Part 60 (1/2)

”Oh, Carter!”

So he came into the room and turned round, saying:

”Some soldier, eh?”

Leila had gone out, and all at once I knew that my Patriotism was not what I had thought it, for I could not bear to see him going to War, especialy as his mother would be lonly without him.

Although I have never considered myself weak, I now felt that I was going to cry. I therfore said in a low voice to give me a Handkercheif, and he gave me one of his.

”Why, look here,” he said, in an astounded manner, ”you aren't crying about ME, are you?”

I said from behind his Handkercheif that I was not, except being sorry for his mother and also for him on account of Leila.

”Leila!” he said. ”What about Leila?”

”She is lost to you forever,” I replied in a choking tone. ”She is betrothed to another.”

He became very angry at that, and observed:

”Look here, Bab. One minute I think you are the cleverest Girl in the World, and the next--you little stuped, do you still insist on thinking that I am in love with Leila?”

At that time I began to feel very queer, being week and at the same time excited and getting red, the more so as he pulled the Handkercheif from my eyes and commanded me: ”Bab, look at me. Do I LOOK as though I care for Leila?”

I, however, could not look at him just then. Because I felt that I could not endure to see the Unaform.

”Don't you know why I hang around this House?” he said, in a very savige manner. ”Because if you don't everybody else does.”

Dear Log or Journal, I could but think of one thing, which was that I was not yet out, but still what is called a Sub-Deb, and so he was probably only joking, or perhaps merely playing with me.

I said so, in a low tone, but he only gave a Groan and said:

”I know you are not out and all the rest of it. Don't I lie awake at night knowing it? And that's the reason I----” Here he stopped and said: ”Damm it” in a feirce voice. ”Very well,” he went on. ”I came to say Good-bye, and to ask you if you will write to me now and then. Because I'm going to War half because the Country needs me and the other half because I'm not going to disapoint a certain young Person who has a way of expecting people to be better than they are.”