Part 25 (2/2)

But it was not the waiter. It was Edith Boyd. He saw her through the mirror, and so addressed her.

”h.e.l.lo, sweetie,” he said. Then he turned. ”You oughtn't to come here, Edith. I've told you about that.”

”I had to see you, Lou.”

”Well, take a good look, then,” he said. Her coming fitted in well with the complacence of his mood. Yes, life was good, so long as it held power, and drink, and women.

He stooped to kiss her, but although she accepted the caress, she did not return it.

”Not mad at me, Miss Boyd, are you?”

”No. Lou, I'm frightened!”

CHAPTER XIV

On clear Sundays Anthony Cardew played golf all day. He kept his religious observances for bad weather, but at such times as he attended service he did it with the decorum and dignity of a Cardew, who bowed to his G.o.d but to nothing else. He made the responses properly and with a certain unction, and sat during the sermon with a vigilant eye on the choir boys, who wriggled. Now and then, however, the eye wandered to the great stained gla.s.s window which was a memorial to his wife. It said beneath: ”In memoriam, Lilian Lethbridge Cardew.”

He thought there was too much yellow in John the Baptist. On the Sunday afternoon following her ride into the city with Louis Akers, Lily found herself alone. Anthony was golfing and Grace and Howard had motored out of town for luncheon. In a small office near the rear of the hall the second man dozed, waiting for the doorbell. There would be people in for tea later, as always on Sunday afternoons; girls and men, walking through the park or motoring up in smart cars, the men a trifle bored because they were not golfing or riding, the girls chattering about the small inessentials which somehow they made so important.

Lily was wretchedly unhappy. For one thing, she had begun to feel that Mademoiselle was exercising over her a sort of gentle espionage, and she thought her grandfather was behind it. Out of sheer rebellion she had gone again to the house on Cardew Way, to find Elinor out and Jim Doyle writing at his desk. He had received her cordially, and had talked to her as an equal. His deferential att.i.tude had soothed her wounded pride, and she had told him something--very little--of the situation at home.

”Then you are still forbidden to come here?”

”Yes. As if what happened years ago matters now, Mr. Doyle.”

He eyed her.

”Don't let them break your spirit, Lily,” he had said. ”Success can make people very hard. I don't know myself what success would do to me. Plenty, probably.” He smiled. ”It isn't the past your people won't forgive me, Lily. It's my failure to succeed in what they call success.”

”It isn't that,” she had said hastily. ”It is--they say you are inflammatory. Of course they don't understand. I have tried to tell them, but--”

”There are fires that purify,” he had said, smilingly.

She had gone home, discontented with her family's lack of vision, and with herself.

She was in a curious frame of mind. The thought of Louis Akers repelled her, but she thought of him constantly. She a.n.a.lyzed him clearly enough; he was not fine and not sensitive. He was not even kind. Indeed, she felt that he could be both cruel and ruthless. And if she was the first good woman he had ever known, then he must have had a hateful past.

The thought that he had kissed her turned her hot with anger and shame at such times, but the thought recurred.

Had she had occupation perhaps she might have been saved, but she had nothing to do. The house went on with its disciplined service; Lent had made its small demands as to church services, and was over. The weather was bad, and the golf links still soggy with the spring rains. Her wardrobe was long ago replenished, and that small interest gone.

And somehow there had opened a breach between herself and the little intimate group that had been hers before the war. She wondered sometimes what they would think of Louis Akers. They would admire him, at first, for his opulent good looks, but very soon they would recognize what she knew so well--the gulf between him and the men of their own world, so hard a distinction to divine, yet so real for all that. They would know instinctively that under his veneer of good manners was something coa.r.s.e and crude, as she did, and they would politely snub him. She had no name and no knowledge for the urge in the man that she vaguely recognized and resented. But she had a full knowledge of the obsession he was becoming in her mind.

”If I could see him here,” she reflected, more than once, ”I'd get over thinking about him. It's because they forbid me to see him. It's sheer contrariness.”

But it was not, and she knew it. She had never heard of his theory about the mark on a woman.

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