Chapter 1 (2/2)

daood to ay On top of that, it's a BL setting from the moment I came to this time Was it made this way to increase click rates? In my previous life, I wasn't an eh to make mine I had a couple of sex partners when I returned to China, sie, typically once every week or fortnight There were regular periods of a few e Either way, I have never experienced being emotionally involved in a relationshi+p I have never had a one night stand, never had a ht at anyone's house My preferences in bed are also co any ros for my partner

Now, my mind feels faint, my brain dizzy, my underbelly hot What in the world is this? Why can't I help but gasp for breath? Why do I unconsciously want to grab the youth's hair? Was it because a er sex drive? If it is, from here on, I can truly understand why thethat a reatly[5]

Nevertheless, calest trait Hence, as both hands reached out to grab the youth's hair, I a my limbs to brace his shoulders instead After a second's hesitation, I hardened my heart and pushed the youth away from me

He raised his head to stare atwhat to say But I am taken back after another look at hi nothing at all, absolutely not looking like soo initiated such intimate acts The coldness in his stare

A flash of resentment crossed his eyes and he abruptly pulled away coaze, he prostrates hioing motionless

I can't believe I' attitude towards et on top of hi, it seems to be rather interested in the youth's silent request

However, I have yet to fully adapt in regards totoo much of me to fulfill this request?

The youth is stillfor me I took in his well-toned body, that slender waist and couldn't help feeling sorry for hi very much ashamed deep in his heart?

Not able to bear it any longer, I suddenly wish to co hand to touch his tailbone His body tre to avoid but is with htly ran up his backbone, causing him to shudder Fro Originally, I had the aiiven rise to a different reaction than what I was hoping for I know the youth is getting excited Looking at his narrow bottoan to feel numb, but…even if you beat me to death I cannot do what you want me to do ah!

Thus, I jump to one side of the bed, h…today, I don't feel like…”

His head snaps up, beautiful pupils displaying extreme despair and hatred as he stares at me Shocked, I wanted to recoil when he throws hi me back on the bed

Dropping kisses rando the hate in his eyes, level tone carrying a trace of desperation, he asks: ”Daren, you don't want me anymore? Didn't you say you like Jinzi the most? That you will forever not throw me aside?”

Footnotes:

[1] An expression of surprise

[2] Onohtly

[3] Daren （大人）= Lord (a forh official rank)

[4] Wu Zetian (624 - 705): Tang Ened 690 - 705

[5] Author's words This translator is innocent (⊃д⊂)

Translator’s notes: The words in brackets in the story itself is in the raws They are not(∇)

Also, reading it see sexual references it kinda gives me second-hand embarrassment…? Haha…idk…