Part 12 (1/2)

Baldwin's successful proposal to the foundation was for work on an essay collection that would appear in 1955, the epoch-making Notes of a Native Son. Notes of a Native Son.

To Robert Penn Warren March 27, 1954 Barrytown, N.Y.

Dear Red: That's awful, about the leg! I hope it was only a Tennysonian and poetic fracture that will give you an opportunity to dream, and not one of those rough Hemingway-type broken legs. You sound cheerful about it, but then you have an enviable way of referring to your troubles. I wish I had it. As the youngest child I learned to make the most of mine.

I expected you to get the poetry award; you should have gotten it. But I'm sure this is not an injustice that excites you, and though it would have made me feel better to have you on the platform I can only congratulate you on your missing the whole thing. It was an auto-da-fe auto-da-fe, with poor [Bruce] Catton, an awfully nice guy, catching h.e.l.l, and me in my b.u.t.ton-down sanbenito sanbenito [ [50] boiling in the face.

Now everything is nice and quiet once again; I'm writing and I'm in very good spirits.

You could write an ode on that cast and turn the whole thing to profit. Always for bearing off fortune under the very nose of calamity.

Very best wishes,

Bellow had received the National Book Award for Augie March. Augie March. Bruce Catton had won in the nonfiction category for Bruce Catton had won in the nonfiction category for A Stillness at Appomattox A Stillness at Appomattox. Warren's Brother to Dragons Brother to Dragons had been a finalist in poetry, but lost to Conrad Aiken's had been a finalist in poetry, but lost to Conrad Aiken's Collected Poems Collected Poems.

To Oscar Tarcov [n.d.] [Barrytown]

Dear Oscar: I'm very glad the operation went off well and that you have your health again. Now for heaven's sake, let hospitals alone.

Your letter gave me a stir. Yours isn't a happy condition, though it's better than the former one. I wonder what adjustment can be made in our friends.h.i.+p. I was never willing to give it up. You must know that. I realized you were down on your luck and had no margin for patience with me. But I was suffering too, and all I could do was withdraw from your harsh judgments. Had either of us been a little happier we would have done better by the other. But our miseries were anti-symbiotic, or something like that. I was in the strange condition of being envied while I lay at the bottom of h.e.l.l. This being the case, I had no alternative but to close my mind.

It does no good to rake these things over now. I am as eager to bury them as you probably are.

My ideas about the future are vague. Bard College is pretty shaky right now, and anyway I think I may try to make a living at writing. It will have to be a sizable income, and it puts me in a strange position to be, in the ridiculous term people have imported, an avant-garde avant-garde writer with a slick writer's requirements. For one year it may be possible, and after that-who knows? writer with a slick writer's requirements. For one year it may be possible, and after that-who knows?

Merry Pesach, and love to everyone, To John Berryman [n.d.] [Barrytown]

Dear John- Forgive silence. These days letters come hard for me. I attach much consequence to my inability to write them. It means my heart is lazy, and I am very tired. Also, it may mean that I am loath to say what I think, and that is miserable.

There was no rush about the money. I am being stripped anyway [by divorce], and the value of money is exaggerated. With twice as much I am half as well off, but thank you anyway for sending it. Courtesy of poets. I never repay what I borrow from businessmen.

Your bad health is a nuisance. You should really decide to improve it, John. G.o.d knows, I'm a prey to too many weaknesses myself not to understand how it is. But there is a difference between being prey and agreeing agreeing to be prey. I do to be prey. I do not not agree. My defects will kill me, but they'll have to fight me first, and they will lose a few battles before they win the war. agree. My defects will kill me, but they'll have to fight me first, and they will lose a few battles before they win the war.

Things are not good, but they are better with me. Slowly, I'm beginning to get my strength back, though Anita B. has not let up in her campaign to get me crucified. It's a good many miles to Golgotha yet.

Sasha [Sondra Tschacbasov] is infinitely more happy than she's been in her life, I think. A poor book by Arnold Bennett I read this A.M.-Lillian-had one good thing in it. A young girl requires making. A man makes her into a woman. Whither then? I hope she'll become my wife, but it is a great thing to have waked someone into life, and Sasha is a very considerable human being. [ . . . ]

We must have a conversation about health and disease. Meantime, old man, for the love of Mike stop knocking yourself out.

All the best,

To Samuel Freifeld [Postmarked New York, N.Y., 25 April 1954]

Dear Pal- Got record. Very enjoyable-I thank you. Separate thank-occasions are hardly the thing between blood-brothers. I have more grat.i.tude in me than separate thank-grains can ever measure.

So you met my strange delightful buddy Delmore [Schwartz]. And Elizabeth? I hope you hit it off. I am very fond of them. Has Berryman come around? I took the liberty of giving him your address, too. [Peter] Viereck I don't much care for. Are you still so ”conservative”? I called it a phase and let it go at that. Strange you should argue with me as though I were a Nation Nation liberal. Me?!!! So I refused to compound error by thinking you a McCarthy. Was I right? liberal. Me?!!! So I refused to compound error by thinking you a McCarthy. Was I right?

About Eliot-I forgive you because you haven't seen The Confidential Clerk The Confidential Clerk. Wait! I don't know what I'm protesting too much about. Do you mean that he's a mighty Niagara and I a mere squirt? Possibly. But someone has to stand up for Jews and democrats, and when better champions are lacking, squirts must do what they can.

Thank (again!) you for your kindness. Just know I still have about enough dough to get by for a while. I considered calling on you for a loan when I found a house to buy. I need a place of my own very, very badly. I am nearly ready to sit sit and be Columbus's chronicle, not one of his crew. It would do Gregory good, too; he loves to be with me, and it makes him happy to come to me in a settled place. and be Columbus's chronicle, not one of his crew. It would do Gregory good, too; he loves to be with me, and it makes him happy to come to me in a settled place.

Anita keeps me fairly strapped. She always took far more than she gave. I don't reproach her with anything; her nature is its own reproach. I am genuinely sorry for her but I can feel more compa.s.sion as an ex-husband. [ . . . ]

Best love,

To Theodore Weiss [n.d.] [Barrytown]

Dear Ted: I see you've made out something about my character by reading Augie Augie. It's true. Since I had to be there, I ended by rejoicing in Bard. It was quite something. We must have a full-dress discussion of it when you come back. I'd have made some compromise and stayed if I were a tougher character. But you've got to have stability somewhere somewhere to survive this to survive this pays de merveilles pays de merveilles [ [51], cloud-cuckoo, monkey-on-the-back, avant-garde avant-garde b.o.o.by cosmos, and I'm afraid I just don't have it-grit, gumption, s.p.u.n.k, stick-to-itiveness, values founded on rock. With all my heart I enjoyed the sight of a skinny pallid little boy arriving in a chauffeur-driven Cadillac and a lot of other things, more numerous than the daffodils. I took walks and fiddled with fiddling [Emil] Hauser and had excellent conversations. But I couldn't survive meetings and in the end stopped attending. And if I had to choose between trichinosis and talking an hour with F[elix] Hirsch I'd-you know! Where's that raw pork? And [James H.] Case-an Ivy League b.o.o.by cosmos, and I'm afraid I just don't have it-grit, gumption, s.p.u.n.k, stick-to-itiveness, values founded on rock. With all my heart I enjoyed the sight of a skinny pallid little boy arriving in a chauffeur-driven Cadillac and a lot of other things, more numerous than the daffodils. I took walks and fiddled with fiddling [Emil] Hauser and had excellent conversations. But I couldn't survive meetings and in the end stopped attending. And if I had to choose between trichinosis and talking an hour with F[elix] Hirsch I'd-you know! Where's that raw pork? And [James H.] Case-an Ivy League shlimazl shlimazl [ [52]! I say little of the rest of the administration, and of the trustees I have only to speak the name. They are wonderful! Giants of deformity. They could stand with Sobakevitch or any other giant in Dead Souls Dead Souls.

I'm going to miss Jack Ludwig and Ted Hoffman and Heinrich [Blucher] and Andy and you. You and I are, I think, the slowly but durably acquainted type and I have a pleasant expectation of knowing you better. I'll be around in the spring. Europe, alas, is not in my plans. My son can't do without my help this year. It is also somewhat the other way around. But he's starting at another school; I'm beginning another book, and barring the unbarrable unforeseen you'll find me here in the spring when you arrive.

Isn't it amazing how little truth about English weather there is in English poetry? I wonder why that is. They knew no better, perhaps.

Sondra and I send all three of you (I a.s.sume Roz is still with you) our very best.