Part 27 (1/2)

”Now, Dale,” the Canon said, ”for goodness' sake tell her to be more orderly and to do less--mind and body. She behaves as if life was a whirlpool. She swims stupendously, tell her to float--and give her a tonic.”

And he went out of the room shaking his head at the culprit on the couch.

When the door had shut upon him, Maurice came up to the fire in silence and looked at Lily. She smiled at him rather hopelessly, and then suddenly she said:

”Poor dear father! To ask you to make me take life so easily!”

That remark was the first onward gliding of their minds in speech, the uttered continuance of the hitherto silent colloquy between them.

Maurice sat down. He accepted the irony of the situation suggested by the Canon without attempt at a protest.

”Life can never be easy, if one thinks,” he said. Then, trying to adopt the medical tone, he added:

”But you think too much. I have often felt that lately.”

”Yes,” she said.

Her eyes were bent on him with a scrutiny that was nearly ungirlish.

Maurice tried not to see it as he put his fingers on her wrist. She added:

”I have felt that about you too.”

Maurice had taken out his watch. Without speaking he timed the fluttering pulsation of her life, then, dropping her hand and returning the watch to his pocket:

”Your too eager thoughts were of me?” he asked.

”Yes, but yours were not of me.”

”Not always,” he said, with an honesty that pleased her.

And again Lily saw above his face the shadowy crown of thorns. She was really unwell and ready to be unstrung. Perhaps this made her say hastily, as she s.h.i.+fted lower on her cus.h.i.+ons:

”I'm partly ill to-day because you let me see how horribly you are suffering.”

”Yes,” Maurice said heavily. ”I let you see it. Why's that?”

There was nothing like a shock to either of them in the directness of their words. They seemed spoken rightly at the inevitable time. No thought of question, of denial, was entertained by them. Maurice sat there by her and dropped his mask utterly.

”Miss Alston, I am a haunted man,” he said.

And, in a moment, as he spoke, he seemed to be old. Lily said nothing.

She twisted between her little fingers the thin rug that covered her, and was angry with herself because, all of a sudden, she wanted to cry.

”And I am beginning to wonder,” Maurice went on, ”how much longer I can bear it, just how long.”

Lily cleared her throat. It struck her as odd that she did not feel strange with this man who looked so old in the thin light from the lamp.

Indeed, now that the mask had entirely fallen from him, he seemed more familiar to her than ever before.

”I suppose we must bear everything so long as G.o.d chooses,” she said.

”No, so long as we choose.”