Chapter 38 (1/2)

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No, that's just not it. Everything I did up til this point was stupid. Like thinking that smas.h.i.+ng the skull of an Undead would make them stop moving…

”Keh…”

Zombies would die when their heads are bashed in. Same goes for the Skeletons.

Just what in the world was I thinking. You s.h.i.+thead.

This is a matter of life and death. It could be me or someone else that dies next time, so how could I be so stupid?

Because of me, a teenager is dead. Well, to be honest, it's not entirely my fault since we all have to protect ourselves in here.

But… if I had only been more careful. If only...I was fast enough...he could still be alive. That much I knew for sure.

”d.a.m.n it….”

My mouth was dry, and I couldn't get the sick feeling out of my stomach. Everything was bothering me.

”d.a.m.n it, d.a.m.n it, G.o.d d.a.m.n it!”

Kw.a.n.g!

I smashed my hand on the wall. Pain radiates to my fist, but it quickly faded away.

Out of frustration, I went outside with a pack of cigarettes in my hand.

I place a cigarette between my lips and lit up the lighter. Cigarette's burning smoke was quickly making its way down my airway. Then, I let it out in a single sigh as I crouched down on the ground next to the door.

Why the h.e.l.l is it so hard to just live?

Everyone else is living out their normal lives peacefully….so why am I the only one who's going through this? Getting involved in that hit and run….

Which reminds me, how am I supposed to catch them? Wait a minute, do I even have the luxury of going after them?

My head is spinning…

”Hooooo….”

Another exhale of heavily inhale smoke leaves my body. I flicked off the burning cherry in the cigarette in order to blow out the fire.

I couldn't get over this feeling. It's like something that's just been stained within me.

But, i must do whatever I can to forget it because...I'm going to have to return to that h.e.l.lhole.

”Ha...haha..”

Unable to think straight, I took out another stick and placed it between my lips. The burning cigarette smokes relieved my clouded mind.

Pull yourself together, you b.a.s.t.a.r.d.

Do you plan on dying already? Huh? I was constantly giving myself a hard time for what had happened. But, I didn't dwell on the thought for too long.

Plans for tomorrow.

Work for tomorrow.

Yeah, that's where I need to place my focus on.

I got through today like this…what am I going to do about tomorrow? The increase in difficulty per day is insane….even with my recent upgrades, I'm not going to last forever.

Purchasing stuff from the real world should make more sense right now. I remember the hockey plates I used in the early stages. It did provide some protection, but it dulled my movements significantly.

I'll need something different….

What is there?

Something useful….