's car tires, preparing to let the air out of the tire. Quickly, I rushed to him. ”William,” I said with a stern look of warning. ”No!”
He looked back at me with complete innocence written on his face. He grinned and ran to get his bike. He pedaled home as I followed behind him.
What I didn't realize was that he had already flattened one tire by the time I interrupted him. Nor did I notice the baked potato from last night's dinner stuffed into Herr Mueller's car tailpipe. Herr Mueller informed us of those indiscretions later that day in another angry outburst that left Miss Gordon nursing a violent headache.
On Wednesday morning, Miss Gordon and I took William to Bisbee to meet Mrs. Morgan. Violet, she told us to call her. Her personality was just like the flower. Soft and warm like a spring day. She wanted some time alone to evaluate William, so I took Miss Gordon over to the Prospector's Diner. Wilma winked at me when we sat down. ”Hi, Wilma,” I said, greeting her like an old friend.
”Hey ya, dollface. When are ya coming to work for me?”
”The diner is just a little too far from where I am living, but I thank you for the offer.”
”Whatcha gonna have?”
”I'd like boiled leaves. What would you like, Miss Gordon?”
”Actually, I'll have a cup of joe and a life preserver,” she answered.
”You got it, dollface,” Wilma said, working the gum in her mouth over to one cheek.
”Miss Gordon, you never cease to amaze me!” I said, laughing.
She tried not to look pleased, but smiling eyes betrayed her. Wilma brought her back a cup of coffee with a doughnut and a cup of tea for me. We sat in the quiet, enjoying the atmosphere of the diner. I hesitated to disturb the pleasantness of the moment, but I had been longing to ask her something. I had learned, through experience, it was always best to wait until she was in a good mood. The timing seemed right so I plunged ahead. ”What was she like?”
”Who?” She looked at me as if I had lost my mind.
”Ruth.”
Miss Gordon stiffened her shoulders, reminding me of Robert. It was the first mannerism I'd ever observed that they shared. ”You should ask Robert,” she said in a clipped tone.
”I have. He has told me a little about her. I just wondered what your impressions were of her.”
She sighed and looked out the window for a long moment before answering. ”Well, she was beautiful. Like a movie star.”
I hoped she would elaborate. The Gordons could never be accused of sharing more information than was absolutely necessary.